A Misty Memory

Unfortunately, I’m not even real

[headwormz]

Last account got deleted because Tumblr hates me and wants me to kill myself (used to be @jiraicon)

But anyways I'm Oktavia <3

˚₊‧꒰ა About Me ໒꒱ ‧₊˚

- I’m Oktavia

- I'm 20

- I'm a lesbian

- I'm nonbinary (she/they)

- I'm 5'3

- #1 Misandrist

- I'm really into jirai kei and I wanna get into yami kawaii/menhera kei

- I'm a lifestyle jirai

- I have BPD, clinical depression, and social anxiety

- I'm an attention whore so please send me asks 🙏

- I do tend to block people under 16, ageless blogs, bigots, proshippers, etc etc

˚₊‧꒰ა I like ໒꒱ ‧₊˚

DXM, cigarettes, Danganronpa, vtubers, TikTok, alcohol, cute things, sanrio, video games, women, vocaloid, money, Italian soda, vapes, drugs, cats, pink, pain (to an extent), music, rhythm games (I'm bad at them though)

˚₊‧꒰ა Socials ໒꒱ ‧₊˚

Discord (please only add me if you're 18+): oktycantsleep

TikTok: jiraicon

Twitter: OktyCantSleep

YouTube: https://youtube.com/@jiraicon?si=whkNnAxtDOV4zoEx

Okty Can’t Sleep

Oktavia 20 Unstable lesbian Online Diary

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So I’m back on dxm

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Dude apparently this guy I used to be fwb with (when I was 18, only having stopped talking to him 2 months ago) has been hitting up my friend?? And he was asking them things like “oh have you taken any cute pics recently?” (something he asks when he’s flirting with people)

And my thing with this is

1. My friend JUST turned 18 like a month ago, and HE’S like 26 going on 27

2. If I blocked you on everything WHY would you think it’s okay to start trying to talk to my friend??

Idk it’s weird

Thankfully my friend ALSO finds it weird, so I don’t really have to worry about them getting taken advantage of or anything, they’re gonna try and get a lot of money out of him lol

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Relationship idea: we listen to magical girl subliminals and kiss

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I’m starting to have shifting dreams again for some reason

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I should be able to kill 10 people every few months

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Men make me physically sick

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Hated By Life Itself, Self Inflicted Achromatic and Shinitai-Chan continue to be my favorite Vocaloid songs idc

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HOW do you dm people wanting to be friends without sounding like a fucking child dude

“Ummm do you wanna be my friend 🤓👶” SHUT UP STOP IT I SOUND STUPID

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Chat if you were scrolling and you saw a psychological horror visual novel called Pretty Girls Deserve To Die would you download it ?

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“Don’t you wish for death

When you’re feeling weak!

Hardships aren’t as hard

As they seem to be!”

Sure, say that all you want

You’re not fooling me

With those words you never mean

While I don’t care to die

I don’t mind a bit

But someone I love?

... God, I think I’d wish I did

I suppose “Because I won’t like it”

Is all my ego is

[despairsofthedivine]

“why is jirablr so toxic 🥺🥺🥺🥺”

because 85% percent of yall only give a shit about your notes.

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I’m ngl even mentally ill people IN a mentally ill community seem to think “well you should expect to be hated on, we’re mentally ill”

But a mentally ill community doesn’t inherently mean bashing and hating on each other for any little thing, you’re just a cunt ?

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I had such a good idea to multitask, play Project Sekai on my phone while ALSO using this laptop I have to post on here when I feel like it

BUT it’s a shared laptop (a laptop my MOM uses) and that makes me nervous

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I’m ngl I NEED more 20+ jirai friends bro PLEASE 😭

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Okay I’m gonna play Project Sakai kind of tipsy now see you in a few hours

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I think I’m fixating on a game I haven’t even finished bro I’m cooked

A game A LOT of people hate mind you I’m COOKED