loveless bones

[jwshngt]

rainbowmuses‌:

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his senses felt overpowered and he quite literally lost all grasp onto reality. everything was happening at once and josh simply couldn't focus on one damn thing. skin on skin, hands on his waist and suddenly, ---- his brain shut off completely. nothing could've prepared him for this. sure, he had done his fair share of things with dudes. as he said, he wasn't a virgin. yet, this was very much different from anything he had ever let himself feel. it was weird, he had to admit and at first it felt like something that shouldn't be done to a human body but after a couple of seconds just laying there, --- soft breaths meeting in the middle, josh began slowly pushing back towards the source. a full body SHUDDER surged through him at that and, okay, this really wasn't all that bad. frail fingers tangled into the hairs in the back of tyrell's neck only to haul him closer in, --- lips c r a s h i n g into each other for a demanding kiss. it went on like this for several moments with josh lazily kissing the other and thrusting himself in rhythm before there was a change in angle that caught him off guard, --- punched a guttural moan out of him as he threw his head back against the bed. "f..fuck. whatever that was, do it again. feels so fucking good." words melting into a needy mewl, that he would deny later on.

[jwshngt]

rainbowmuses‌:

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it was a d d i c t i v e, the way tyrell's touch felt against him. and it was quite honestly also a little bit scary. he had never considered himself as someone who would need as much affirmation as he did just there and then. still, tyrell gave him so much, --- he was COMFORT and solidarity. josh squirmed underneath him to help him wriggle off his clothes and once his pants were past his ankles, he s i g h e d in relief. his brain was MUSH at this point, the thoughts just running him by. nothing really matterd that much anymore, --- not even the pair of hands crawling under the hem of his shirt. he was sensitive there, knowing that the scars there were alarmed at any sort of contact. so, it was only natural for him to let out a soft whine, thrusting his hips in an unbeknownst move up from the matress and meeting the other halfways just where he wanted it the most, --- where he was already painfully hard and needy for touch. any sort of sound turned into a breathless m o a n, feeling like once more the wind had been knocked out of his body.

[jwshngt]

rainbowmuses‌:

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he visibly shuddered at the name. he liked how it made him feel, how it seemed to pull the other emotionally even closer to himself. to show some of it, he leaned in, --- nuzzling his face into the crook of tyrell's neck. "no, that's.. not it. not entirely, at least. fuck, i don't know how.." yeah, that would be much harder than first expected. but it shouldn't be, not when the person above him was looking at him like THAT. to avoid having to face that he burried himself further into the spot he'd been nestled in. "like i'm not a fucking v i r g i n, if that's what you're trying to hint at. i just never.." he really wasn't a virgin but he was certainly blushing like one, which was honestly just embarrassing. "i haven't done the fucking each other part with another man, that's what it fucking is, okay. i never.. got to it, i guess." there it was and he released it with a S I G H. both arms snaked around the taller frame, --- his turn to plant soft kisses along the skin he found there. "also.. please don't stop touching me and definitely call me that again, fucking loved it." there was an uncertain kind of whine behind that, too. 

[jwshngt]

notxmonica·:

“I don’t want to even talk about how bad strawberry tastes..and don’t get me started on green apple. Those fuckers aren’t anything like green apples or even apples at all. Artificial lime would have been a better choice.” Ian’s own smile never wavered, especially listening to the way the other man talked. He was a little all over the place, and he used ‘fuck’ about as much as Ian did which was always a positive thing in his eyes. “Josh” he repeated, swallowing what was left of the blue candy that was in his mouth. “You look like a Josh” he commented with a ‘feel-good’ grin. It was nice to meet him, it just didn’t quite feel appropriate to piggy-back on it after he was let off the hook. 

"see, that's the thing. if i wanna die early because of my fuckin' sugar addiction, i wanna do it very p l e a s a n t l y 'cause of something i truly ENJOY, thank you very damn much." he outstretched the flat of his palm towards ian. "finally someone who gets me, the fuck. i am absolutely s i c k of having to explain myself to other people." a little amused simper remaining on his features, josh arched both of his eyebrows. "good thing then that i am a josh, too." his eyes took the other in a bit further. "now that you mentioned it.. you look like an ian, as well. yes, yes. very ian..ish." he chuckled out before folding both of his arms in front of his chest. "so, ian. tell me something else 'bout you that i would have to know other than the candy connection we OBVIOUSLY now share."

