hello

[eymurn]

you prayed for better and that’s why everything around you is changing

[kosmogrl]

the ultimate 2026 goal is to get off the damn phone

[im-jennx]

ₓ˚ ୭ ˚◦˚ Ever After Legacy Challenge ˚◦˚ ୧ ˚ₓ

This is a ten generation legacy challenge that will cure you of your boredom! Each generation has in-depth storylines that helps assist you to adding more volume to your sims origins and gameplay. With sets of goals and requirements that each generation must complete before a new heir takes over. 

Rules: 

○ You can add in extra details/plots/events/etc, that you may want to for each generation. You can feel free to make this as crazy as you may want it to be. The goal of this legacy challenge is to help guide gameplay. 

○ Money cheats are allowed to a certain degree. You can do cheats like “freerealestate” and “money 00″ for story-telling purposes. (But I don’t think you will need it XD)

○ Feel free to use MODS to further enhance your gameplay. No restrictions here just super excited to see what everyone does with this challenge. 

○ ALL goals and requirements must be met before a new heir takes over

○ If you do decide to take on this challenge, tag/credit me! @Imjennx or paste this post’s link in your description box. Use #EverAfterChallenge on videos/posts/and tweets if you can :) Good luck and I hope you all have fun! 

My Little Helpers: 

This is a little shoutout and thank you to these two lovely simmers who have helped me with my challenge. Honestly, without them, this challenge would not have been published. They hyped me up every step of the way and lended me their advice. 

@roosims & @thesimallie

These two incredible simmers took the time out of their days to help me proof read this and went out of their way to give me wonderful advice. Go check out their Youtube channels as well. They honestly deserves all the love in the world. 

VIDEO SHOWCASE

If you would like to see the video shocase that I did where I read out this challenge then check it out here! 

Keep reading

[kae-dee]

for reference

[kae-dee]

Long time no entry

Hi. It's been months or years since I've last posted an entry here on my account. I've had this account since freshman year of college which was around 2011 and I've been documenting every single thing that's been occupying my mind. But through the years I've learned to handle my thoughts and emotions and so I gradually stopped using my tumblr account.

Just an update, it's been 4 years since I graduated medschool and I'm now a doctor working in public health. Most of my batchmates went straight into residency training and I ventured out a little and went on the road less travelled. I can't say I did the right thing but I'm kinda okay with my decision considering I have work-life balance, I have good pay and I can finally buy myself things and experiences I couldn't afford way back. I'm not fully contented with what state I am now. I can't help think of what ifs-- what if I went to residency training? What if I had courage to take USMLE or even PLAB and practice medicine out of the country? I had a lot of reservations before but what if those reservations didn't stop me? Now I'm stuck in this routinary 8-5 job that does nothing to challenge me. It's boring. The only bonus is that it pays well. I guess i'm grateful for that.

I'm posting this because I feel stuck. My friends are either getting married or having kids, some are getting promotions in their careers while I'm still where I was 4 years ago. So I can't help thinking, is this it for me? Should I be contented with where I am currently??

I know this post probably a mess as I'm typing exactly what goes on in my mind. For my future self who would look back on this, don't judge my messy post and my grammar. I already have a lot in my mind and the last thing I wanna do is proofread this post.

[pippa-xr-deactivated20190312]

[jehovahhthickness]

[kae-dee]

B,

You have been occupying my mind for so many nights now and I kept on daydreaming about this scenario of me confessing to you in my head. I have so much to tell you but I don't have the courage to do it so until then, I will try my best to express my feelings through this post. May this serve as my "pre-confession" before the real confession.

