[wingsofbadass]

Do you ever wonder about how an author would describe you in a novel? Not only your appearance but the way you talk and laugh and hold yourself and all the expressions on your face?

[purplebuddhaproject]

If you cannot get rid of the family skeleton, you may as well make it dance.

George Bernard Shaw (via purplebuddhaproject)

[karlahaydeeabril]

Well, I made it. I’m in my new penthouse apartment in Mexico City with three other girls. I have goals for myself. I am healthy. I feel stable. I have learned a lot. I am learning a lot. And I’m being softer with myself. I’m being more of myself. 

I had my review with my boss today and to hear myself speak of myself the way I did-- and it be true. To feel a true accomplishment. It felt so great. And I don’t know what tomorrow brings, or the next day, but I know I’m going to be okay. 

I want to focus my life more and more on how I show up. On being vulnerable and trusting myself and continuing to say too much. 2020 has taught me that; do too much. 

--

And so I am here and it almost seems too easy: live your life with what’s important. What is most important?

Relationships. Meaningful relationships. Being a lover and loving deeply. Loving myself deeply. 

I don’t know the next time that I read or write here but I hope whenever that is, that I’ve maintained my inner peace above all. That I have been honest with myself and with my life. That I’ve kept a tender, warm heart that is open. That I keep faith in God and myself. 

And that I am a deeply passionate woman. That I never forget how sweetly I love.

[karlahaydeeabril]

i don't know what it is I'm feeling

disconnect. fear. insecurity. 

and loneliness. 

breathe, baby, breathe. 

[karlahaydeeabril]

i know what i want

I want to be in new york full time

i want a team i can commit to and support and be accountable to

i want a space for me to be challenged and grow into 

i want to feel myself be totally immersed by questions bigger than my own

i want to be under those city lights and to keep uncovering myself and building a wealth for myself, my family, and the projects i care for. 

that’s how I'm defining freedom next: the freedom to commit. to choose. the freedom to decide that this is the space where ill breathe. 

i want to support my family and my parents and i want to make them proud. i want people who inspire me to be right around me. and i want to be at thrive. 

[karlahaydeeabril]

thoughts

my thoughts are usually a compilation of swimming in a sea of possibility and then a hard crash back to insecurities. 

a wave expands and then crashes when it begins to feel insufficient. 

fear of what I've done wrong

fear of x running out 

fear of being ignored

and seeking these fears out. 

[thelovejournals]

I love the way she does  nothing and still takes over the entire room.

Rudy Francisco  (via wordsnquotes)

[karlahaydeeabril]

you will find me in the stars 

i will always be your heaven. 

ill chase you in the clouds. you can hide behind the sun. 

meet me there. ill wait. always.

[jessicahyde93-deactivated202201]

Ruby Sparks (2012) 

[xangeoudemonx]

[korzkit-deactivated20250404]

drugs r just feelins u pay for

[rebeckajpg]

[tamper]

[mitten]

? follow @devin.nyc on instagram ?

[apocalyptic-bliss]

You deserve someone who isn’t embarrassed to love you and tells all their friends about you and saves your selfies, whether they’re good or bad to look at when they miss you  and loses sleep to talk to you  and tells you how much they love and how beautiful you are all the time and i really hope you find that one day  because you deserve to be loved

[theperksofbeingaperk]

[olearypoetry]