[jwshngt]

rainbowmuses‌:

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his eyes rolled into the back of his skull at tyrell's grind against him. "fucking.." the rest of the sentence dropping to the ground. he pushed back, seeking the sensation once more. the sound the taller male slipped through his spit slick lips was quite honestly INTOXICATING and he would be damned if he didn't get to hear it again. yet, the sudden bluntness of the other s h o v e d him back a couple of tracks. he wouldn't normally care for something like that knowing that he was very much straight to the point, as well. still, it cut through the caressing comfort like a knife, throwing him back to the reality of it. he could feel his heart thrumming violently in the nook of his chest, --- slowly crawling up his throat into his ears. he could play this game this much longer, could egg the other on further. only to see where it would take him but with him being so c l o s e there was not much of a choice left for him, he figured. "shit, yeah.. i get it. i want you just as much." he nodded along with his words. "thing is, though.." his nerves creeped up on him. i am scared shitless of taking my clothes off, that was something he w a n t e d to say, maybe even.. --- i have never done this with any man before. also very much valid. but there was nothing but heavy breathing and helpless staring and he dearly hoped that he would just UNDERSTAND. "i trust you." he finally added to the unsaid truth to prevent tyrell from doubting that, god forbid, even leaving him right there and then. that certainly wasn't the thing he wanted.

[jwshngt]

rainbowmuses‌:

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josh quite literally purred in the back of his throat at the little sentiment tyrell left in the open before surging himself back into the closure. it did something to him, --- just hearing the words 'i want you' so perfectly clearly directed towards him. feeling a pair of warm hands travel across his skin wasn't all too bad, either. once more, he let himself be lead and with his back laid down against the sheets, he found himself even more options to take. usually all of this wasn't much to him.. --- his fingers getting n u m b underneath the touches, the kisses quickly growing stale. but even though he would never admit it outloud, he could at least do so in quiet content to himself. THIS felt so very much different. his arms locked around tyrell's neck to hold him into place. he felt strong and heavy above him, --- to an extend that slowly but surely drove him WILD. he, in return, felt brave. brave enough to part the man's lips with his own, letting his tongue swiftly brush over the gap as if asking for permission. while all of this, his hands cupped the back of his neck, roamed along the shape of his shoulders and chest.. --- fingertips taking notice of every little detail they caught along the way. he broke the kiss again, staring up tyrell. "h.. how.. how much? tell me how much you want me?"

[jwshngt]

rainbowmuses‌:

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g o o s e b u m p s spread across his skin almost instantly as the word want clung between them. he couldn't help but SIGH softly through parted lips as he shuffled from one foot to the other, --- admittedly nervous at the realization that nearly every part of him was t o u c h i n g tyrell. "bit full of yourself there, aren't ya'." he mused, yet letting the gentle brush of lips against the shape of his neck take over his system. despite the fact that he was trying to tease, there was absolutely no way of actually meaning it. he would be stupid to do so. "you're probably used to getting what you want, huh?" he leaned upwards now, the pad of his thumb stroking across his jawline only to settle onto his chin, --- patiently waiting there. "don't lie to me, ty. you're used to people laying at your m e r c y." slowly, he put pressure on where his finger was connected to tyrell's face, --- carefully prying his lips apart. "but at the end of the day.." he inched closer. so close that their noses were touching again. "you want me just as bad as i want you, don't you." it was barely anything ABOVE a whisper at this point. "tell me that you want me." and he really did try to make it sound less desperate but he couldn't be stopped to whine just the slightest bit before he made the initial move and captured his lips into a kiss again.

[cilly-murphy]

#when you’re spencer and spencer is you

[jwshngt]

rainbowmuses·:

The kiss ended a little too abruptly if you asked Tyrell but he had always been someone who could kiss for hours on end. He had always been an affectionate person who wanted to give and receive. Sighing as he looked at him, he rolled his eyes at his words and moved his lips down to his neck, just wanting to see what kind of reaction he could get out of Josh. Because he was always so stoic or at least that is what the other wanted to seem, if you wanted Tyrell’s opinion. Kissing and nibbling on his warm, gentle skin, he then sucked a hickey, wanting to just mark him up. Wanting to get more of a reaction from the other, he leaned back and took off his own shirt, tossing it in the basket like he said he would. “How does this make you feel, hm?” he arched one of his eyebrows, wrapping one of his hands around Joshua’s and placing it on his exposed chest.

