Ana Journey

not pro anything, just a blog to help me cope with life. height: 174.3cms (5'7) act may 2024

[justneedtowritethis]

Woke up for what feels like the first time in years….

I AM 86kgs…

I felt like I couldn’t breathe once it really dawned on me.

So starting weight 86kgs

Previous Lw 50kgs

First gw 80kgs

Second gw 70kgs

Third gw 60kgs

Forth gw 50kgs

UGW 45kgs

Locking in cause I do not have any other choice.

[belle-corp]

I don’t need food to survive, I need control. Food = failure. I’m not thin enough to be accepted. If I eat, I’m a failure. I’ll be happier when I lose more weight. The less I eat, the better I feel about myself. I can’t be myself unless I’m thin. I’m disgusting.

My body isn’t good enough. Every bite I eat makes me feel out of control. Eating is a weakness. If I eat, I’ll get fat and worthless. I have to be perfect, and perfect means thin. I’ll only be happy if I reach my goal weight. No one will love me if I gain weight.

I feel so much better when I don’t eat. I’m not thin enough to be worthy of love. I’m not good enough unless I’m perfect. Food is a form of self-punishment. I can’t stop thinking about food and weight. The less I eat, the more I feel in control.

I’ll never be happy with my body no matter how much I lose. Being hungry is a sign of strength. If I let myself eat, I’ll lose control. I’ll never be satisfied with my body.

[im-starving-darling-06]

Any tips on starving yourself/losing weight? + any workouts you recommend to lose weight???

I usually work out for ab two hours every night. i recommend working out at the end of the day so u can burn off more of what you ate. my workout usually goes something like this.

100 leg lifts, 200 flutter kicks (2x), 50 deadbug, 50 straight leg deadbug, 25 russain twists, 25 rocking plank, 25 v-ups, 100 crunches (2x), 200 knee to elbow (2x) 1 min plank (2x), 2min plank (2x)

dont forget that I worked my way up to this point; don't try to do this full thing if you're not experienced with exercise. it's okay to start with about a quarter of this and work your way up so that you don't injure yourself.

[ashthefemmy]

that feeling when you regain control is so good.

[justneedtowritethis]

This'll help a lot lol

[justneedtowritethis]

I have done it! I have finally written a kids book. While I still struggle with eating, it has been an awesome distraction. I plan to write more, I also plan to venture into writing and publishing stories of my life and the string of an eating disorder. I hope you guys enjoy my work.

[ode-noir]

anti-binge guide

when you feel a craving coming on:

drink a glass or two of water, slowly

have a piece of fruit, like an apple

make some warm herbal tea with natural sweetener

go for a long walk or hike, put your earphones in and clear your head - walk with a friend if you’d prefer

if you’re still craving the food, have the tiniest bit of it, no more than a bite, and have another glass of water

distractions:

watch a long movie or start a new show

study! complete homework or begin revising for exams

write down your own thinspo imagines

do some online window shopping and look at all the outfits you want to wear at a smaller size

make your own thinspo playlist

do some yoga or meditation

things to keep in mind:

you already know what your favourite foods taste like - you don’t need to eat them again in bulk

imagine the amount of progress you’ll make tomorrow if you exercise self control right now

the shame and guilt that follows a binge is not worth it

the physical pain and exhaustion is not worth it

you’re not just affecting your weight, you’re affecting your overall health, your mental well-being, your skin

binging means you’re wasting your time when you could be doing something much more productive

[orangedilae]

can i have this tattooed on my brain stem

[featherprettybones]

☀️☀️

[funeral]

[justneedtowritethis]

I had a photo taken of me today, I am still far away from my goals but I'm excited to finally really see some change

[ifeelfatsoistarve]

How to become pretty for summer✨👙👒

Your face:

Scrub your face every night.

Moistruize your skin.

Try to clean your face of acne.

Use face masks every day.

Put lip balm on in the morning and at night( and when you want to).

Brush your teeth 3 times a day and use lightning strips.

Use your mouthwash and FLOSS.

Pluck your eyebrows.

Your hair:

Wash it very well every 2-3 days.

Use your conditioner and leave it in for a couple of minutes and THEN wash it of.

