Most important realizations of 2019:
You can't count on anybody. You really are on your own. If you have one person in your life that will always come thru for you, you better hang onto them and treat them right because they're probably the only one you'll get.
You can't change other people's perceptions of you. If someone is always quick to point out your faults and refuses to acknowledge their own, they aren't there to stay. They are there to push you to do better. Once you get to your next chapter, you will realize that you no longer want to be criticized and you will move on.
You have to help yourself. Lying down and waiting for someone to notice your pain isn't going to move you forward. People will let you down if you depend on them. Sometimes you don't get to be made whole before you can move on. You just have to pick up those broken parts and carry them until you can afford the right tools to fix it. Stop trying to make everyone understand that you're hurting. No one will ever care as much as you.
Time is your most valuable possession. If presented the opportunity, always get paid for your time. You will never get it back and without anything to show for it you will not get far.
Your traumas are not other people's responsibility. Go get yourself help. Talk to a professional. The best thing you can do for yourself is heal from all the things that are hurting you. You can break generational patterns and have a better life, no matter what.
