Choose Love

Most people have forgotten they have a choice. I did..

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Crushing on the stars...hard. . . . From ‘Be With Me’. Presale is now $.99. Link in bio. #nature #stars #crush #reader #sundaypoetry #poetry https://www.instagram.com/p/B6GlSehlKXN/?igshid=h6t8uxzz5h4q

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Now available for $.99 until 12/22! Link in bio. #poetry #bewithme #ebook #kindle #poems #poem #writersofinstagram #writer #authorsofinstagram #author #poems #poem https://www.instagram.com/p/B6E6w2jFgLy/?igshid=mqf9oa45g1vh

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From my upcoming book ‘Be With Me’. . . . #ebook #poetry #art #love #beauty #lovequotes #hummingbird #magic #poems #bewithme #author #authorsofinstagram #writer #universe https://www.instagram.com/p/B5_9SSzlINU/?igshid=7eb7h9bmlqgx

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I used you to avoid my sadness. I’m sorry I did that to myself. When I lost me in you, I could hear the universe weep. She created me in her image And I was tossing this beauty aside out of fear. Fuck your fear and fuck mine too. I don’t want to change you. I just want to be with someone who wants what I do. . . . One of the poems from my new poetry book available for preorder this weekend. . . . Art: @chamo_san Words: @womanandme #ebook #poems #poem #poetry #bewithme https://www.instagram.com/p/B5_Zm28lMWa/?igshid=1old0v7vpkckp

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Who would be down for another poetry book? . . . #poetry #poems #poem #author #authorsofinstagram #writer #writerslife #book #bookstagram https://www.instagram.com/p/B58qLtdlXP-/?igshid=9cljpz2gja82

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How do I know that this will not be me in 30 years? Because everything I build will always be rebirthed. Every woman that I think I am will always become a false identity over time. This path is full with life, surrender, death and rebirth. There’s no right way to follow. It requires me to be fully alert to the very alive powers of life and divine. . . . www.womanandme.com . . . #tantra #coaching #goddess (at The Colony, Texas) https://www.instagram.com/p/B5KDeRWlRsU/?igshid=1fwx7biosd8du

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3 years ago next month, in an intense and permanent (I have the tattoo still) ceremony, I chose to release my victimhood in return for success. At the time I figured success would give me a tv show, some modeling gigs, a book deal, a hot guy and cash. The universe had a deeper plan for me. I had a ton of energy from the past that I was clinging to. I was walking around with a "traditional" set of values, without knowing what that meant. Family comes first. A good woman takes care of her man. Home is where the heart is. These values did not give me peace or harmony, they gave me mad anxiety and the fear that I was constantly messing up. It didn't mean anything to me other than trying to please other people. It's almost like getting a tattoo of "Be kind, rewind." but no one owns a VCR anymore. The rules I was playing by were for a world that didn't exist. So instead of handing me my list of demands, the universe taught me presence, resilience, commitment, compassion and discipline. Which completely rewrote the values I clung to. Freedom requires presence. When I learned my patterns for disconnecting and numbing, I was able to sit with everything. To be present with my bad habits, my weaknesses and my power. Being able to find my own voice in the crowd over and over again. My practice is one of the things I got right. Ritual keeps me surrendered to what's in front of me and my daily practice anchors me into my truth and my power. And through this process I began to trust myself. . . . (Photo sent to me by @psalmisadora after my initiation. This is her and her guru after her initiation) . . #initiation #guru #tantra #trust #ceremony #practice https://www.instagram.com/p/B5IqeQUFQlP/?igshid=pbf1eknqtkcd

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I get it, no one taught us intimacy. But let me be clear, Tantra is not about intimacy and relationships. In fact, your practice let’s you move past the hold they have on you. The bells and whistles and glamour of the Kama Sutra, the Koka Shastra and Ananga Ranga pull you in with the hook of ecstasy. But Tantra is about deep transformation. Truth. Empowerment. Not to dip your toes into a scene, but to learn to release the pretenses that hold you back and burn them in the fire. You may be drawn in with the promise of sweets, but know she holds a sword in her other hand. www.womanandme.com #bellsandwhistles #goodmarketing https://www.instagram.com/p/B42jFQ3lHk7/?igshid=9epvy89f7x0b

