what they’ll never know...
i bet you didn’t know that i loved you at first glance.
there was something peculiar about you. i wanted
the interaction. i was fearless in my approach
towards you. something about you was familiar.
it may sound crazy—love at first sight that is.
my love radiates through my body and reaches for
whomever it chooses. i’ve attracted many who
were in denial. i’ve been in denial most of my life
about how i truly feel. the times that i’ve actually
admitted to what was real actually made me feel
worse. rejection at it’s best. retaining my emotions
to avoid being left. loneliness calls me at every hour
of the day. i cry many days. i cry so much that some
days i can’t even tell if it’s real tears or just a force of
habit. i bet they don’t know that i’d do anything to
save our world in the areas that are attainable or my
love for mankind and passion about our youth. the
way that i was brought up makes me wonder about
how many kids there are that silently experiencing
the nightmares that i went through. i wonder how
many of them are wishing on stars for the reality
of their wildest dreams? i wonder how many are
misunderstood because they act out and get judged
for being different. i bet you didn’t know that when
we met, i didn’t like you at first but when you shared
your taste of music, i found common interest.
everything about you changed in that moment. we
spoke a similar language. i loved you after ninety
days and i was sure of it. something told me not
to give you my heart but i became infatuated with
your company. i never experienced someone that
knew how to explore me without ever asking a single
question. i always wanted to get to know you but
over time i realized that we are the same—damaged.
what is there really to know other than pain? i call
out your name and imagine you’re there with me
every step of my path and pray to the greatest of
forces that i could be in your arms and build an
empire. you’re what my heart desires and then
some. it may sound crazy but you’re my drive.
people like you keep my hope alive. people like you
also make me cry a song so bittersweet. i think about
you every night before i go to sleep. whenever we’re
together, it’s hard to look you in your eyes. your eyes
take me to places i can’t describe. your kisses on my
forehead give me butterflies. for you i would lay it
all down and compromise. i bet you didn’t know that.
how much i really love you. how much i mean it when
i say it and how bad it hurts to know that you don’t
care. you take it all in with blank stares. you’ve been
hurt to a point of numbness. i have been there.
we’re more alike than you think. we’re both on a
mission to guide the world into recovery. you’re the
only one i’ve ever met with true purpose, intent and
determination. it actually means something to me.
i just wanted us to mean something. i wanted you to
care but you can’t afford to. i can’t even use people
to replace you because there’s no aborting you from
my memory. your name is everywhere. your aroma
lingers everywhere that i go. everyone tells me to
forget about you but i feel a love for you that is so
strong—they’ll never know.
dailybridgerton
stormborns
jacobvanloon
andulkaphoto
annaxmalina
