BefuddledRandom

Stalks around Tumblr and draw's in her spare time.

[kaorichan92]

My mind is an entity of its own.

Lost in a dream

Meandering the line of memory and fantasy

My heart recalls it with clarity

I am weak to its indulgence.

Despite my awareness to the disease

I simply let it be

and mourn what was

and what could never be.

When the tears escape

my careful facade

I'll let illusion deceive me

with the belief that

you might be here, too.

Lost in this reverie with me.

At least then,

I won't have to face reality

that perhaps I am truly stuck here all alone.

In a world of my own.

[arandomthot]

This happens to me at least once a week

[kaorichan92]

The closer you get to me the more I want to scream and rip my hair out. I hate who I am and I hate that I cannot give you my best and I hate that this day has been stuck on repeat for 5 years and I hate that everything I try ends in utter failure when I know that with you I CANNOT fail. It just can't happen for you.

I hate that I have to live knowing that this was all my own 'choice,' every single day.

[kaorichan92]

Bitch

Beautiful

Individual

Taking

Challenge

Humbly.

[kaorichan92]

Rules of Life

1. Nothing will ever be there when you need it.

2. Nothing is ever simple.

[kaorichan92]

A Story.

I became,

I saw,

I felt.

I withered,

I sought,

I regained.

I created; I strive.

Repeat.

(I thrive.)

[kaorichan92]

Can’t decide which I like most!

[kaorichan92]

My first post! Hello, Tumblr! Let me show you what I can do! Did a doodle and messed around with a fancy editor.