lower lip once more catching inbetween his teeth, josh felt a whole body SHUDDER roll through him. his head lulled to the side, giving the other a bit more room to m o v e. he felt warmth engulfing him all the way around and he was sure that by now it was more than visible. unfortunately, he was the heavy blushing type once pushed past his usual ways. there was a certain kind of COMFORT ZONE that he was prone to stay in. "t..tyrell, i.. --- motherfucker." hissed through g r i t t e d teeth. "did you.." the tips of his fingers pressed lightly against the now blooming spot, --- an uncertain kind of sensation spreading through the area at an instant. "you did, what the fuck." a breathless chuckle tied onto his words as he searched for the now very much familiar pair of blue eyes. it was baffeling to him how much amenity they held. tyrell's next move caught him off guard, totally. he led himself be lead, --- palm pressing against the skin underneath it. eyes r o a m i n g, teeth absent mindedly nibbling on his lip. josh wouldn't admit to the fact that he could feel tyrell's heart beating where he conntected to him, which made him utterly HAPPY. "well, first off.. this..--" he gestured with his free hand towards his body. "makes me fucking angry, 'cause like.. what the fuck, man. way to make me feel like a damn s l o b." knowing that continuing this subject would lead to him actually having to open up, he simply let it be.

[anniemakes]

meet and greet meme;;

📋what do they do for a living? do they like it? do they feel respected?

🏡 describe your character’s home. where do they live?

🛌 how do they sleep?

✋ are their hands dirty? pristine? what do their fingernails look like?

🔪 which of the seven deadly sins best fits your character?

👩‍🎤how do they feel about their body?

⚡️ what do they do when they’re nervous?

📏 what’s their posture like?

🗣 what’s something your character says a lot?

🎁what do they want most? what are they willing to sacrifice to get it?

💌 how do they show affection?

🕰what are they holding onto from the past? can they let it go?

🎀 what is their most beloved belonging?

[jwshngt]

serpentxcyborgs·:

Sam rubbed his back as she held him, sighing softly. She knew she might be in the minority here, but she felt pity for Josh. He had put them through something horrible, true, but only because he was suffering so much, and no one had really tried to help him. She thought his parents had maybe put him on pills, but that wasn’t enough. “I know, I know,” she said softly. She looked up at him. “You were sick,” she said. And to his credit, the wendigo hadn’t been his fault. If anything, it had been everyone else’s – if the others hadn’t pulled that prank, Hannah and Beth wouldn’t have run out, and then Hannah wouldn’t have had to…Sam bit her lip and pushed the thought away. “I wouldn’t have hurt Hannah for anything. And I know how much you loved them. You were hurt and you weren’t well, and you lashed out.”

it almost felt like the j o k e was on him all over again and his skin tingled in a somewhat weird sense of ANTICIPATION, --- awaiting the punchline to come around the corner. soon this sam would turn into dust right inbetween his arms. sam would disappear and leave him with nothing but his FEAR and guilt. he would be alone again and there was nothing he could really do about it than to accept it. accepting it would make it at least a little bit easier on his shoulders. he would know that it would happen any second. he had perfected his ways like that, as sad as that probably sounded. he had to admit that holding her like that felt pretty REAL, though. the way her frail fingers rubbed uncertain patterns into his back almost made him b e l i e v e. "don't.." he let out a sharp breath. "why are you so understanding? i don't get it. you're a saint, for sure."

[jwshngt]

rainbowmuses·:

He didn’t want this moment to end, he didn’t want the other to move away from the tight embrace. He just wanted to take away all the pain, all the sadness that tormented the man he was holding. But he knew that it was impossible. He had his own demons to fight, his own sadness to take care of. But Tyrell had always been someone who cared too much, someone who put other people before himself. “For you I am a softie, yes” he whispered as a response to the words Joshua muttered. It was such a sweet sentiment and he adored it, he adored Joshua. Because the other was so different from the people back home, the people he had to spend time with. Tyrell was just enjoying every second of this moment so when he felt the lips pressed against his skin, his heart skipped a beat. And he couldn’t resist, he couldn’t resist the temptation. “My clothes can be tossed in the laundry basket” he then pressed his own lips against Joshua’s, throwing caution to the wind.

