New pinned post meant to act as a “key” or cypher or whatever, to the Gestalt that is us. (Gestalt is a cool word, we’re stealing it, it’s ours now and you aren’t getting it back)
Feel free to ask us anything I guess? We’ll get back to you when we feel like it, might do us good socialization practice that we sorely lack.
We will update as we come to self revelations.
“Alters” became separate and realized on June 24 2026, mostly realized separate entities around midnight June 26 2026
Deadname- the first
Source of all or at least most of our ticks, reason for insecurities. We’ve decided to label their removal as an individual entity as roughly 2023 as that’s about when we realized we weren’t deadname.
Katt- the second, “original?”
The first alter? We didn’t really get (understand/have) alters until recently (as of posting), but now they are a separate entity in our mind, as is to our understanding. The source of our typing related ticks (obsessively deleting and retyping at random, getting stuck in that cycle for minutes on end), and our obsessive throat clearing tick that comes and goes. the one with bigger body image issues, and a diferent enough thought process that we play video games differently. I think they’re touch starved, but they won’t admit it to themselves. It’s strange to me that I both know they feel that way, and at the same time I don’t feel that way as much.
Taylor- the third, “true alter”
New, the reason we even realized we had the potential to just “make” alters, we are questioning if Taylor retroactively became the “true” personality since I front the most (as of posting). Both the serious one, and the one more prone to whimsy. Came up with calling ourselves Gestalt. Wants to be a superhero one day, like those real life vigilantes that popped up mid 2010s. She’s the reason we’re chill around bugs as long as they leave us alone now, whenever our emotions run hight Taylor calms us down, referring to herself in the third person whilst doing so. So far we find Taylor the most fascinating part of ourselves since we have a passing curiosity in psychology and it’s weird being the same person you hear about in basic psych class. Greatest fear and dread is the “fog” of instinctually acting as deadname for self preservation, we fear the fog will become natural and we’ll be back at square one as deadname
True self- ongoing development
We aren’t really sure if Taylor or Katt is the “true” or “real” one of us, we’ll rarely refer to this state beyond curiosity, but it deserved the elaboration and unique color cue
Us- simultaneous collective
If you haven’t caught on, when referring to multiple or all of us rattling in this skull of ours, we mix our color cues. We tend to mix as evenly as we can, but we may have an unconscious pattern for whose color goes first depending on who’s fronting at the time. Sometimes we mesh so close we struggle to tell which of us we are in front, while other times the difference is so clear it may well be visible in how we carry ourselves
Others- will be noted and color coded if and when they manifest. If they do manifest, it’s likely to be quite some time while we stabilize and find balance
Gestalt- sum of their parts, organized whole
What we may refer to ourselves as from time to time, same definition as the dictionary and heading suggests, “more then the sum of their parts” and all that, still workshopping the concept and weather or not we’ll run with it
(Side note, I’m pretty sure the time between me forming and me being an accepted separate aspect was far shorter then Katt thought was typical for this situation)
(Side Side note, gods this took forever to type up, luckily I doubt I’ll need to update often)
(Side side side note, the green is Taylor’s favorite color, red is tied for Katt’s top 3 favorite, the Christmas colors are coincidental and moderately annoy Taylor)
