“Take me Take me Take me Take me Take me
Take me Take me Take me Take me Take me
The lyrics of Escape were perfect to describe my feelings. I wanted Jurina-san to take me where she is. I just wanted to be with her. It had been a week since Jurina-san visited me the last time and I was sitting on my bed sobbing again.. I had been missing her like crazy every day. I felt so empty..
After the official Hiatus announcement few days ago I had been crying every single day and nearly had a panic attack. And just thinking about Jurina-san made me cry again..
“Jurina-saaaan… I miss you~ Please get well soon and come back… I-I can’t do this without you…”
“Rina-chan” I heard a soft voice. I lifted my head and saw Jurina-san standing in front of me in a beautiful white dress like an angel. Which she is.
“Ehh? J-Jurina-san?? “Jurina-saaan!” I couldn’t control my feelings anymore. I called her name and collapsed crying on the floor.
Jurina-san ran to me worried and hugged me tight “Shhh.. everything is ok. I’m here.” She said and pulled me into her arms. My heart was beating like crazy.
“Jurina-san… I-I can’t do this without you… I can’t do anything without you…please don’t leave me” I was hurting so much it was hard to talk.
“Rina-chan, please try to be strong for me. I can recover better and faster if I know that my Rina-chan is ok. If I think that you are hurting.. I’m hurting even more. I will never leave you, I promise you that. I would visit you every day, but management and other people are so strict that I can’t run away to meet you so easilly. I’m very sorry Rina-chan. I would be the happiest here with you. Here I don’t think about those horrible things at all and my body can rest too, because you take care of me. You love me and protect me and that is what heals me the best.”
I looked at Jurina-san and was too overhelmed to say anything. “Jurina-san just called me her Rina-chan.. and all those other things she said..” I thought in my mind.
Jurina-san looked at me and smiled, but I could see tears in her eyes too. “Jurina-san..please don’t cry…” I said and held her tighter. “I will stay strong for you.. I will. I will wait for you forever, my beloved Jurina-san. Don’t worry” Suddenly I had the courage to say that out loud.
Jurina-san smiled and kissed me on the forehead.
“I have to go now, but I’ll see you soon. Take care of yourself my Rina-chan. Don’t worry about me. I will be in good hands. Please wait for me. Oh and one thing..please call me Jurina, ok?”
Tears came out from my eyes again when I realized that I won’t see Jurina in a long time. I held her even tighter. So tight I was afraid of hurting her.
“Jurina-san…ah I’m sorry. J-Jurina” I could hardly speak, but I wanted to say those words.
“I love you. I will love you forever” I said and blushed right away.
Jurina looked straight into my eyes and caressed my cheek with her hand.
“I love you too, my Rina-chan. Forever”
Then Jurina held me closer and kissed me on the cheek. “See you soon Rina-chan. I’m going to miss you..”
“And I’m going to miss you, Jurina. So much.. ” I said with tears in my eyes. “Take care of yourself. Rest well, but please come back as soon as possible”
“I will” Jurina said and lifted me back on the bed.
“Bye bye Rina-chan” She kissed me on the forehead for the one last time and held my hand.
“Bye bye Jurina..” I said and tried to hold her hand, but it slid away from my hand and then she was gone.
I sighed heavily and bursted into tears.
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