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literature and languages focus chaotic, consistency doesn't exist around here these are my monkeys and my circus

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hello hello!! i am alive peoples, just in the trenches of academia right now. the omens say that the next year ahead will be interesting at the very least, but certainly harsh

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i certainly did not forget about my blog AGAIN

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idk wtf they put in this libra full moon but they can take it back and shove it up their asses bro it's SUCH an ass period

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improvement day 1/7, week2 ; 29.03.

haha.. i CERTAINLY.. surely.. one hundred percent did not forget to post this on time. anyway, a slow mediocre day marked by brain fog yet again. can't think of highlights, had a hard time focusing on anything and the shift to daylight saving time fucked me over

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idk why i never go to sleep early. worst decission to go to sleep late. i wanna wake up at 5AM bruh

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so... about that... you forgot to mention sleeping 8h before waking up at 5AM.. be a bit more specific the next time you make a wish, ok?

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day 7/7 of self improvemnent; 28.03

i can't say much, i woke up at 5AM and dragged myself through the day on 5h of sleep. HIGHLIGHTS OF THE DAY: (not in order)

i worked out twice

i had an identity crisis

i finished a book

i ate the tiramisu i made by myself and it was good

i'll make the weekly report in this post too just because

TO IMPROVE:

sleep schedule

work out

the way i perceive workloads and how i act on solving them

self image

KEEP PUSHING:

make a consistent routine

do things that make you happy

keep meditating and journalling

GOOD JOB:

you respected your deadlines for most part

you did things that made you happy (ex: made a dessert, bought work out clothes and took small steps towards working out at home)

you found new interests

you created a streak of focusing on a task for at least 1h/day

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day 6/7 of self improvement; 27.03

i had a TERRIBLY difficult time waking up and it took me up until the afternoon to actually move highlights of the day:

i started a streak of focusing at least 1h/day on my clock app (5h yesterday, 4h today)

i found everything i was looking for and beyond

i made tiramisu and it ended up being good

i ended up reading and taking notes, making actual progress

also 5, i started a streak of posting my daily updates at the end of that day and NOT the day after, let's go

i wish i would've managed to go to sleep early, routine in itself is something i DESPERATELY need to work on. it's crazy to me just how much i DON'T realise what's going on in my life, i wish i wouldn't feel so detached all of the time and worried about all of the wrong things

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i think my tiramisu sensed i was scared to not fuck it up so it was fucked up. sigh. i'll eat it with one of these bad boys if i have to

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i love spending money on trinkets i say as i know for a fact i don't even have enough space for them

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WHY is waking up so difficult bruh

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idk why i never go to sleep early. worst decission to go to sleep late. i wanna wake up at 5AM bruh

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ngl lowkey proud of myself for being productive despite being sick

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@dailykafka

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day 5/7 of self improvement 26.03

time really flies, doesn't it...

i drank some vitamin supplement, an essay ate up half of my day, i pulled through tuition and my english teacher praised my vocabulary. not wow. i don't feel as if i'm doing enough. also running on little sleep. did my skincare. don't know. confused.

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day 4/7 25.03 nothing much happened, i got assignments done but they drained me, i had a weird encounter and i got some things so i can work out at home

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it dawned on me just how privileged i am to even stress about my education when a little girl that was probably forced by her parents to beg told me she never once went to school in her life.

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day 3/7 of self improvement

highlights of the day:

i got 2 assignments done in time

i met up with 2 teachers

i got to complain about my mom

i got rid of evil eye

i slept decently