so i know it's already the next year for ppl already so amidst whatever shit 2018 has to dish out, i hope that all of y'all discover more interests that make u happy or get u thru the day, i hope u meet or re-meet ppl that make u happy whenever u just think of them, i hope things get fixed, i hope things heal, i hope u find new and better ways to cope with things and help yourselves, i hope u rise from shitty situations a stronger and more badass person (in whichever form that may be), i hope we continue to learn and grow, i hope u find more things to love about yourself since it can get so hard to see just how much good is in us bc of how much more we see the bad
and i know i haven't been on like at all but despite that i honestly hope for nothing but the best for all the chill and wonderful peeps that i've come to know since i made this blog, u guys are such swell ppl and i hope u guys are doing ok, i kinda pop in to my dash from time to time (and obvs get slightly shook when i see a new url ha) but bc of that i’m sorry that i don’t say enough all the good things i know about u guys bc i still overthink things too much and then distance myself bc i keep thinking it’s for the better and i’m sorry it took me til the new year to say just this alone
buuut since i don’t want to end this post on that less-than-positive note, i more importantly want to thank u guys for all the caps-lock-formatted, theory-filled, filled-to-the-brim-with-sunshine conversations and tidbits and messages and tags big and small that you’ve taken the time to share and i couldn’t be more grateful to see ur guys’ urls on my dash knowing that u guys are still here and pushing through the pain and the shit and the shitty pain in life
so i hope that whether you’re spending/spent new year’s eve on here or alone or w loved ones or not-so-loved ones, i really hope that in 2018 instead of hopes, all of these things can be realities too. i miss u guys and i really honestly hope u guys are, or will soon be, doing ok.
