3:29
so many debts
i can’t even pay back
so much stress
i can’t even lay back
lost n depressed
i can’t find my way back
but u were always right there
to keep me on my path
to get me back on track
ion even know how u would react
if u seen roaring 2020’s kat,
sat down, meeting 20 somethings kat
bottling my emotions, all them i hold in
then bodying a bottle of jack
u don’t know me like that
sippin quarters of bourbon
like they quarter waters or sumthin
cuz im stuck between the border
of being numb n just hurtin
i been searchin n searchin
for an apartment but when i bartend
the money’s uncertain
furthermore my next move
i had to get another job
right after i left two
bouncing back wasn’t hard
just the labor for checks do
really tend to make me pretend i
need this 9 to 5 life, i put my ambitions to the side.. why?
one of my debts
i can’t even pay back
i owe it to myself
to find my way back
w my ideas n creations
like the black excellence ball
im having invalid hesitations
i don’t want to rush n make it
yet i still can’t keep waiting
cuz the fear of failing
or the fear of succeeding
then failing to follow they expectations
at the same time, finding time
to operate it, gather the team that made it
having to be communicative
when i don’t even have the time
to window shop or stop n cop
for the vacation im taking
in my imagination
cuz i owe so many debts
im even distant w my friends
even w some of my family
im so far gone, like im in my own reality
could they all understand: its me?
or would they all just be mad at me?
emotionally in debt, w the people that make me who i am
how can pay it off,
i haven’t even been who i say i am.
i haven’t been who i was
n im fearful of who i’ll become
if i don’t find my path
n if i don’t stay on track
wake up kat.. wake up kat ‘