Mia

Hi, I suffer to sad songs

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1 year. 1 year that I keep your bandana close. Sometimes I swear I can smell your perfume, even if that us unlogical.

I stiil can't believe I won't see your face in person anymore. My brain just can't process that you're gone.

I'm drowned in this sea of sorrow forever. I can't breathe. Why? Why you? You still had so many adventures to live.

You promissed me you would be always here for me. Than why I'm all alone with my memories? Of course I don't blame you, just can't understand why now? So soon.

My partner in crime, I don't know how to live without your laugh and peculiar sense of humor, your hugs and your support.

I don't know what is making me keep holding on, I'm living half-alive.

Your bandana will always be tied in my wrist. Your smell will be always remebered.

I miss you.

Loving you forever, Tom.

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I want to be loved so badily.

But my scars are still bleeding and I know I don't recover fast.

I want, just for a moment, to feel that we are the only ones in the world.

I want to get lost in the arms of love.

But I'm still drowned in the sea of sorrow.

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Why do I fuckin still remeber your surnames? I forgot our former friend's. But I can’t seem to forget yours.

I won’t lie anymore.

I miss you.

You act like you moved on successfully and it’s making me feel the worst cause I still can’t do the same.

Are you pretending? Do you still have an open scar because of us?

We’re an unfinished business. And unfinished business always comes back to be solved.

Till we meet again, I’ll try to miss you less than I do.

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We’re two worlds apart. I know that. He doesn’t. Why? Well, he doesn’t even know me. Yes, I’m a shadow. He doesn’t even know I fell. 

And I’ve felt everything. Everything. And nobody knows. 

There is no hope for us. And I never expected it to have. Because we’re too young, too dumb, too inocent. I know we’ll make a mess out of this. 

This? There’s no “this”. He doesn’t even talk to me. There will never be “us”. I don’t know if I’m frustrated or relieved about that. 

I’m too afraid to be broken to open my arms for someone. 

I hate this.  

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Guess what? Lost my password. 

Yep, i’m stupid. 

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If you're reading this, hi. I’m Mia. I created this blog because… I don't really know. I was feeling the urge to write what I was feeling and I thought of creating this.