Time has taken much from us. In many ways I am little more than a shadow of who I was back when you knew me.
ever draw or write something and hurt your own feelings?
i have so many feelings about Sirius and Remus. i have for, at this point -- god -- over twenty years.
i imprinted on both of them like a baby duckling when i first read about them in Prisoner of Azkaban ~1999, and no ship of mine has been as enduring or as intense as wolfstar. my image of each of them became crystallized over the course of about five years, too, since i read the book long before the movie came out in 2004.
i somehow, until recently, completely missed the online popularity of wolfstar and the marauders fandom in general. i was just wandering out in the desert with my own headcanons from the livejournal days of the HP fandom. (in case you didn't already infer this, i am, how you say, old?)
it feels like a total revelation to discover just how many fanworks about this pair are out there. and i thought that this functionally a dead ship, snuffed out by the events of HBP and DH. so imagine my delight and surprise at finding fanworks made as recently as this month, this week, even, with active engagement on tumblr, tiktok, etc.!
i decided to start working on my own fanfic, something i had never really done before with much seriousness. maybe it will someday see the light of day under a pseudonym? it's sitting at 73k words exactly rn and isn't finished lol 💀
while i continue working on it, i am trying to stay away from reading other fanfic to avoid accidentally stealing from it (SO, i still haven't read ATYD, but... i will...!)
if there is an upside to my wandering alone in the desert all these years and not having read major fanon works, it's that you're getting a pure, undiluted and hopefully new/different/interesting interpretation of these guys from me.
anyway, thanks for reading all this! if you're part of this fandom, pls interact i want more friends to talk to about this haha
ETA: disclaimer -- hopefully it goes without saying but JKR is bigoted, transphobic trash now and there’s lots of really awful stuff in the HP books (fatphobia, internalized misogny, slavery apologism???, antisemitic racial coding of goblins, and much more i've forgotten to mention just off the top of my head), but these books and these two characters specifically meant and to an extent still mean a lot to me so… make of that what you will
you wake up in the middle of the night to see something new for the first time in awhile. you’re not sure yet, but you’re hoping it means good things to come.
(Thought I’d upload my recent comics to Tumblr! I totally forgot it only lets you upload 10 pics at a time, and this is 11, but fingers crossed it works!)
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