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This stomach pit swirl

A tsunami in my gut

Wrong words flood and spill out my mouth

Swallowing my tongue in disgust

Is there more to say? More to feel?

More self destruction in pettiness?

Won’t go away , I’m on my own

It’s MY thoughts that run

You leave me to chase after them

I never catch up ..

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Single diamond in the rough

With her fragile hands to create

Create the most fragile beautiful things

Not for herself

She wants something solid and strong

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Watching the sky, Shaping the clouds

Into a message made just for you

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Sat on towers

Watching clouds form figures

“Are we in heaven”?

Seems likes it

Not a worry in our mind

All absorbed by the softest cotton

I want to live in them

Form myself into one

Lightly carried by the sky

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Same cold breeze

New cold shoulder

Season of heart break and Broken promises

Exposed words and uncovered tales

It all comes back

Once again it haunts my mind

I ask for too much

Not worthy of excitement

Sadness fills my vessel

And even when happiness flows around

You pity my round eyes full of hurt

My to do list is short

Yet I wait months and years

To keep my words in a jar

Untill you decide you decide you’re hungry

And take a bite into my filling past trauma

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Things you promised me

So quickly handed to someone else

No hesitation

Took months of reminders

Completely disregarded

Quickly forgotten

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Sad romance within

Hurt myself before any man did

Walking in the sun hoping to catch earth’s miracles

Not disasters even if it makes me lyrical

Tear drops from moon eyes

Looking up waiting for something in the sky

Rain and clouds calls me up slowly

Bless me with your water , don’t make it holy

Creative when I cry but I always get by

It’s not new for me But for you

All you hear is that I want to die

Disasters is my art

Rain and lighting is first in my heart

Every now and then it rains in sun

Feels like a blessing one that keeps me on the run

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Maybe my room needs fixing

1 am tidying up

Late nights organizing my thoughts

What’s important,

What’s next, and how to move on

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You’ll be losing something special

Only because what you want to gain is more important

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It’s funny how I don’t weigh so much

But I seem like such a baggage and heavy weight on others

A burden

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Dancing with the devil

He spins me in a whirlpool of emotions

Hard to distinguish one from the other

They build up until it fills to my throat

Drowning and he doesn’t help

Only observes

While mouthing words that can’t save me

Throw these emotions up

Then he offers to dance again

I grab his hand

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Something about looking up at you

Almost as worship

I just wouldn’t take a bullet

Something about being under your arm

Under your chin

Scruffy touch on my nose digging my way up

Deeper into your face looking for a place to rest my mind

From these Milky Way thoughts

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Just what the last man I loved said “It’s something new, I wanna know what more there is” The same news to feel like old news Fucken cycles

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Ignored the first ring

Then the second and third

Why do I feel so guilty for not replying? You out of everyone.

Not bc I still love you but I feel sorry for you

I know you’re alone

I remember your fears

I hate that I can feel them

Fucking empathic me

Your fears are not my problem now

I cleanse you from my life

You said you loved me enough to let me go

Don’t ring me for the 4th time

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Leaving an imprint

In your bed

In your mind

Hard to tell it’s there untill I say goodbye

You feel like something’s missing

Start noticing how different it is without me

Only when I realize how easy it’s getting without you

Sorry I’m in daylight

Gn 2 u

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I don’t remember much of the conversations we’ve had

Were you that silent

Or did I burn that bridge so we’ll

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You’re the ghost that doesnt float

I hear your feet dragging

Haunting reminder of how you’d let me walk upstairs first

Scraping your soul on ground

Pick

up

your

feet

Let me hear you stomp those boots with every step

Leading the way even if it’s alone