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Did you forget to have fun on your path? I had a call with a fellow tantrika and we laughed at ourselves, hard. We keep creating the normal life and in one swoop of practice/shakti/authenticity, it’s destroyed. I didn’t set out on this path to recreate what I’ve seen before. It requires presence, passion, surrender, and some guts. To stay present to my bad habits. To curate and direct my passion so it’s not destructive. To surrender to what feels overwhelming or crazy- there’s no more curtain calls. This is the live show. The reward is that life is not plastic. It’s not rehearsed. I’ve never been here before. I’m fully alive. Most people are afraid to step into the gray. That’s okay. My wild soul wouldn’t let me pretend another day that I was normal or satisfied role playing in a simulated life. When I feel pain I am on my knees with tears and snot on my chin. When I feel pleasure everyone in the building feels it. Everyone’s asking you to “Surrender”, but what does it mean? In the plainest terms of my experience, surrender means that I am not God. Surrender means that I cannot control life. Surrender means there is something greater than me. At the same time, I am an expression of the Divine. It’s both. This and that. Control is not a word for the Goddess path. The revolution is creating your own safe place over and over again. . . . #revolution #fun #cosmicparty #yoga #goddess #art #prayer #surrender #meditation #rave Art: @alksko https://www.instagram.com/p/B4nbGMmFmyQ/?igshid=1n2fw6ypxfty

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I’m seeing a lot of posts on trauma. The “suck it up” message that quietly sneaks into our “goddess culture” is pretty evil. There’s no spiritual path in the world asking you to fight, to suck it up, to stop it. Deep, spiritual work is personal. It requires compassion and discipline. Trauma is wiring in the brain that’s created a loop. People can’t just stop it or suck it up. There’s a difference between people showing up at workshops trying to share their pain and not going home to do the work and people who are truly suffering and feel lost/stuck/broken. There are no guarantees, no quick fixes or hacks but it does get better. Just a gentle reminder that you’re not broken, you’re not stuck, and you don’t have to rush any process so you can “manifest”. Be on your own team. #advocate #health #trauma #culture #goddess https://www.instagram.com/p/B4kyr3blSUx/?igshid=ppdor3k3cy5j

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“I was raised religious. The word “butthole” wasn’t allowed to be used in the house, so I was already programmed to see an🅰️l ⚡️€x as naughty or wrong. My first encounter with 🅰️nal ⚡️€x was pretty rough. My boyfriend and I were parked in his Toyota Tercel outside of my older sister’s house. One wrong angle and I felt a searing hot pain and could only yell “Wrong hole, wrong hole, wrong hole.” I limped into the house as fast as I could, leaving my teenage dream a little confused but also on the verge of laughter as I waddled away. I felt like I had shit my pants and was being ripped from the inside out. It wasn’t the best. I never wanted to talk about it again. So throughout my adult life, an🅰️l was just a no go for me. Exit only. Fast forward over a decade and I am selling @chakrubs root plugs at a drag show in midtown. I had begun building a practice of meeting spirituality and se❌uality , coaching men and women in New York City. In theory I knew all about the root chakra...” . . Full article @frequemagazine by yours truly. 12 steps to 🅰️nal ple🅰️sure . . www.thefreque.com Art: @tinamariaelena #writersofinstagram #writer #blogger #coach #yoga #meditation #freedom #chakra #rootchakra #chakrahealing https://www.instagram.com/p/B4ktpMOlGd2/?igshid=6cepe6g6mvsh

