Kano

Kane 27 Australian

[kanotheking]

There is a dark irony in accusing someone of falling for someone else, basically forcing a breakup over it, proceeding to then act like you want to get back together after you lead on the person who never wanted to break up in the first place, then ending up with someone who the person you lead on was suspicious of while you were leading them on. Can only imagine how he was influencing the entire situation for his own personal gain. But if that’s the type of person you want, by any means go for it. Just be careful of the huntsman spiders in America, especially Florida. (It’s okay you’ll believe his word and not mine) I really wish you could’ve just been honest with me instead of having to constantly lie to me the entire time. I already said I didn’t feel like I was good enough, but you really had to replace me and completely ghost me like that? After everything I’m just a stranger to you. You always claimed he’s just a friend, but the reality is you never told him to stop talking to you the way he was talking to you, because that’s what you wanted. It just hurts to have my trust questioned, my trust broken and then being effortlessly replaced. It feels like you never really wanted it as much as I did. Like everything I ever did for you meant absolutely nothing all because of a couple of bad arguments. I know you’ll tell everyone that I’m horrible, the same way you talked about your ex to me. But the reality is that I did so much for you and you will struggle to find happiness that exceeds what I made you feel. But I really do hope you find the true happiness you deserve. It’s just sad that I won’t know what that feels like for a very long time.

[pr1nceshawn]

Turning Your Tinder Profile Into A Strip Tease.

[lake--verity-deactivated2018090]

Stop teasing and tap again I wanna see the obituary

[the-haiku-bot]

Stop teasing and tap

again I wanna see the

obituary

Beep boop! I look for accidental haiku posts. Sometimes I mess up.

[memescomedy]

[markwateneymemorialcrater]

there were better ways to do this. those signs do come off

[neonprotagonist]

they actually grow back when you try to do that though. like lizard tails.

[kanotheking]

Why did you force us to breakup when it was so obvious that I was unsure? Why did you force yourself to move on? Was it never meant to be me? Was it him? Why can’t we just try again? It would be better than the last time. Why am I even writing this, why am I even bothering, why am I even alive. I just wanted another chance, I would have made it the last one.

[c-isnenegro]

[arshysky]

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[c-isnenegro]

[kanotheking]

Why am I always the one left with all of this hurt and all of this pain. I always love the other person that I’m with more than they love me. I’m always the one that is left loving the other person while they give up, move on and find someone else. She’ll never know how much I really loved her, or maybe she will but she just won’t be able to accept that I’ll be the only one to truly love her for who she is. I really wish I could go back to the beginning before all of this started and just try keep my self-hatred together. It’s funny how I was so concerned about not being good enough for her that I indirectly turned into the person that wasn’t good enough for her. But it’s fine, she’s already moved onto someone else and I’ll still be dwelling on this for another year or more. It hurts so much this time because I just don’t understand why she gave up on me, why she became so impatient with me when I was hurting. I was a little impatient with her at times especially towards the end but she’ll forget that I was always there for her every other time. I stuck by her. I never gave up on her. I made a promise to her, but what’ does a promise mean if she’s the one who gave up? I literally spend every waking moment hoping that she’ll change her mind and come back to me, but she’s already set on him it seems. I knew it wouldn’t take long for her to be fine and happy with someone else, i just never expected it to be true, i never expected it to be him, I never expected her to leave. She made me believe that it was going to be us forever. I still want that, but nothing I do will change her mind. It will only push her further away. I’m not sure if I’ll make it through the rest of this and next year. But we’ll see.

[moan-s]

[kanotheking]

This entire breakup has been the most heartbreaking experience for me because I’m left in the fucking dark, I still care and I still want it. It starts with problems occurring between the two of us, both of us getting impatient and arguments breaking out in relation to our future. I also started to feel like I wasn’t good enough for her and was distancing myself a little bit. I was dealing with all of this hatred towards myself not feeling good enough, I felt like I was the cause of our fights and arguments. I also stress about the future a lot, I was breaking. The way I handled this part of the situation was awful, I worded things badly, said shit that I didn’t actually mean but said because I was so fucked up from all of the thoughts. Even after our forced breakup, I reassured her every time that I wanted to try again. I never wanted to give up, I said to her that things needed to change but I realized it was me that needed to change. I was under the impression that we would both actually try again, but there was a point where she just gave up on trying and ghosted me despite both of us agreeing to trying again. It doesn’t help that I had nobody on my side to talk some sense into her, but instead she had a group of people telling her “you should leave him” - including one guy in particular who I knew would fall in love with her, but she’s usually blind to this kind of thing. She claims she made the decision herself, but the amount of influence from others would’ve had an impact on her decision. Unless of course everything she said was all lies and empty promises, but I like to give her the benefit of the doubt.  Either way, she refuses to talk to me and I’m still left in the dark while she’s spending time with one guy who is being super disrespectful and claiming she’s his future wife when she claimed she told everyone that she doesn’t want to date anyone. But who knows, maybe she wants that - maybe that was the intention  It’s a shame because I believe that they’ll end up together despite her telling me she doesn’t want to date anyone and doesn’t want to date him. This is just the kind of thing that happens to me in life, I expect people to disappoint me, I expect them to leave me, I expect them to lie to me, I don’t expect anyone to actually love me as much as I love them. People have given up on me for the longest time and every time it happens a part of me shatters It’s so damaging to see how easily she forgot me, how easily she forgot all of the good things - because our relationship was amazing besides these outside factors. She literally gets on with her day, takes selfies, talks to people, has fun playing games with them. Treats me like I’m some crazy stranger for still being in love with her.  Deep down I wish she would just talk to me, so we can actually resolve our issues instead of holding grudges and having unnecessary anxiety associated with each other. If she actually tried everything would 180 for me instantly. I wouldn’t be depressed, I wouldn’t be miserable, I would be so motivated to make everything between us the best it could be so we could have a happy future together. But unfortunately that doesn’t seem to be the case, I don’t get what I want in life. I’m always the one to suffer while the other person gets to live happily.

[kanotheking]

It’s been 6 months and I’m probably the most miserable I’ve been since this all started. The breakup felt forced, her moving on felt forced and I’m still so confused why she didn’t want to try after we both said we would. Almost three years and it all just feels like empty promises? I get that I acted cold at times, but I don’t get how a person can forget you, move on and act like nothing happened within the space of a couple of months. But maybe there’s another motive behind it, who knows. I guess this really shows I’ll never be good enough for anyone.

[oblivious-mindsett]

[toomuch-taxing-formybrokenh-blog]

Just tell me that. No need to pretend.

[spacehunter-m]

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[tullipsink]

And it’s selfish of me to say this, but no one will ever love you the way I did.

A.M.// I would’ve done anything for you (via tullipsink)

[coral]

Call me and tell me you miss me. Call me and tell me I’m on your mind as much as you are on mine.

(via feellng)

[kanotheking]

I wasn’t enough and the worst part is knowing that I hurt her when she was just trying to be happy