josh felt the heat in his cheeks only i n c r e a s e with each passing moment. there was a small pinch in him that screamed to run now, --- almost humiliated by the embarrassment he put himself through. he was a grown man, damn it. making him FLUSTERED shouldn't be this easy. words bubbling in the back of his throat, he wanted to unleash them, he wanted to form an eloquent answer. but everything happened so f a s t and yet time seemed to FREEZE around them. it felt equally like hours and only mere seconds that tyrell CLOSED the gap between them and suddenly his breath felt like it was being KNOCKED out of his lungs, --- a raspy gasp getting sucked out along with it. josh wasn't actually sure when unblinking eyes closed and stilled lips began hesitantly responding to the input offered to him but he could f e e l it, --- deeply nestled in his core. it felt almost natural to move both hands admist the taller male's shoulder blades to haul him in even further. lifting his chin a bit to angle himself smoother into the kiss, he sighed through his nostrils. it only took a couple of seconds before josh backed out a little with eyebrows tightly furrowed and lips remaining slightly pursed. he opened his mouth as if to say something but almost instantly getting stuck there instead for nearly ten seconds. "don't think i didn't fucking notice you pulling this to get me to shut up." muttered into the space where their breath mingled, --- gently bumping the tip of his nose against tyrell's in a playful manner.

[jwshngt]

lovelyxladies·:

“well, imagine if you missed someone discovering the cure or new treatment for a previously incurable condition,” she tried to scold him a little. honestly she wasn’t sure why that was the first thing to pop in her head. but she knew that would be quite a breakthrough nonetheless. “or imagine if they were actually no stray dogs or cats. imagine you found out that they all had loving homes for once,” she laughed as she heard his face comment. it was refreshing to be able to have banter like this and he was actually kind of sweet. 

"oooh, the little kitties and puppies." he cooed before giving it a firm nod. "well, now you got me fucking convinced. i guess, you can't argue with that, now can you." shrugging his shoulders, he let his posture SLACK into himself a little, --- visibly at ease with the entirety of this situation. "but that's pretty dang cruel to use something so adorable for an argument. you knew i didn't have a chance from the get go, didn't ya'.. you little schemer, you."

[jwshngt]

rainbowmuses·:

Just looking at him, his mouth opened as he was ready to say something but nothing left his parted lips. Nothing but heavy breathing. When Josh took his hand, he calmed down almost instantly. Tyrell hadn’t stepped on any boundaries, he hadn’t caused any pain. That was what he worried about the most; causing the other pain. His eyes then widened when the other wrapped his arms around his frame, a small but yet soft smile formed on his lips as he pulled the other so close that there was no distance between them whatsoever. Closing his eyes, he pressed his lips against the top of his head and just listened to the other. “I’m not going anywhere” he whispered. “I am not leaving you, Joshua. You don’t ever have to worry about that. You don’t have to worry about feeling alone anymore. I’m here” he added as he sighed. His heart was beating so fast and so hard against his chest, he thought it would break free from it’s cage any second now.

josh MELTED against tyrell with a sigh of nothing but relief. it came to him as a surprise that he didn't pull away and out of their closure, --- a very much welcomed one but still. the r u s h of adrenaline made him even braver than before as he nuzzled his face further into the spot he'd been squished up against. the scent lingering there was different than to what he was used to. but that just made perfect sense because tyrell, himself, was so very different to what josh was used to. his hands snaked around his torso only to rest against the small of his back, --- just holding him there. he had to break this thing off eventually, but he figured that a few more seconds wouldn't hurt anyone, so he nudged his temple one last time against the FIRM of the man's body with a soft wet chuckle muffled by the layers of fabric against his face. soon he shook with laughter, --- his s l e n d e r fingers mindlessly drawing pattern against where they were resting. "you're such a S O F T I E, ty." it slurred out with so much affection in his voice that it sorta edged him on even more, --- squeezing himself up against tyrell for a fleeting moment. carefully and very slowly he pulled a bit out of their embrace, only as much as to gain a good look up at the other. "thank you, so.. fucking much." he breathed, voice sounding like a heavy weight had just been lifted from his shoulders. now it was his turn to push himself up, more on his tippy toes than he would've liked to admit, and ghost a soft press of his lips against where he could reach the side of tyrell's face. "i ruined your clothes with my pesky tears and you still let me do this." he whispered into the minimal space between their faces.

