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Cw: 199 height: 5'8 Gw1: 190 Ugw: 120

[sknnygirlypop]

my moods 🤠

[bpd-hippo]

[palewansickly]

OMG. This. Changes. Everything.

[a-littlebit-ofsunshine-deactiva]

Reblogging for my followers who might have trouble remembering whether or not they’ve taken their medicine!

[nonespark-blog]

OH MY GOD, THIS WILL HELP ME SO MUCH. I GET SO SCARED WHEN I DON’T KNOW IF I JUST TOOK MY MEDS TWICE.

THANK YOU, I’M ABOUT TO CRY.

[xanax-and-cigarette-burns]

This is genius

[traaumaa]

“im getting better!” i tell myself, while actively planning my suicide

[xanax-and-cigarette-burns]

Holy shit I feel this

[leafsea]

[proteja-deactivated20111228]

[jforjoelle-blog]

last time i did this my wish really came true. so im going to wish again

[luxurious-awakening]

nothing to lose. :))

[intoxicated-s0uls-deactivated20]

Let’s hope

[30rockasaurus]

Why not? :)

[allthepheelsandphandoms]

*crossing fingers*

[tkaaay]

pretty much^^^^

[itsrebeccablack]

i got nothing to lose. (:

[curls-get-gurls-blog]

Last time i did this my wish came true.

[sleep-for-days]

Jesus Christ if my wish comes true I will piss

[sparkhy]

please work omg

[youthique]

looks fun lol

[baimbie]

please 

[edgygayboy]

IT SERIOUSLY WORKED

[barakat1818]

Well, i got nothing to lose, might as well try it

[deliideli-deactivated20160305]

This shall be interesting😌

[saniosan-deactivated20160202]

I really need this.

[princessofautumn825]

Hopefully it works

[oldermentc2]

cmon

[cactus-cacti-deactivated2020052]

Whump

[the-live-life]

Please

[just-trying-my-hardest]

Jesus, lord knows my ass needs a miracle lol

[just-trying-my-hardest]

Yall ever say fuck it and binge.

Because whooPs

I'm a

Failure

[heavenshu]

[sippin-green-tea]

You had me at no dysphoria

Fave thinspo ✨💀

[ghostsingold]

me: here i am brushing my teeth early! gonna go to bed early! gonna wake up in the morning and have a good, productive day!

me at 2am: c h o m c o l a t e

[just-trying-my-hardest]

Duuude me rn, I was gonna go to bed early so I could wake up and go for a run in the morning.

RIP

[just-trying-my-hardest]

So I'm fat right, okay. I found a calculator that can predict a timeline for you, it's called Losertown (just google it, it'll pop up) and here's mine:

Now, if I stick to 400 cals a day with exercising 3-5 times a week I can reach my UGW in Sept. As time goes on I plan on lowering the intake and increasing exercise so it'll hopefully work. This will just serve as a "jumping off point" I guess.

Okay bye

[just-trying-my-hardest]

Ugh, I just finished a work out. Im so disgusted. I REALLLLY let myself go didn't I. Sigh.

Every crunch I did I felt like I was suffocating in my own fat. God I'm disgusting.

[dead-flower-blossom-83]

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[sadlyill]

This is my favorite and my personal reason to

[skinny-bitch-aesthetic]

I am literally so disappointed and disgusted with myself I just cant like this quarantine thing isn't it I've binged for 3 days straight and gained 5 pounds I just cant with myself anymore I feel disgusting

[just-trying-my-hardest]

So I'm fat right, okay. I found a calculator that can predict a timeline for you, it's called Losertown (just google it, it'll pop up) and here's mine:

Now, if I stick to 400 cals a day with exercising 3-5 times a week I can reach my UGW in Sept. As time goes on I plan on lowering the intake and increasing exercise so it'll hopefully work. This will just serve as a "jumping off point" I guess.

Okay bye

[just-trying-my-hardest]

I Can't Stand Myself.

I hate looking into the mirror.

I hate seeing what I am, and what I've turned into.

Im so fat, and I'm ugly. I let myself go.

Everytime I see myself I feel nauseated, like my own reflection is enough to make me throw up.

It's horrible. I let myself go.

[expectxresistance]

Soooo. I've lost 80lbs so far and since y'all seemed to like the last one a lot, i thought i'd again talk about what happens to you when you lose that much

*i have so many bones?? Even places i would have never expected to get boney have become boney yay

*i when i stretch you can easily see my ribcage now. I'm in love

*i still get dizzy whenever i get up? Not sure that will ever go away again but i've gottwn used to it

*i cannot comprehend eating 3 meals a day anymore? It seems like so much wtf

*people are starting to get worried for the first time. Liek before it was always yay you're losing we're so proud of you but now they are starting to get a bit worried when they see i have yet lost some more weight

*i'm at a healthy bmi for the first time in over 10 years and that sweet validation my friends.. To all of you out there starting out with a higher sw.. It's so fucking worth it

*exercise is EVERYTHING. I know u don't like to hear it but it is. Not only because it allows you to eat a couple more calories now and then but your physique! Changes! So much! I am still at a fairly high weight imo but a lot of it is muscle so i actually look a lot thinner than i would without it

*my flatmate has been my personal thinspo for YEARS. I just surpassed her weight and am now skinnier than her. There are no words for this u can all imagine

*i'm legit allowing myself a lot of cheat foods but there's the holy grail: cheat foods NOT cheat days. You're really craving cheesy pasta? Go for it! Fucking spend all ur calories and then some on it and then you gotta turn around drink a fuckton of water think to yourself you couldn't take another bite and continue restricting. It's possible and makes you a lot less likely to binge in the long run.

*whenever i do binge: i allow myself to satiate myself and once ivm 'done' i start fasting immediately for around 20-24h and then keep the cal count for that day under 700. Works like a charm everyday and i haven't gained from binging since

*my heart beats a little irregular? Idk man, it's a bit scary

*i am cold all the time now and everyone comments on it. I feel like a tiny being and i love it

*my girlfriend can carry me around now

*i cannot wait to lose the next 10lbs,this shit is addictive af

*EVERYTHING i consume media wise has to be about eds now. I even read ed fanfiction idk what's wrong with me bc it triggers me af

*if you can, you should get out NOW. i am proud of my progress but i can recognise how horrible this lifestyle is. I wouldn't wish this on anyone

[teabagskeleton]

It’s almost funny how just one binge can make you question everything. You think you are faking it all. You think you ‘ll never be skinny. You think it’s all over. But it’s not. One binge doesn’t change anything. <3