what if I am on my deathbed but then I feel like my life was completed by someone else who loves me unconditionally so I express desire to meet this person and to learn why I exist even though I get warned I will need to repeat the end of the world for 1864 times
what if in the 1863rd round I meet him, do not recognize who he is, but he helps me and breaks me and hears the inner voice of me that wishes to live even though what I say out loud is "I want to die" ! what if he shows me the world of the 1864th round where everything is better and I wish to go to that world more than anything else
what if I go to that world with no memories intact again and I meet that person, I start trusting him and rely on him and it's natural. I kill him and I refuse death for him. I learn that I exist solely to keep him alive and I'm happy and relieved because of it
but he leaves and my life feels like it has ended, that person leaves my side and it feels like i didn't earn anything. i go to my creator to die because i no longer know how to live. i take a journey to bring back the million fragments of his soul but i expect to die and fail. i meet his reincarnation and don't recognize him. my journey is far from over
