Basically my mom is going through a lot RN and I get that but I have struggles like over apologizing and interrupting people because 1. Trauma 2. ADHD and autism. I love Abt my mom, I care about her! But she said "no one cares about me" "why am I even here" "I'm useless" I tell her OVER AND OVER, TIME AND TIME AGAIN, I CARE! I finally exploded and here's what I said "I CARE, I CARE ABOUT YOU AND YOU ARE MAKING ME SECOND GUESS MYSELF BECAUSE YOU SAY NO ONE CARES ABOUT YOU WHEN I DO, I CARE" then went to my room, she said something in between me going and I stopped thinking about what to reply but I thought "I don't fucking care" now yes I do care abt her but I was literally crying CRYING! And I come first for me, I'm not saying I come first for everyone! Just me. Now I'm waiting to see if my best friend replies and I can vent to them. My other friends may be up rn but no one knows me and my family issues and trauma and just life style more then they do. Ik this is out of my normal blogs or photos but I had to get it out, if you read this far thanks for reading! Bye