[jwshngt]

rainbowmuses·:

He visibly flinched when the other got defensive. He could still not handle certain things, it was just the thing you had to deal with when you have been traumatized. “I believe you” he whispered, just looking at him, he sighed because he felt like he was only making matters worse. Like he was making Joshua feel bad. But at the same time it wasn’t really fair. Joshua had made Tyrell open up like a god damn book but the other couldn’t do the same? But he didn’t want to say anything, didn’t want to ruin the moment they were sharing. He would be lying though if he denied that he was a little worried. He just let his lips stay on his skin before he leaned back. “I’m not going anywhere. You can try and push me away as much as you’d like but I am going nowhere”

josh furrowed his brows when tyrell recoiled, instant REGRET pouring out of him. "i.. i'm sorry." he reached, very much aware of the possibility that the other man could pull away and leave him just like that. he was aware and he was scared that it would happen but he still had to take that risk. fingers genially b r u s h i n g against tyrell's. come on, brave up, josh. which kicked him to intertwine his free hand with the one just barely a few INCHES away. it was a very brave move for someone like josh. he had always been bad at reaching out, at calling for something he n e e d e d. he much rather let other's have their moment and him making exactly that possible. so, it certainly took him in utter awe as he felt himself move forwards, limps mostly working on their own. strong and principally S H A K I N G arms engulfed as much of tyrell into an embrace as he could from his position. "i'm so so sorry.." and if his tears smudged against where he his face was pressed up against the man's chest, nobody other than the both of them had to know. "i'm so full of shit most of the time but i don't.. --- i don't want you to.." he hiccuped, quivering against tyrell. "think that's all me, y'know. and.. i don't want you to go, i really don't."

[jwshngt]

rainbowmuses·:

Tyrell was ready to move away from the other when he all of the sudden felt the grip on his shirt. Looking down at the hand holding onto him and then back into Joshua’s eyes, he stayed still. Listening to each and every word that left his lips, he then frowned. “How? How did you kill them? And are you sure that it was your fault and not just an accident?” he asked. He just wanted to be certain that the other had walked down the same path as he did. Murdering someone, ending someone’s life, it changes you. It makes you feel utterly insane, like any second you might break. And he didn’t want that to be the case for Josh, he wanted to isolate the other from that constant agony. His eyes then widened when the truth was out there, the truth about the fact that he had also died. “Oh Joshua” he whispered and kissed his cheek, letting his lips linger against his hot skin.

there was a TUG and what followed was something he wouldn't admit to himself, --- a tiny little whine getting stuck in his throat. "i did not." he spat out, almost a little bit too loud, --- almost way too fucking defensive. "i didn't kill them.. i really didn't." desperation was close on his heels again, something he simply had to accept as a part of himself. he was desperate for most of the time, --- always clinging onto something as if his life ended if he let go. at that and mainly out of instinct, his stare d r o p p e d back downwards where his hand was solidly wrapped into the fabric. how IRONIC. "look, can we just..--" everything else got flung right out of the window the second tyrell's lips connected with his cheek. there was heat CRAWLING up his to his face and still that damn humming in his head. unblinking eyes fixed on the blurry shape of the man's shoulder. "what was that for?" the genuine confusion took him by surprise. yet, he didn't pull back, letting himself stand perfectly idle in the moment for a bit longer.

[jwshngt]

ofsvnlightt·:

it felt like slow motion as ashley watched the cup fall. how it didn’t shatter was beyond her, but hearing it clatter upon the floor made her jump. ever since the cabin, any little sound or unexpected thump freaked her out. she hadn’t been medically diagnosed, but she was pretty sure she had ptsd. who wouldn’t though after going through what she did? what all of them did? her story forgotten, she closed her computer as josh walked towards her. ashley knew he was there but her brain still couldn’t understand it. maybe that’s why her breathing got more ragged as he neared. he’s supposed to be dead. she kept telling herself. how was he here? a nod was all she could manage when he stuttered out her name. he seemed to have as much trouble as she was trying to form a sentence. “josh wh-why- how are you here?”

hand coming up to absent mindedly scratching the back of his elbow, josh simply stood there, --- dumbfounded. "well, if i knew.." he tried to humor it with a little laugh, which to no avail instantly FADED into the room. there was so much more he wanted to say, there was so much more to be left unspoken. "i..i'm.." he cleared his throat. "i'm sorry, ashley." his voice was barely above a whisper. "i know, falling right into it without any WARNING. but.. i feel like this has to be said because i can't fucking look at you without the need to cry. i'm so fucking sorry." he was hopeless, not knowing where to put himself, what to do with his hands nor what to say. so, he kept himself there, --- unmoving. "none of this makes it better but.." but?