Alam mo namang gusto kita di ba? I mean.. I have told you this so many times before nung 3rd year tayo and even nung graduation day natin kasi feel ko yun na yung end ng communication natin. Actually this started out as a happy crush pero di ko napapansin na lumalalim na pala feelings ko for you. Dumating na ako sa point na I would do anything you ask me to -- I would def do anything for you.. ganon na kabigat. Naalala ko nung medschool pinagdadasal kita palagi kasi I hate seeing you not reach your dreams kasi kahit gaano ka man ka pacool.. nakikita ko na you work hard to finish med school kaya nga nung 3rd year tayo pinagdadasal ko na sana sabay tayo magclerkship kahit di tayo magkagroup. Kahit nung 4th year pinagdasal ko na sana sabay tayong ggraduate. Nung board review days natin.. kahit na hirap akong sabayan ka sa review ginagawa ko parin kasi gusto kita tulungan and ayaw ko pabayaan ka kasi nakikita kong nahihirapan ka. I hate seeing you struggle. Kaya nga nung nalaman kong di ka pumasa umiyak ako kasi feeling ko naiwan kita and I imagined how you've felt nung day na lumabas yung results. After nun di na tayo nagusap as in no communication at all. Lagi lang kitang binabantayan sa twitter kasi you used to like sad and depressing tweets nun. I'm so glad you're in a good place now kasi di ka na active sa twitter and wala ka nang nilalike na ganung tweets. I cared for you a lot.. I still do tbh. I watched how our friendship grew.. ngayon nakakapagsabi ka na ng mga problema mo sakin pati family problem shineshare mo na rin. I think that is the main reason pa why ako nafall at naattach ng malala kasi I felt needed. Feeling ko special ako kasi ako yung nasasabihan mo ng mga ganon. Nacoconfuse ako at first if you feel the same way ba kasi I've never actually have a guy friend na ganito kaclose. Di ko alam if this is a normal boy-girl friendship dynamic. I blame my feelings for adding meaning to all the things that you do. Pero ngayon natanggap ko na na wala lang talaga mga yun. We're best friends talaga siguro. I think. Kaya nga ngayon I'm saying this to you hindi para humingi ng kapalit or malaman ang lugar ko sa buhay mo. You don't need to answer me. SInasabi ko lang to para lang malabas ko na and para magkaclosure ako na at least nakapagconfess ako before I let go of you and the idea that someday you might feel the same way about me.

Always know na no matter where you are, whatever you're doing or who you are with.. I will always truly love you.. like a sister to a brother and like a friend to a friend.

[kae-dee]

December 1 2022

For the first time in my life, I felt worthless. What triggered me was nung nagtatanong si Benedict kung nagsusuot ba ako ng sunnies and ano sinusuot ko kasi balak daw nya igift sa isang girl.. I don't know if sensitive lang ba ako and over acting but I got hurt sa sinabi nya kasi ilang beses na ako naghihingi ng gift sa kanya pero he always dismissed my requests.. he even forgot about my birthday -- not that he was supposed to remember it -- but alam mo yun? Hindi man lang nya naalala na di pa ako nagbbirthday or whatever patapos na yung taon. Tapos sa maswerteng babaeng yun.. kung sino man sya.. agad nya bibilhan ng gift?! Am i really not that important to him, even as a friend man lang? He always tries to make plans na lumabas kami at mag Baguio but it never materialized.. panay plano lang pero sa mga iba nyang kaibigan laging natutuloy... I know my place and it's being his friend and go to person for his convenience pero sobra naman. I'm literally hurt and I feel like yun lang worth ko sa kanya. I think it's partly my fault for putting him in a pedestal and expecting a lot from him when I know I shouldn't have done in the first place. I know I should set boundaries pero di ko sya kaya i-ignore. I can't not give in to him kasi I love him, sobra. Hindi ko sya matiis. What I can do is not talk to him if he ever stops talking to me. Nagawa ko na yun noon and I survived for a whole a year of no communication. Tapos naulit pa yun after the boards so I know kaya ko yun basta sya ang mauunang di kakausap sakin. So please bene just let me go.

