we'll walk through fire and ice

Kaitlyn | 26 | Vancouver, BC  | Gay | Actor

[coffeeforanti-socialworkerholics]

[s-k-a-z-a]

[justkeepmovingtheline]

2018, what a year. On paper, you look outstanding - so many career accomplishments, experiences had, movements and memories that have shifted my perspectives forever. Underneath it, a year of growth. A year of challenges, pushing me in the direction towards myself. Toward healing. Though what you’re looking for is light, it is through trudging in the darkness that you find it. Thank you for challenging me. Thank you for bringing to light the things in my life I have been neglecting, for giving me clear red flags, letting me know that I need to steer onto new paths. I walk into 2018 with a list of goals, things I aspire to improve so that I can be my best self, and give myself over to my work in a healthy, mindful way. To inspire and steward the next generation. Here we go.

[beauteenth]

[arcanja2]

[sunbathe]

[caliology]

[justkeepmovingtheline]

I’m not on here much anymore, and I think that is a good thing. My 25th birthday is fast approaching, and I couldn’t be more excited. For the first time in my life, I feel settled in who I am.

This is by no means a finish line - there is so much left to do, and learn and grow from. But growing means changing, and changing means accepting what is no longer necessary in your life, and valuing yourself enough to make the choice to move forward from it.

I could recite a long list of things in my life that no longer serve me - but all in all, they fall under a same theme. Things, people, mindsets and learned behaviours that stop me from loving myself, and living my best life, I am finding the courage to walk away from.

Insecurity has been my security blanket for so long. It’s so easy to hate yourself - our world is built on self-loathing. And I’m ready to move on.

There is so much love that surrounds me, and I’m ready to stop hiding from it. I’m ready to put the shield down- you’ve served me well through my hardest of times, but I don’t need you anymore. To live a life of security, of predictability, of only non-hurts is not a true life to live.

Okay, 25. Let’s dance.

[reveiling]

[sam-shatsky]

[horrifying]

by Mehran Djojan

[delta-breezes]

[justkeepmovingtheline]

I did three things that scared the shit out of me today.

I had three separate panic attacks.

I eventually calmed myself down from all three. But the point is, I fucking did it.

2018 is the year I do all the things that scare me. It’s the year I step out of my comfort zone. It’s the year I face my anxiety head on and say “let’s party”. Because I refuse to let it control me and stop me from truly living.

[certasluas]

[forever-winter-wonderland]

[idiona]

[destroymylife]