Finally. I am here. I've waited for this feeling patiently and impatiently. This is it. I am just happy. And so grateful for that. I'm freaking ENGAGED to my best friend. My real soulmate. It's really real. A literal dream come true. I ok with all things in my life.
Course, there's a few things that could be better, but ... today, they're all ok.
Today is ok. Today is Christmas, my daughternis waking up on Christmas with me and my new fiance who she also loves and she's gon be be so excited cause everything under the tree is for her and it's all about her and no one else.
Sterl gave me my ring while she was sleeping. Which w ass thoughtful so I wouldn't steal her shine and damp her excitement for all the really cool shit HE got her. All on his own, by himself by the way, so they are really from the heart. I think he's more excited than I am. He loves her. And i love him so much more for that.
This is my own family now. Me, SterlTheMan, and my diamond daughter Hannah. And it's all love. I could not ask for more. It's perfection. It's a miracle. And definitely a blessing. I don't even deserve this. But I'm a child of God and am always loved, forgiven, and redeemed.
What a beautiful crazy life. It's all worth it.
There's no words worthy to explain and describe this.
There just isn't. There's no image to relate too. There's no melody to match.
Only my 4 yr old excited squels, her big beautiful smile, Sterls loving eyes to tell all, and the dance we'll have around the Christmas tree.
It's love. Its real love.
All the loves are here in my home today. Sterl and mines romantic love, me and Hannah's mother daughter family love, and Hannah and sterls friendship love. And then it's like they all become one with all of us together. What a damn blessing. It's so amazing. I wish I could make everyone understand and truly get what I'm trying to say. But, I don't think You know how special this is until yer here.
I cherish this. I pray everyday is like this. I know it's not possible, what a shame. But what a good reason to let the bad days go so we can get to these. Bad days do not compare to these. Bad things are nothing against these. So, if I ever feel unhappy, it's my own fault and my own decision to be negative. Because this, voids all that. This is what I live for. This is why I breathe.
Thank you, thank you, thank you my heavenly father for such an honor to share my life and love with the ones I have all around me. I'm surrounded by angels. I'm surrounded my miracles and blessings and I'm swimming in gratitude. I'm floating on pure bliss and the warmth from the sun of my child's happiness is like nothing else.
Please don't let me forget this. Let the memory of this moment be the beginning of each of my days. Let it stay bright or even grow brighter. I love my life. I will always love my crazy beautiful stressful amazing happy life.
THANK you thank you thank you I'm forever thankful.
I'm undeserving but it's love. It's love I have.
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