Next trigger, pag-uwi ko.. I saw from the GC na may bonus na mga employees pero para sa mga permanent and casual employees lang sya. As a job order employee, na-hurt ako at nainis kasi don't we, the jos, deserve a bonus for our hard work? Like, employee nyo din po kami.. we work in the same agency pero bakit di kami nabibiyaan? Last time nabigyan kaming 2000?? for what??? It's such a small amount.. tapos mga permanent na tamad ang nagkakabonus? WHat a shitty policy. What a shitty government. What a shitty country to live in.

and lastly, my dad, na hindi na tumigil ipaalala sakin na kelan daw ba nya matitikman ang feeling na may anak na doktor.. honestly I'm more tired of hearing it than getting pissed at this point. I'm struggling right now kasi nagsstart palang ako gumawa ng career and ineenjoy ko palang income ko to heal my inner childhood and buy the things that I was never provided for when I was young kasi we're poor. I am grateful for the life they've given me pero sana naman wag silang mag-expect agad na agad agad ko silang mabibigyan ng magandang buhay. Kaya ang ending na-real talk ko nalang sya na mararanasan nya sana yun kung mayaman na sya to begin with bago pa ako pinanganak.. edi sana I won't have to buy the things I longed for since I was young.. edi sana I won't have to pay 20k for my car monthly kasi he already provided that for me way before. Ano to.. ginawa lang ba ako sa mundong to para bigyan sila ng magandang buhay??? how about my own life then? wala talaga akong say sa sarili kong buhay sa pamilyang to. It's suffocating.

[kae-dee]

Nag-usap kami ng mama ko kanina about me moving out and applying for a pre-residency training sa bataan.. and of course ayaw nya ako paalisin. Saying things like bakit daw gusto kong nabubuhay mag-isa.. bakit daw ayaw ko sila kasama.. bakit daw di ko nalang gawin yung gusto nila which is to stay here and magtiis sa JBL na ayaw ko nga applyan. Tapos sa inis ko sabi ko okay sige, gagawin ko nalang gusto nyo kung saan kayo masaya at kung saan kayo magkakapeace of mind. Nevermind nalang kung anong gusto ko gawin sa buhay ko.. tutal sila naman bumuhay sakin and nagpaaral sakin edi gawin ko nalang gusto nila. I feel like I don't own my life I can't even make decisions for myself. If this is how I'm gonna live my life then hihintayin ko nalang yung day na mamatay ako and sana it will happen soon kasi I don't wanna live a life na wala naman akong say.

[kae-dee]

Alam ko naman na darating talaga yung time na maggrow apart kami ng mga friends ko pero until now hindi ko pa pala kayang tanggapin na dumating na yung time na yun sa buhay ko. I lost communication with my best friend of 14 years.. tapos ngayon yung isa kong close friend nagbday sya pero hindi man kami na-invite na OG friends nya. Ni hindi nga din ako binati nung birthday ko. Naisip ko lang baka busy sya pero hindi ko mapigilan hindi ma-hurt eh kasi ako I know all of their birthdays pero yung birthday ko pala madali lang makalimutan.. madali lang pala ako kalimutan.

Maybe I should just start forgetting everyone who forgot about me. I'll be sad but I'll be fine.

[kae-dee]

September 2022

I've been thinking about my future lately. I don't wanna stay in the city health office any longer than my contract and I thought maybe I could apply for pre-residency training for Internal Medicine. But, the problem is i don't know what hospital I should apply to. First option is Baguio Gen but the preres starts October 1 and November 1 and I can't just leave like that so my second option was to apply at Bataan Gen which is an entirely new town.. and I've never been in that town before. Benedict lives there and he's been supportive of my decision and even offered to help me submit an application. I guess imma have to depend on him since he's the only friend I have in that town.

Now my problem is my parents.. because they don't want to let me go. They keep on persuading me to stay and apply at JBL pero I don't wanna go back there anymore. That place and people in it are too toxic. Residency is already toxic so why should I still wanna work with toxic people as well? Di ba? I'm planning on applying on January 2023 and I hope my parents support for what I want. I understand what they're feeling but I also gotta live my life the way I want it. I can't continuously live my life according to what they want. Otherwise I would feel like my life isn't mine and that I'm living for someone else's. Gets ba? Parang feeling ko worthless na yung buhay ko kasi di naman ako masaya sa ginagawa ko..

