Once Upon A Time I Was Good At This.

Thirty Something BI/Queer🏳️‍🌈 Books, caffeine, And photos but Really, just fandom things.

[heymacy]

#all men do is lie finally tell the truth

[emziess]

I don't know that side of you. // I need you. Heated Rivalry

[keils224]

Its an addiction at this point.

I have just finished rewatching episodes 1-4 again.

I will say the camera work, the direction and lights and music for episode for were beyond.

The start of them playing hockey and flashing to them together. That mash up was genius.

As hard as it to say, the ending was magical. The camera cuts, the lights and music. I felt the pain from both of them.

I am so excited and nervous for the finale two but so happy we are getting a season 2!

[thatonekimgirl]

The moment Ilya fell hard for Shane, per Rachel Reid.

[whichcouldmeanothing]

He realized, suddenly, as if waking from a dream, that he was standing alone in the middle of a dance floor…not dancing. Just…staring. At Ilya. — Heated Rivalry, Chapter 14

[ilyrozanov]

just to clarify, ilya rozanov doesn't care at all that shane hollander is dating rose landry.

[hudsonswilliams]

scotty doesn't know.mp3

[sobadbad]

HEATED RIVALRY 1.02

[keils224]

Heated Rivalry

I am stuck.

A book. An m/m romance book became a tv show.

A steamy m/m book.

[keils224]

Rewatching

I am just rewatching greys anatomy and I am retramatizing myself.

Season 1: fresh and new. Beautiful people and interesting medical drama

Season 2: some of the best storylines. Characters development and people slowly find favorites. Denny’s storyline is both good and bad.

Season 3: pain. A lot of hurt but still interesting thoughts on how far you will go.

Season 4: I hate this season. The Izzy and George story line. Making them just not care. It’s a slowly season that feels off. Some pretty good episodes.

Season 5: one of the hardest seasons finally. One of the most decent seasons since season 3. I become more annoyed with the chief and my dislike of him. I adore Mark and Lexie. I actually like Alex and Izzie. This is the season Hunt is introduced and I forgot how I liked him in the start. Also, Arizona!!! I like Christina’s growth a lot in this season!

Season 6: currently on, it feels weird not having George but honestly from season 3, his character felt lost and not really appointed. Alex’s growth from season three is always impressive. So, Meredith is good.

Again just started this season, but there is a lot I like and don’t. I remember watching this back in the start and things I liked, I don’t. I want to stop but I am not.

I will finish season 6 probably today or tomorrow.

[keils224]

9-1-1: Lone star

I watched all of season 5 in two days. I have so many issues and I don’t want to hurt anyone or upset them but here it goes, I hated season 5 so much!

Let’s break it down:

1) Grace and Judd.

There is no reason Grace would leave her daughter as well as not being there for Tommy. She would have been there for Wyatt.

Also, she would never would have left Judd like that. I will say she would have probably before Charlie was born.

2) Judd’s drinking doesn’t make sense. He would never do that in a chance to let Grace down as well as his kids.

The way to make these make sense, if they skipped into the future or if Grace died. As much as I don’t want that to happen but those make the most sense.

3) T.K. and Carlos.

What the actual fuck?!!? I get some distance but after a year no. They were both so happy and excited. I felt like they worked so hard to keep them apart.

I also, think the chemistry was very much off. It felt like there wasn’t a lot of connection.

4) I love that they got Jonah but I felt like it didn’t actually make their relationship problems go away. I also think that it pressured Carlos into having kids. I wish for more layout.

5) Tommy. Why? I mean, honestly, Why?

I could keep going but I am done. I felt the overall, stories were rushed. I felt there wasn’t heart or connection this season.

I know there is a lot of little good things and they were nice but I didnt like it. I really wished it ended on season 4. It left so much open but really completed.

I am happy it ended happily for everyone. But I really wished there was more development in the overall stories and characters arcs.

Thank you.

[keils224]

Sometimes, I think of fanfic ideas and I laugh because in my head sounded funny.

However, the process of writing is anxiety inducing. I kiss when I could write. I honestly, miss 2010 me. She would write stories and then create icons.

I will say, I am grateful for fanfic writers and people who create art, you are helping me.

Thanks.

[keils224]

Hmm

Sometimes, I think that in the writers room of season 11 was not as serious as it should have been. Like they had a ton of different ideas on a board and then they would throw darts and where ever they landed that was the overall theme of season

They really like “ya know what would be funny..”

Also, this scene cracks me up so much!

[keils224]

Hyper fixation

My hyper fixation is fucking strong right now. I don’t know why but I am reading “Gallavich” fics.

I am also just randomly watching YouTube videos. I think because I missed out when the show was airing and now I get to enjoy it is super fun.

I do wish I had more people to talk about it with. But oh well, I loving fix-it or reunion fics. I also love post series ones.

That’s all. I just needed to share it.

[keils224]

Random thought

I was watching a Shameless clip on my fyp on TikTok and it just hit me, when Monica and Frank are telling Fiona that they’re renewing their vows and Monica goes “I texted Ian.”

He is with Mickey. Holy shit. Why didn’t that ever connect?

[keils224]

Shameless

I rewatched and finished shameless last week. I was trying to show my mom and she had some thoughts and they weren’t good.

We got to episode 6 of season 1. I finished it without her.

Fuck. I love that show and Ian and Mickey.

It was so nice to go to the start and then see how far everyone came.

1-3 seasons Debbie are good then she goes to shit.

Fi and lip are a mixed bag of emotions for me. I see them and I feel but I hate a lot of what they do.

But also, Ian was going through so much and so was Mickey but they find solace in each other until so much negativity got to them.

I do enjoy the show so much. It is one of my favorites.

[keils224]

Season 5

As we know season will leave big changes in the show.

The fact that Grace(Sierra) won’t be there. It hurts but makes me nervous about the changes. I wonder if they are going to skip ahead a year or two?

They could after the train derailment. The fact it has been over a year since season 4.

I am nervous about Tarlos. I have a fear that Carlos(Rafael) is leaving the show after this year.

I am hoping I am over analyzing and over thinking but at the same time, tv show writers have been known to make a fan favorite couple end.

The rumors that this could be the last season, I just hope Tarlos ends up together and happy.

I hope everyone else gets a good closer of their stories.

The biggest reason, I have thought about this is the fact that posting has been different. I will also say the fact that the og of 911 is getting a resurgence of fans and like a breathe of fresh air.

Let’s see how it goes. I have been rewatching Lone Star and it still is fantastic and I love all the characters. I don’t want it to end but if it does, can it have a good one.