Sending the boys back to schooling outside of home will be tough. I know they receieve better education at home morally, academically, and street smarts. Lbvs. However, it's time for me to practice self-care. I need to focus on my health, mental health, career and academic goals. Time is passing through my fingers like sand. There is always that voice in my head whispering about death, stroke, limitations... but I already know we have no control over these things. Fearing what you can not control is a waste of fear. I can only try... and hope God is merciful and allows me to simply grow older. Once a weird ex had his mom and his weird ex play on my phone. Imagine everyone way over 30 doing this because I simply left. Anyway they text me my birth name and my age as if they had discovered the cure for cancer, the secret of life and creation, or some great unknown🤭😂 As if hundreds of students, co-workers, my huge family, exes, ex husband, medical staff, dmv, feds, places I volunteer at, etc don't know my full name or age. Aging is a blessing. I simply just looked far younger than my age since I was a teenager. Still, I pray to grow old, as old as my mother... even older. I have so much to learn and so much to do for others.