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So I went outside today but just went for a drink, a coke. I made a to do list and went through some emails, paid one bill. At home, I cooked vegan meatballs with tomato sauce and I had a garlic baguette that I just had to prepare in the oven. Had some coke and peach ice tea. Sitting on the balcony. I am thinking about moving, actually have to move out by the end of November. Haven't found a new appartement or new tenant yet. And Im constantly tortured by my anxiety and OCD.

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So I decided to go outside today after isolating myself for quite some time. The bills are pilling up, the household is a mess, I don't have much food left and I'll have to buy groceries with money I don't have or ask my dad to buy me groceries. I don't feel safe enough in my own home to just focus on getting things done so I'll have to go outside. There's a cafe close to my appartment complex that sells vegan burgers so I'll go there and eat something. I have to look through all my bills and pay them somehow. I hate being poor. And I hate living with a traumatized body and mind. I don't feel safe enough to do nervous system regulation techniques and trauma release exercises. And I don't even have a support system. Life is really difficult for me right now.

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