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Following someone is the best way to avoid change. I know this first hand. As a Christian I followed Jesus, but there was no transformation until I practiced and became a disciple. Feel the knowledge unfold in my body. The same with Tantra. Stop following and listen. Stop devoting yourself and start practicing. It’s not about merely agreeing. You can agree with someone and it cuts off life. Listening is not agreeing. Following is not transformational. But to sit and listen. To yourself. To a master. That is the transformation. Not the distraction of agreeing with someone else’s truth. . . . Photo: @nicholaskhess #distraction #followers #practice #devotion #dailydevotional #selfreminders #tantra https://www.instagram.com/p/B4S9yZsF7ts/?igshid=12jy2vpriuwut

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Enjoy your lover, be soft with him. His body has been neglected. His heart is buried and his hands are rough. Be soft with your lover, he is also God. Walking and crawling his path, looking for a temple. When he arrives, wash his feet. Caress his face. Bathe him in your moisture and give him some to drink. He is the universe on his knees, begging to touch you. Kiss his face and dip your hands in oil. Prepare him for worship. Sing to him, calm his mind. Light a fire and watch him come alive. Do not fear his size or rejection, he’s come so far to see you. Revel in his restoration. Expect nothing in return but the joy of this moment. Do not push or pull your lover. No control. No ultimatums. Just the joy of bowing at his altar and seeing him come alive. . . Art: @martine.emdur Poetry: @womanandme #poetry #worship #love #lovers #travel #art https://www.instagram.com/p/B30rEKsFoBk/?igshid=1i20n0wq9wnbs

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It wasn’t a vision board type of manifesting, it was an energy of “This feels good and fits.” When I was introduced to @chakrubs by my teacher @psalmisadora, I knew it would be a long and loving relationship, even if it was just my personal experience with their products. When they asked me to share some storytelling and information, it wasn’t a freak out, get on the floor moment (my friends who have witnessed my on the floor moments know 😂) It was again “This feels good and fits.” Check out my first blog @chakrubs On how observing our intentions and experiences with ⚡️ex guide us to liberation. Thank you again to @chakrubs #blogger #chakras #chakra #chakrubs #crystals #libra #meditation #yoga #reflection #liberation https://www.instagram.com/p/B3cRj64Fr3l/?igshid=qegqool2vgcs

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I can’t promise what you’ll feel, but I do know that it we be undeniable. In this practice of Tantra and Sound, we will access and move our life force energy through vibration. Join myself and @architects_of_experience for this immersive experience in NYC. (Also it’s on a full moon) Link in bio for tickets. —————————————- #nyc #nycevents #meditation #yoga #fullmoon #libra #october #events #nyevents #soundhealing #shakti (at Reflections, Center for Conscious Living and Yoga) https://www.instagram.com/p/B3K-GP4lWO4/?igshid=2fr7zz7jc2y9

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I may be officially Canadian now. So grateful for the women at this week’s Wild Soul Retreat by @elementsdayspaleduc It was deep, it was love, and it was female ♥️ So excited to come back again #womensempowerment #womensretreat #canada #libra #newmoon #fire #yoga #meditation #healing #sisterhood (at Edmonton, Alberta) https://www.instagram.com/p/B3Fy47OFJHg/?igshid=yiythk7nmc82

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I've been thinking about you. A lot. I've recently started talking to you again. Even in your death you keep up the status of my heaviest hitting teacher. My sweetness did not charm you. My intelligence did not impress you. And my bullshit couldn't resist getting on your nerves or fighting with you. I'm grateful for everything. All of it. The pain, the abandonment, the liberation, the peek behind the curtain. You were the first one to look me deep in the eyes and say "No, you're a writer." So I take you with me everywhere I go. All the love, all the fire, all the bullshit. I write you poetry that you would've rolled your eyes at. I pray for help and can still hear your raspy laugh "Put your big girl pants on." All the love, all the fire, all the bullshit. Happy birthday, @psalmisadora https://www.instagram.com/p/B2hYuNGFcNB/?igshid=uiybnr5bjy9a