After you get ouț of the shower use you hair masks or oils.

Leave it to dry natural and try not to heat dry it.

Try not to touch it too often because that makes it greasy.

Your hygene:

Wash your body every day.

Use nice smeling body washes and body lotions.

Don’t forget to scrub your body at least once a week.

Use nice smeling deodorant every time you change.

Wash your face 2 times a day.

Put on clean clothes. If you wore them for more then 3 times you should give them a wash.

Take care of your nails. Paint them a new pretty color every week.

Get rid of your body hair: wax or shave your legs, arms, armpits, down there, anywhere you feel the need to.

ALWAYS WEAR PARFUME✨

Your clothes/style:

Wear a new outfit everyday.

Try to make it look like you put a lot of efort into your outfits.

Add accesories: necklesses, bracelets, rings, ankle bracelets, earings, bags or hand wallets, etc.

Your shoes are very important. They ALWAYS have to match your outfit. If you don’t know what to wear a safe bet îs just plain black snickers.

If it’s cold make sure to put on a jacket with you or just tie it around your waist.

Always wear makeup even if it’s the tiniest bit. It makes a difference and trust me you need it.

Your personality:

Don’t always be on your phone.

Spend more time reading and in nature.

Play with your dogs and be an animal lover.

Listen to music that makes you feel good

Try to not talk so much and just listen more.

Choose your words and think before you talk.

Be delicate and soft when you speak.(But if anyone tries you be sure to not take any BS).

Don’t argue if possibile.

Keep your room clean and tidy.

Be organized. ✨

Be funny and charming. THAT’S BASICALLY IT.

Your eating habbits:

Never eat alone and try to eat as little as possibile around other people.

Drink zero calorie sodas instead of any other sodas.

Always chew gum or have mints on you. ( not just to burn calories but also for bad breath)

Cut your food into little pieces and play with it before eating it if you have to eat.

Chew every bite at least 25 times.

Drink water before eating and while you are eating so you get fuller quicker.

If the food has a lot of calories than make up an excuse to not eat it( try not to do this one very often or people WILL catch on).

Try and eat healthyer when you do eat so people will just think that is why you lost weight.

Drink a shit tone of water. ✨

Other things to note:

Never purge or use laxatives it îs really bad for you!!!

Follow a workout routine and learn how to jump rope really fast to impress people.

Make a workout playlist to make things easier.

LEARN HOW TO SWIN LOL.

Get your ears pierced for lords sake.

Keep a journal and write în it how you feel. Or maybe just doodle in it or idk whatever you want. ✨

Try and be helpfull to the people around you. Make your time on earth worth it. You know you are running low on time.

Learn a new languege to impress people and speak it to brag about it.

If you can die the ends of your hair blonde.✨

Stay safe loves this one is just for me,(sorry for the bad grammar xd) but if you feel like it helps you then that’s great too💜

[ra-ana-motivation]

After binge workout

100 jumping jacks

50 crunches

20sec russian twists

50sec wall sit

10 standing toe touches

30sec plank

50 jumping jacks

20 lunges (each side)

50sec sitting toe touches

30 squats

10 push ups

1min arm circles

30sec russian twists

50 reverse crunches

40sec wall sit

20 crunches

[nothungryatall]

Reblog if you feel fat today🐖🐷🐽

[mytwobestfriendsareanaandmia]

Everyday

[tequiladietcoke]

Reblog if you’re a thinspo/ed blog and you’re 5’7” or taller! I need more people my height (ish) to follow!

I follow from my main, though

[thxnsouls]

To ana tumblrs

You won’t be deleted as long as people don’t report your posts, you can prevent this by using non specific hashtags such as anorexxia or buliimia, etc..

Also, don’t post any naked body checks, and be careful with meanspo. We need to stick together here okay?

[lavendxrbxnes]

hey guys! dm me if you want to be in an 18+ ED group chat!

[lavendxrbxnes]

hey guys! dm me if you want to be in an 18+ ED group chat!

[silk101]

if i’m still alive by 25 i will be seriously impressed with myself

[blkgrlmajic-deactivated20190402]

Honestly