puka puka~♪

jirai/sh€d/vent blog block, don't report ♡

[kanatanui]

𓏵 ⸝⸝ about me )⠀ call me wonder, kanata, or noa, they/it/she/he, minor, fem-aligned nonbinary lesbian, kanata shinkai of jiraiblr, physically and mentally disabled, pro recovery for all but myself, eng/fin/jp ok!

𓏵 ⸝⸝ typology ) sp/so 954 FLEV RLUEI mel-phleg

𓏵 ⸝⸝ diagnoses )⠀autism, mdd, gad, ednos, chronic pain, dysautonomia, iron deficiency anemia, ibs, gerd

𓏵 ⸝⸝ byi )⠀i talk a lot about s3lf-h@rm, €ating dis0rders, su¡cide, and mental health issues, i have no dni but will block if i'm not comfortable with someone

tags

# ۫ ⊹ The ocean envoy speaks ! : general

# ۫ ⊹ Look, a fishie ! : reblog

# ۫ ⊹ The land is really painful to live on, isn't it ? : vent

# ۫ ⊹ You're a kind person, aren't you ? : asks

my fav...

𓏵 ⸝⸝ media )⠀enstars, project sekai, milgram, idolm@ster, love live, vocaloid, nso, persona series, madoka magica, yttd, danganronpa, fangans, thllda

𓏵 ⸝⸝ music ) iLiFE!, iCOL, giltyxgilty, fruit zipper, cutie street, datura, candye syrup, momoiro clover z, #lovesick, zenbu kimi no sei da, maretu, kairikibear, wowaka, tuyu, shinsei kamattechan, mafumafu

[kanatanui]

i'm so tired of everything.

[kanatanui]

oh well. sacrifices must be made i guess. i'd gouge out my own eyes if it made me 10 kilos lighter so losing a couple friends is no big deal in comparison ^^

[kanatanui]

hhhhmmm i've been isolating myself because i'm somewhat going thru an ed relapse and every single fucking outing with them is just being force fed unhealthy food for 4 hours straight (<<exaggeration but it does feel like that) but i feel like it's making them hate me.

[kanatanui]

i'm really the biggest failure in this universe

[kanatanui]

i feel like the most fattest most disgusting creature alive right now why the hell can't i control myself i hate myself so much

[kanatanui]

im sweating my balls off in 15 celsius weather guys i fear my temperature regulation ability is absolutely cooked

[kanatanui]

i love all my mooties sooo much you don't even know i'm just bad at showing it

[kanatanui]

i have to be useful, or i'll be thrown away again, i think. even if it means exhausting myself, i have to make my friends happy, or soon i won't have any.

[kanatanui]

no but on a more serious note it really is living double life being mentally unwell because i feel like at least a good half of my friends would leave me if i wasn't the cheerful, silly friend who never argues with them and is always there to help.

[kanatanui]

being on jiraiblr is just like being a magical girl. during the day, i'm just a loser nobody cares about, but once i get home from school, i transform into a cute heroine who gets tons of attention and love (/aka a niche internet personality)

[kanatanui]

i think i might have zoned out for like half of yesterday ??? huh.

[kanatanui]

KANATA THEME …. uuu ur theme is so so so pretty whaaatt

yyyaaayyy thank u !!!!!!

[sleepy-1128-sodazzz]

[kanatanui]

last week of school,,, i want outtttt pleasee

[kanatanui]

i'm going to try and go to sleep sorta early tonight in hopes i won't be miserable tomorrow,,, g'nightie everyone !!!

[kanatanui]

how difficult is it to respect someone's identity? especially when they're your so-called "friend". wonder isn't attracted to men. wonder isn't okay with being jokingly flirted with coming from men. wonder isn't okay with being shipped with men. i feel like that's not a difficult concept to understand???