I can’t stop thinking about Feng Xin and Mu Qing actually being in an 800 year dysfunctional romantic relationship in the midst of Xie Lian’s return. Mu Qing picked a petty argument right before Xie Lian ascended and then-
Mu Qing thinks Xie Lian hates him, and then Feng Xin is all soft-eyed to Xie Lian, and he’s not really speaking to Feng Xin right now and he certainly isn’t going to apologize now… so he descends as Fu Yao with Nan Feng, he’s as bitchy as possible, he’s not really sure WHAT he’s doing but he wants to be there with them, he wants to make Feng Xin look bad in front of Xie Lian, he wants Feng Xin to look at him right! now!, he wants Feng Xin to get mad and fight with him, he wants Xie Lian to like him, he wants to see Xie Lian look bad in front of Feng Xin, he wants Xie Lian to be ok and not eat food off the floor, he wants Xie Lian to me mad at him, he wants Xie Lian to respect him. So he’s just going to talk brattily about General Nan Yang’s enormous masculinity and try to get a rise out of Feng Xin, while Feng Xin is just like so exasperated and perplexed and annoyed. What is going on??? His boyfriend is losing it while their old friend who has been lost for 800 years is returned and he wants to be careful but he also wants to hug but doesn’t know if Xie Lian hates them and - why is Mu Qing bringing that up now???
The more oMu Qing tries to dig himself out of this hole, erratically trying to avoid revealing his true feelings by acting like an asshole in case the others DO just hate him while simultaneously trying to figure out how they feel and maybe if they might like him, oh and now his boyfriend (ex?) has a wife and child, that he apparently murdered, and now he’s trying to prove his innocence, while yelling at Feng Xin, and fuck does he actually believe I did it -
Meanwhile Feng Xin is sort of on the sidelines, confusedly watching Mu Qing spiral further and further into this war he is having with himself inside in his own little toxic head world where everyone hates him. Feng Xin’s confused and annoyed and disgruntled as he is trying to NOT fight with Mu Qing in front of Dianxia but finally he makes him SO mad he can’t help it, and now he’s in detention - and why is Mu Qing doing this?!?! Babe, you remember that we were spending most of our nights together and going on missions together until you were yelling about me not plqcing my armour neatly when i come over for the night - but really if THAT’S what this is about I am NOT apologizing - oh, the woman I loved 800 years ago had a child by me she never told me about that was brutally taken from her womb as a fetus which turned them both into resentful ghosts?? And Mu Qing is STILL ignoring me? Wait, she’s accusing Mu Qing of doing it?!?!?!
When they’re on Mount Tong'Lu and Mu Qing yells at Feng Xin about him “abandoning the boss for the wife and child” it’s just the sort of nonsensical barb that a lover (ex?) would say when they feel insecure and jealous and spiteful and why won’t you look at me like you used to and HOW DARE YOU NOT LOOK AT ME LIKE YOU USED TO and he’s jealous, he’s jealous of Jian Lan, he’s jealous of Jian Lan FOR Xie Lian somehow and now he’s YELLING and he won’t stop because if he stops feeling angry he’ll have to think about how they’ve probably broken up at some point these last few weeks and be sad that he really wishes Feng Xin would look at him like he used to.
Until finally Mu Qing loses all semblance of his cool and Feng Xin sees his terror of rejection unfurled and waving in the breeze and is like ohhh. And then Mu Qing is leaping into a river of lava followed by Dianxia and he’s like, bitch, WHAT- Then Mu Qing is finally telling Dianxia how he feels … Feng Xin rolling his eyes like it took my boyfriend 800 years to grow the fuck up. And then three of them are running together and Mu Qing says something about it being the first time in a long time they’d done this together and Feng Xin is like Ugggh what about how we’ve been doing this together for the last several centuries!!!
After returning home from the volcano, when Xie Lian held Hua Cheng till he combusted into thousands of silver butterflies, and his two friends tried to comfort him but failed, they ending up accompanying him to the peak where their old cultivation sect used to train, where he insists on staying until Crimson Rain returns, Mu Qing tries to excuse himself from Feng Xin to walk his own way to his palace, steeling himself for a long life of solitude, but Feng Xin keeps walking steadily behind him. Until Mu Qing whips around, demanding what he thinks he’s doing. Feng Xin keeps walking steadily towards him, “I’m coming over.” Mu Qing looks perplexed. “But - you forgive me?” “I will when you apologize.” “You’re not mad!?” “I am. But … I want to cuddle.” “But what about your wife? And son?” Feng Xin sighs and shakes his head. “Do you want me to go?” All his life Feng Xin kept trying to help, he wanted to be of service, but his help kept making it worse for Dianxia, for Jian Lan, and they didn’t want his help, but Mu Qing - this man needs SO much help. He wants it too. Mu Qing turns away and mutters “no” taking his hand, and leads the way home.
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