This is a big girl move pero I need to do it for my future and I hope I will get support from my friends and parents.

[kae-dee]

09/21/2022

i can't believe i'm going to spend my birthday sad and hurt. First time to. Kanina patricia messaged me and confirmed that my best friend no longer wishes to be associated with us. She said she felt like she outgrew our friendship cause sometimes di sya nakakasabay sa mga lakad namin ni patricia. I understand what she felt but i refuse to accept her reason. Noon, ganyan din nafifeel ko pag may sariling lakad sila ni patricia, and her other friends pero she never heard me make reklamo and I never decided to end our friendship because of that. For years I've been dismissing feelings tuwing nagtatampo ako sa kanya pag mas pinipili nya maghang out with her boyfriends or with her other friends and I never ended our friendship kasi I value all the years and memories we've spent together tapos sya eend lang nya ng ganon.

If she wants to end our friendship then fine. I'm gonna be sad and hurt -- I might cry -- but I'm gonna be fine.

[kae-dee]

why do i cry at the most random times but can't whenever i'm actually sad and hurt?

[kae-dee]

August 2022

there's so much going on inside my mind and i can't sleep. it is now 12:31 in the morning.. i am currently writing what goes on my mind but i cant find the right words to describe my thoughts and feelings. so ill let this be a scattered and unorganized update about my already messy life.

im still working in public health and tbh, i dont see myself growing in this field anymore. i mean sometimes it feels fulfilling serving the public - the poorest of the poor and those marginalized people but most of the time it can be pretty exhausting especially when i dont feel appreciated in my hard work. as someone who has words of affirmation as a love language, i need kind words to feel loved and appreciated.. and the compensation is not that good either. there are a lot of things i want to buy, a lot that i want to experience, places i want to travel to but i am financially restricted. my parents depend on me and honestly i feel so pressured to provide their needs and wants. then my rich friends keep on inviting me to travel outside the philippines and i just cant do that because im broke.

another thing.. my best friend is still distant. i tried talking to her pero hanggang ngayon cold pa rin replies nya. i guess that's the end of our friendship.

this is what's making me sad right at this moment.. feeling ko i need to really try to let go of this boy na ive been in love with for almost 4 yrs now. i think it's time to move on. ayoko na malaman or mabalitaan if may gf na ba sya or may nagugustuhan na ba sya. akala ko dati may chance kami pero ngayon narerealize ko na magkaiba kami ng gustong mangyari sa buhay and magkaiba tingin namin sa isa't isa. kailangan ko na tapusin tong one sided love na to

even after so many years, i keep coming back to tumblr to vent out my feelings because until now, i feel alone.. i dont have someone to talk to and someone i can be 100% honest with. i am the problem tho, i just dont know how to become vulnerable with others.

now im going to try to cry myself to sleep

[kae-dee]

i have been noticing myself crying at random times lately.. even on moments na hindi naman talaga nakakaiyak. Like kanina I was just singing along to Taylor's All Too Well 10 minute version.. di naman ako nakakarelate sa kanta but I cried???

Is this my body's way of crying out my frustrations?? Dahil di na ako umiiyak or nakakaiyak when I'm sad.

[kae-dee]

I have the strong urge to treat you how you treat me. Nagpipigil lang ako. You always point out my insecurities every single day and I always laugh it off lang pero lately napupuno na ako and gusto na kitang gantihan.. in a more hurtful way. I could easily tear you down with your past and failures pero di ko ginagawa kasi I don't wanna hurt your feelings. Pero ikaw, parang hindi mo naiisip na nakakahurt na yung mga sinasabi mo towards me. Hindi ko talaga alam kung bakit ako nababaliw sa'yo when in fact lagi mo naman akong dinidisappoint sa actions mo.

Dati naiisip ko I wanna keep you in my life and I wanna stay in yours forever pero if ganyan lagi treatment mo sakin parang i wanna quit you na.

[quotemadness]

“It’s all about falling in love with yourself and sharing that love with someone who appreciates you, rather than looking for love to compensate for a self love deficit.”

— Eartha Kitt