An Ugly Place

Just for venting and talking block dont report. I wont ever try to directly hurt anyone or anything so if you dont like me then leave me alone. /not trying to sound rude

[justanotherjirai]

Introduction

Hello!!! My name is Aether but you can also call me Eos, Nyx or Lenore!!

It's just when I speak about myself I will refer to myself as Aether or think of myself as Aether and not the others, but if you use the others to address me then I will respond!!

You can use she/they/he But it'd be nice if you used he or they rather than she from time to time :D I am a paragirl I am pansexual

More under the cut if you're interested

My interests:

Music

-visual kei

I enjoy many subgenres of fashion and music within visual kei

I'm going crazy I had the bands listed and they disappeared ahhhhh, okay most important to know is buck-tick. And then every single other popular band you can think of lol

I also enjoy other music like

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-kpop

(Literally any band most of the time. there's few I don't like, then again the numbers grow every time a group releases a new song) (I like the older stuff) (this includes global groups btdubs)

-mitski

(Who doesn't like mitski. If you don't then.... I'm truely sorry for your loss)

-vocaloid

🥹🥹

-theres other western bands I like but it's few bc I know so many songs and it gets overwhelming when getting into more so I do like the music I just don't listen bc I get overwhelmed- but you can give me recs I'll be happy to give them a shot （＾ν＾)

Shows/books/webtoons

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Shows

Mainly anime. Actually all anime I think.

-Bungo stray dogs 🙏🙏😭😭🤩🤩🤩🥹🥹🥹

-jujutsu kaisen

-gokurakugai

-oshi no ko (a lil bit)

-my hero (you can't lie the stories okay)

-death note (haven't completed)

-omori (yes the manga- I haven't completed)

-the guy she was interested in wasn't a guy at all (haven't completed)

-madoka magica

-kill blue

-jojos bizarre adventure (still watching)

-magical girl ore

-wind breaker

-tower of god

-ALIEN STAGE AND ZOMBIE STAGE AHHH

-call of the night

-saiki k

Books (ahem)

-no longer human (absolutely peak)

-the beggar student

-the flowers of buffoonery

-self portraits

-the setting sun

-no one knows

-the poems of chuuya Nakahara (OMG SOSOSOSOSOOSOSOSO PEAKKKK)

-tender is the night

-the grapes of wrath

-die verwandlung (in German heh.. (I'm German))

-to kill a mockingbird (lovely)

Yo did you peg me as a bsd fan yet or do you just know bc I literally wrote it before

I have wayyy more books I just haven't gotten to reading them yet, ask and I'll tell you which ones :P

Webtoons

-Osora (tqtsudjajjsjshgshdusjjqhs YES)

-Nevermore (JSJSJAHHSJDJSISDJDH AHHJH YES HES YESY SYSGS YS)

-superfish

-change your story

(I used to read way more but all of them but these got boring super fast so like recommend me smth or ask me if I read smth, talk about it with me,I'm kinda just repeating myself here but alright you get it)

VIDEO GAMESSS

again- mainly japanese shit or based on japanese shit I'm a chud alright?

-doki Doki literature club

-Class of '09 (haven't really played fully but low-key know everything from the clips)

-yandere simulator (spare me guys please)

-needy streamer overload (that should've been expected)

-danganronpa (only on the second game rn so NO SPOILERS!!)

-project sekai

-five nights at Freddy's (lol I have the books and the official character encyclopedia heh, I'm a nerd (my story knowledge is rusty cuz it's been awhile but I still like it))

-stillwater (was fun)

-dead plate (so fucking stressful oh dear God)

-baldurs gate 3??? (I play it with my sibling)

-and Roblox I guess lol

-oh wait also the Bungo Gakuen game

-i would've said Bungo tales but it shut down....

And more that I still want to play so just like everything else ask me about it or something!!! :3

I also really like drawing but I won't post my art here bc I have another blog under a whole different email. That is my normie blog that I wish to keep secret but it's not to hard to find from my acc here so if you find it please support me I'd much appreciate it just don't go around spoiling my secret lol

Thats all I can think of rnnnn

I don't expect many people to pay attention to me since this community fights for it a lot. Which I think is stupid btw. Let's just all love each other!!!! I don't think I'll be using pretty dividers like most of you because, while it is nice, aesthetics are not so important imo.

Please interact with me I'd love to talk with people, then again chances are I could be a bit awkward from nervousness or take some time to respond since access to this acc and blog is a little restricted. Thank for reading through if you did!!!!!!

