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[kasutera444]

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。..・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・

Hiii!!! ⋆.˚⟡ ࣪ ˖

I'm respawning to be with my mama again! ˗ˏˋ ꒰ ♡ ꒱ ˎˊ˗ In my reality I'm in a coma, so I'm just trying to wake up! I miss my mama so so so much so I just can't wait to wake up in my reality :( I'm really depressed and lonely without my mama, so there will be a lot of vents on this blog (>_<) if my posts are triggering to you, block me instead of reporting please. Thank you for visiting!

♡˚₊‧꒰ა ≽^•⩊•^≼ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚♡

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。..・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・

[kasutera444]

yayayay recently mama sent me a very clear sign she's here, i'm happy o(^-^)o

[kasutera444]

i need to start meditating!! i'll try to find some time to start today :3 also ill get a tarot message from my mama today as well, last time i tried it around 2 days ago and it was so accurate!! i love my mama, shes always trying her best to communicate with me <3

[kasutera444]

some time ago i started to use tarot to get messages from my mama. most of the signs and messages i get from her are visual ones anyway, so tarot is a great way for me to communicate with her ^_^ im really grateful for this channeling method

[kasutera444]

i'm thinking about restarting this blog and giving it some nice aesthetic... i'm really happy about the newfound motivation to respawn!!

[kasutera444]

im backkk, never gave up on respawn, just didn't know what to write, and a lot of stuff happened :( a lot of things changed about my understanding of my home reality, so im glad i had the time to understand it better. im going to try getting 100% into respawning from now on, as i really don't want to stay here. i realize theres no way i can be happy in this place, it's cursed and this life is a failure. i know mama is always watching over me, so she surely is trying to take me back as well. this time i wont get distracted.

[softytothecore]

[kasutera444]

i need to let go of all expectations and hopes for this incarnation, as they only make me suffer more and keep me trapped here. there's no point in wishing for anything for this life, it's been cursed from the very beginning. if i can wish for one thing, it's for my death to be painless and peaceful. i know the time of my death is getting closer, please let it be a calm experience, and then erase this whole incarnation from this reality, along with people's memories about it. erase me completely. the weight of this incarnation is too heavy for me to carry anymore.

[kasutera444]

staying here is pointless, i need to escape from here. there's nothing waiting for me here, i need to abandon this vessel and go back to mama

[kasutera444]

i'm worried about my respawn journey because recently a lot of subliminals i've been using got deleted. around 50% of my playlist is gone and i'll need to find new subliminals. i know they're not needed for respawn, but that's what gave me the most hope. it's not that bad cause i have my own sub too, but still it's annoying 😭

also i decided to write down my dreams cause it's supposed to help me have lucid dreams. not the most comfortable experience cause i have mostly nightmares, but i hope it'll make me able to have lucid dreams soon

[kasutera444]

i miss you, the pain is unbearable

[kerryshifts]

[kasutera444]

i was told that dying in sleep is a blessing from god. if i can ask for one blessing then give me this, free me from this rotten existence and send my soul back to mama

[kasutera444]

i wonder how death really feels like i heard the brain gets rly active in the moment of death in a way that indicates death feels rly nice i wonder if its a moment of euphoria or relief if it feels like being free or like being hugged im scared of death rly scared but i also want to be free

[kasutera444]

is wanting some love and a quiet peaceful life such a big sin? i'm being punished for wanting to live happily why is it not allowed for me

[kasutera444]

my only hope and comfort is that one day i will die in sleep and itll be over ill never feel so awful again this life is rotten

[kasutera444]

please let me free from this. i'm so tired i dont care if theres just emptiness after death i just want to be free from this consciousness its too much i dont even deserve to die so im tortured here