
Janaina Medeiros
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@justanotherdumbasssss
I think after my mom dies, Iām just going to pack my bag and travel.
Maybe something will happen on the travels for better or for worse
I just want to see more of this world before I die
On the edge
Looking for an escape
From whatās behind the door
Afraid of whatās to come
Raised voices turning into something more
Worry for others facing the same demon
An unnecessary evil, their demeanor
It all adds up, it all leads,
Trying to find the ground beneath the feet
One moment to relax, next to despair
Peace and dread, walking a fine fucking edge
The door remains right there,
The one you canāt hack out of, the one you return to
Wondering what gets killed first,
The hope or the will
You step out the door
with a facade made fine,
Years of putting on a mask,
For few happy memories you pine
im full of too much whimsy (mental health issues)
Itās so easy to be mediocre
Itās so easy to watch others work tirelessly towards their dreams
Itās so easy to want yet not have
Itās so easy to watch the world pass you by
Itās so easy to want an end
Itās so easy to be forgetful
Itās so easy to be invisible
Itās so easy to dream
Itās so easy to remain mediocre
Feeling tired is easy, wanting to kill myself is easy
I wouldnāt wish this life of ease for someone else
Music helps to ignore the loud voices inside my head
Hold back the dawn, Jacqueline Barkla
Writing a hp fanfic is fun, just gotta stay consistent.
I aim to become good enough to be able to write the stories I want.
Something to leave behind.
Iām watching a movie on Netflix called Nonnas and I wish I could experience what itās like growing up in an Italian family
Filled a tax form
Collated documents for a lawyer
Sent an email out to a customer service for a missing part
Walked almost 6 kms today morning
Productive first half of the day ā
Just assembled a gym bench, hopefully I can stick to a workout routine
Iām fucking tired of this life. I donāt have a goal that Iām working towards.
The only reason Iām here is so that I can be there for my mom and brother.
Every day we have to walk on eggshells around my dad. Every day we have to be stuck in this hellhole because I donāt earn enough money to be able to move out.
Iām tired. I used to dream that I will move away, away from this family, away from this country. I did everything I could to try and get a loan, year after year, but I couldnāt get it.
And I realised that I canāt do it, I canāt leave my brother to deal with all of this alone. I canāt leave my mom because her health has its own ups and downs.
So here I am, another day of wanting nothing to do with this reality I find myself in. I donāt have the courage to kill myself, I couldnāt even do it if I did because I need to be here for them, even if being here means working in a soulless corporate job just so I can earn money to alleviate at least some financial pressure off them and provide for myself.
The seconds pass by,
I stand still,
Rigid, stuck, unmoving
Stale hands, heavy eyelids
Ache in my chest
I hold on,
It could be worse
Repeat
Happiness is a fever dream
Thereās a dance routine at the end of Step Up 3 where the background song is āto build a homeā by cinematic orchestra and I wish I can recreate that someday with someone
Close your eyes, let the music do the rest
I crave you in the most innocent form. I crave to say goodnight and give you forehead kisses.