ADayInTheLife

I'm looking up, I notice I was late..

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i know. But........ Cute!

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I've pillowed you quite long enough last night. It was sweet, as if we were lovers, we were holding hands, but hiding from others.

Ah

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will you coming back home today?

Eaaaaaa molai.

Heard that you got a very bad sore throat. Hope you'll be better soon.

You'll nailed the day!

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Rindu suasana Ramadhan waktu kecil.

Butuh banyak energi menciptakan ambiance kaya gitu, pengen tapi suka males. Dasar

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They ask me if I'm happy.

They don't know I no longer acknowledge that feeling anymore.

What is happiness

It's just illusions

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I'm just an empty vessel with no hope of the future, not knowing what to do

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Just another day feeling useless and dumb.

Meskipun Ada banyak idf yg g guna tetep aja merasa rendah diri.

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Sad.

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I'm this age that reassured myself that happiness is a warm gun.

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Astaghfirullahaladzim, kenapa malah jadi naksir tentara Al qassam hahahaha

Wah Salah fokus

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Israel setuju gencatan senjata selama 4 Hari.

Rasanya g bisa dipercaya omongannya, bikin mual.

Ada mahluk Kaya mereka.

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Hari ke 44 Gaza diserang

Hebat memang y orang Palestine

Hidupnya berharap, berarti..beneran menjadi hamba Allah yang baik..

Jadi sering merasa g punya arti hidup, dengan semua nikmat dunia ini Dan masih aja ngeluh

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I thought that the Palestinians are the one that we should feel sorry for, but in fact it is the opposite. They are the strongest human beings, the highest believer, the most persistent, and they are promised to enter jannah.

Meanwhile, I'm still doing all those bad things even though I can hug and embrace my children anytime I want.

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Day 28 of Gaza Genocide.

Despite all the things I've heard that Jewish people is smart. In reality, they are as stupid as everything that has no brain at all. More stupid than the starfish

I know it's not right to say that because after all they are Allah's creation, but I'm in the state that I don't want to be on the same level as them. They clearly are not human. They can't speak English, they are childish, they are spoiled, they can't function their brains to absorb good things.

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Sometimes some days I want to live a luxury life, by this, I mean having expensive staff, living in a suite hotel room. Wearing marimekko, Massimo dutti, buying stuff from muji, flying tiger.

But these days, this week, when my social media shows me about Palestinian, I realise that all those stupid needs are just hogwash. People are dying.

When I wash my baby, when the water runs through our fingers, I remember that people in Gaza don't have water access. Babies are crying, children get hurt. And i just can't afford that stupid "luxury" feeling anymore. It's just stupid feeling.

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3.11

Mencoba menikmati saat2 terakhir d atas kasur.

Menikmati enaknya kamar ini

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I keep constantly feeling this weariness.

It's hard to leave this house

We created many memories for the last 5 months

We shared it together, slept together, did everything as a quadruple

I know I won't be separated from them but I still don't feel ready.

Bismillah to all of us.