[justanotherjirai]

erm long gender ramble

i wish more people in real life would use he/him when referring to me but i never even established to them that i even identify as part male. over the years, before i ever questioned my gender, i would passively bring up that i don't care which pronouns are used on me whenever me and my friends were talking about something like that, but no one (including me) really second guessed it. now my friends just know i make half-jokes about wanting a penis, and my sister and my gf have already asked me if im trans (im not) or male but i can't bring myself to tell them that yes part of me is male bc it feels like i just want more attention but like, no i don't, that really is just me.

now the most ive done is make public on any socials i have that idc which pronouns are used for me, and this is the only acc where ive said what my gender is, but this is also the acc i keep secret.

but thats also the most ive done i havent told anyone that i genuinely dont care abt pronouns bc i feel like theyll just also keep using she/her.

plus, im scared to tell my gf that im male bc she said she loves me no matter what right, but i once asked her if she'd still love me if i was a guy, and maybe she was joking around, but she sucked her teeth and said she's not too sure. even if that was a joke it kinda stung a little. i mean it shouldn't even that big of a deal like im still mostly female but i want to show off my man side from time-to-time bc rn it just feels like everything about me is fem

(to me personally pronouns heavily imply gender so that's why it bothers me)

anyway, if you read this then damn you're a real one!! how do you see me in terms of gender?

[justanotherjirai]

My mom is going to visit my grandma in a few days for this festival thing which mean I'm gonna be left alone with my fuckass dad SOMEONE SAVE ME 😭😭

[justanotherjirai]

It's always when I start feeling pretty that my girlfriend sends me a picture of herself and I lose all confidence because she looks like a goddess oml 🙏🙏

idk what i did to be blessed with her existence because everything else i apparently fucked up

[justanotherjirai]

I swear I have insomnia or smth bc I can never fucking sleep no matter how much time goes by. Then again when I do sleep I sleep for 12+ hours which isn't so great either bc the people in my life get upset or wtv

I'm not diagnosing myself just to reasure but like idk what's wrong with me

[justanotherjirai]

Erm I low-key gave up when editing shinkai shoujo Miku lol. I love how ame has head phones on whenever you use the media player extension I never noticed that lol

And how do we feel about my figures I personally love them ofc (ignore the dust on some of them I can't keep up with it)

And what do we think about my desktop :P ive been having it set up like that for a while but still

Also shinkai shoujo Miku is broken :( she was a gift from a friend but someone (cough cough) broke it before I got her :((

[justanotherjirai]

Saying random ass corny shit is so funny cuz one side of me wants to relate and the other is calling me cringe

[justanotherjirai]

It kinda hurts

Which is good

[justanotherjirai]

Tbh Idek why I made this blog I just had the urge to keep an online diary of some sort but I don't even post. I don't even log in bro

Oh well

Its more like I save a bunch of drafts and never post them cuz I'm low-key too scared to :/

[yannoelledere]

It's so depressing how the tear ducts in my eyes are so much wetter than the space between my thighs

[justanotherjirai]

idk if anyone's mentioned this before but the person who first said

"the first step to getting better is realizing what's wrong. 🦄🦄🌈🌈🎉🎉😊"

Is a fucking liar. No bitch it's not I know most things that are wrong with me and it's only getting worse 😭😭

[sweetbuniiiii]

EAT MY DICK

(i'm a teenage girl, i don't have one, yet)

[th3-s0l4rsyst3m]

lowkey would die for my gf

#lesbians

[bl00dy-snow]

[headwormz]

I never understood how people on like TikTok say things like “I can’t believe people like jirai kei when it encourages and glamorizes such a harmful and toxic lifestyle” and have it make sense to them

Does it never occur to them that the “jirai lifestyle” isn’t a lifestyle jirai adopt when GETTING into jirai kei, but just their lifestyle BEFORE finding jirai kei?

It’s not really “adapting my lifestyle to fit jirai kei” but more “continuing my lifestyle while happening to wear jirai kei”

I think the main reason people even use the term “lifestyle jirai” IS to differentiate between people who just like the fashion and people who do identify with the term “jirai”

[justanotherjirai]

lowkey how tf do you guys get colored text to fade into another color or have different colors than the basic ones tumblr gives am i stupid i think im stupid but ive tried and tried and i dont know how

[justanotherjirai]

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

Do you understand?? (/ref)

/silly but also serious