#throwback to the beginning of my hijrah. I think it was in 2015 when I started to hijab. On the 2nd day, I had to put on a baju kurung because I had no long sleeves shirt or modest wear, totally unprepared and I remember felt so hot underneath the tudung and I’m like, God, can I just not wear it? • Since then, I have looked to every possible reasons and loop holes that suggested that maybe, we don’t have to wear tudung and everytime I found a reason not to, I remind myself why I put on the hijab and stopped myself. But there are still days where Im like, if only I dont have to. • So when I see influencers who portrays themselves as Muslim role models or position themselves as such, those I follow because I aspire to be like them, and then they took off their hijab...I get affected. Not like I judge them or anything, I know we all struggle. Mostly Im just curious why, do they know something that I dont? Is the removal a form of self expression which is allowed? I wonder... https://www.instagram.com/p/B9yREvlBiRM/?igshid=jvd091lir3sm
