Shawn Mendes - I donāt
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Request:Ā Request: Could you do one where Shawn and you have a crush on each other and one night they confess there love and end up dating.
āYouāre staring, again,ā I heard someone saying from behind and turning around I saw Susan, one of the makeup artists.
āWhat? No, I wasnāt,ā I mumbled but I was fully aware of the fact that I was. But I couldnāt help myself, Shawn looked so good standing on the empty stage as he was doing sound-check with his guitar in his hands.
āI really donāt understand why you are doing this, you should just tell him,ā she sighed and stepping next to me we watched him both. He was laughing on something one of the technicians said and God, he was so cute.
āBecause I simply canāt,ā I replied chewing on my bottom lip.
āThatās bullshit.ā
āNo, Susan. He is my best friend and I canāt risk it. I donāt want to lose him.ā
I had known Shawn since forever and I didnāt want to risk our friendship with telling him that I had feelings for him. I didnāt want to get rejected, so I just quietly locked everything inside me.
āItās ridiculous. Youāre not in a Nicolas Sparks movie, Jesus,ā she rolled her eyes and walked away.
When I was able to quit staring at Shawnās perfection I went back to his dressing room and called my mom to let her know I was still alive. She was very afraid to let me go on tour with Shawn, but it was summer time and she knew it was a great chance for me to see a lot of new places. But she still wanted me to call her every day.
āYeah, okay mom,ā I sighed when the door opened and Shawn walked in with a bottled water in his hands and smiled at me. āShawn just walked into the room,ā I commented.
āHello!ā he shouted into the phone.
āSay hi to him,ā my mom answered.
āOkay. But I gotta go now. Iāll call you tomorrow.ā
āAlright, Honey. Have fun, love you!ā
āLove you!ā I said and then ended the call. āHi,ā I smiled at Shawn who was now looking at his own phone. I threw mine to the table and sat down.
āHey. Whatās up?ā He smiled at me glancing up.
āNot much. Are we still going to have dinner with the crew later?ā
āYeah, as soon as we are done here we leave to the restaurant. Why?ā
āJust asking,ā I shrugged.
My phone started ringing on the table and as Shawn looked at it his expressions changed. I stood up and walked to the table grabbing the phone. My ex-boyfriend was calling me, but I had no idea why.
āI have to go,ā Shawn said and before I could say anything he was out of the room. I sighed and answered the call.
It turned out that he just needed the phone number of one of our family friends who was a lawyer and he didnāt even tried that awkward āhow are you, what have you been doingā talk, thankfully.
I watched the show from backstage and Shawn was just as amazing as always. I loved seeing him doing what he always wanted to do and his passion was the most precious thing in the world. When the show was over and we all packed our stuff we headed to the restaurant as we agreed on earlier, but something was wrong. Shawn seemed very into his thoughts and also a bit distant to me.
We sat next to each other at the table but he was talking to one of the dancer girls, so I also made myself busy with other people. But when my phone buzzed, and I got a message from one of my classmates who happened to be a boy he turned to me.
āAnother guy, huh?ā he asked. I furrowed my eyebrows and looked at him locking my phone without replying to the message.
āWhat?ā
He shook his head and shrugged as if he didnāt say anything, but then continued.
āEarlier your ex, now this guy. You are talking to a lot of boys.ā
āWhat is this supposed to mean?ā I asked definitely feeling hurt.
āNothing.ā
I stood up and grabbing his arm I dragged him with myself and headed out to the garden of the restaurant to have a few words with him.
āWhatās the deal?ā I asked as we found a quiet spot, far from everyone else. He obviously was avoiding to look at me and it just made me angrier.
āNothing. Iām just saying what I see.ā
āWhat you see? Shawn, what are you talking about?ā
āYou!ā he snapped finally looking at me. āIām talking about you and how you are being adored by all these guys and I justā¦ I-I donātā¦ā
āYou donāt what?ā I asked with my heart beating crazily as I was waiting for him to finally speak his mind.
āI donāt want to see you with these guys!ā he suddenly snapped. āI donāt want your ex talking to you, or your loser classmates messaging you, because Iā¦ Iām in love with you and Iām fucking jealous!ā
Even though deep down I was feeling this coming when he started bitching, his sudden outburst surprised me. And made me feel happy.
āYou are?ā I asked quietly and couldnāt hold my smile back, but he didnāt see it, because he was avoiding to look at me again.
āFuck, I didnāt mean to tell you this, I just couldnāt ho-ā I didnāt let him finish, because I crashed my lips to his.
He was definitely surprised, but as soon as he realized what was happening he kissed me back putting his arms around me. Neither of us wanted to pull away, but we eventually had to. He slowly leaned back and caressed my cheek.
āWhat was this?ā he asked chuckling.
āIt was my āshut up, I love you tooā message, I hope you got it.ā
āOh, donāt worry, I definitely got it.ā
We walked back to the table and he decided to hold my hand under the table. Even though it wasnāt quite obvious, Susan noticed it and winked at me. No need to mention that I was blushing. But at least I had my happy ending.
