The reason Shin took his abuserâs name
Recently I got one of my friends into yttd and she absolutely loved it. In fact I think I got her a little obssesed... So yey! Mission accomplished.
And so she got an idea that I will dwill on further myself in this post.
We were talking about how it triggers me when Sou said that he âgaveâ Shin his name like it was never his choice to begin with. Like Hiyori doesnât even acknowledge the fact Shin grew somehow (even if a tinniest bit) and like heâs convinced he isnât unable to make any choice that would make his situation better on his own.
And that also made me think: Why did Shin take his name in the first place? It doesnât really makes sense. I mean itâs obvious of course that he wanted to imitate his behavior but in order to do that he doesnât really need to take up his name too, does he? It just makes his case more complicated: like lying about his true identity the whole time or rewrting his name on a blackboard with chalk.
And thatâs where my friendâs big brain moment came âMaybe he took his name on purpose while thinking he will get an opportunity to take him down with him when heâll die in the future.â And I think thatâs brilliant??? I was so focused on Midoriâs side of the matter that I completly ignored Shinâs for some reason. Because that would exaclty explain why was he willing to do it even if it was really necessery.
Itâs obvious taking up Hiyoriâs personality or even simple thought being similar to him in some way makes him upset and really unconfrontable. He didnât do it because he wanted to. He did it because he thought itâs necessery - he simply didnât know any better. And so why would he want to change his name too? Isnât taking his personality painful enough?
Shin was certain heâs gonna die sooner or later if heâll mess up even tinniest bit. So I like to think his way of thinking went: âThe only good factor of that messed up situation where I take up your disgusting behavior will be the fact that when I die, youâll die too. For the last time. Iâll burry you with me and that would mean Iâll kill the last part of you remaining that crawls under my skin just like you did kill me back then when you hurt me and betrayed me. And thatâs the only reason Iâm willing to go so low despite the disgust it brings me. Itâs easier while keeping thoughts like these in my head.â
Thank you for allowing me to mess with this idea and to put it in thoughts in one post, Raven!














