Archangel @jzaustin295-blog - Tumblr Blog

What Do You Want?

A random thought occured to me today as I was struggling with some stuff. What is my goal here? At college, in life, on earth, what am I aiming for? Whenever I'm playing video games or doing homework my thought is always on what I want my end result to be, so what steps do I have to take to get there? I need to start focusing on the bigger picture here, what do I want my end result to be? Am I after success? If so, how do I measure success? In wealth? Influence? Popularity? Am I after love? Would enjoying the company of my family be enough? Would I be complete simply with a woman I knew I loved beside me? Maybe I want to be immortalized, to leave my mark on this world, in the form of good works, generous offerings, or maybe just being important enough that somebody makes a statue of me. In the end, I think I just want to be happy. I think that's all anyone wants, to be happy. Whether they know it or not. The tricky part is learning how to be happy. What I need to start doing is learning how to let the little things make me happy. Immortalization, power, and wealth won't make me happy, nor even will love in and of itself I don't think. I have to make an effort to be happy, I have to make an effort to enjoy every last minute that life has to offer. Regardless of what circumstances in my life may look like at that time, I need to find things to make me happy, to make me enjoy life.

iloveyoursoul

Resolution Time

At this point, I find that very few people, if any, actually pay attention to this blog. Truthfully, it doesn’t matter much at all to me. In all honesty, I use Tumblr less as a form of entertainment for others, and more of a self checker I suppose. I’ll post things on here that I would like to remember myself, so that I may come back and scroll through when I need to encourage myself, or remember who I strive to be.

Today was my 19th birthday. I didn’t do anything extravagant. Actually I just sat around the house all day playing video games and recovering from my recent trip to the gym. But it is nice to have a birthday so close to the beginning of the year, it gives me a chance to really judge myself yearly and try to do better for the next year. And this year I have some goals in mind, as it is the last of my teenage years.

First, I want to gain a lot of weight. I’m a 6 foot man, and while I’m not anorexic, I would like to gain some muscle.

Second, I want to strengthen my relationship with God. I am a man of faith, and recently I have been needing to kick myself back in the right direction.

And lastly, I want to become an overall better person. Kinder, more work oriented, more helpful.

If nobody reads this I wouldn’t mind, it’s more for me than anything else.

#2017 resolutions