Mad as a Hatter

Kellin. 19. DJ. Party Animal. Before you come to me and say 'It's okay' and 'you're worth something' remember that I spent a good part of 12 years trying to save my brother from things I couldn't control and he still thinks I'm shit. I spent years trying to save people in general only for it to amount to nothing. So no, I'm not worth much. But I'll be your friend anyway.

[giggly-christian]

Christian had always been curious about the Haunted Mansion;he loved the ride, no matter how scary it was. And it was a mansion which meant that animatronic or not, there could still be beds and chairs there for everyone to sleep in. When he heard the howl however, he began to walk away. Even though a howl could mean a new discovery, Christian knew that Dave was moving his legs away from the ride for a reason. When he spotted Kellin, the teen immediately broke into a run and tackle-hugged his cousin. “Kells!” He said, excitement on his face.

[kellin-madasahatter]

Kellin hugged him back briefly, his eyes still locked on the house. He was happy to see him all the same, back to normal and no longer intent upon converting him, but also partially concerned by the things Christian had said while posessed by the beast. He shook the thought away and pulled out of the hug, "That place gives me a horrible feeling."

[randallmichaels-blog]

Mila was walking along, trying to figure out where she could find some food in this park.  Christian had told her that there was some candy in some of the shops, but she wasn’t in the mood to live completely off of candy.  She hadn’t looked up from the ground, so she hadn’t noticed the large mansion in front of her.  That is, until she heard Kellin’s voice and her head snapped up.  ”What the…”

[kellin-madasahatter]

"So it's not just me?" He questioned, moving around her to see the building clearer, "That wasn't there before..."

[mariabong]

Having a distance between the two, Maria rubbed her arm as she turned her head, hearing the howl. There, she took in sight of the mansion, a place that she hasn’t seen before. “Maybe?” She pauses. “Honestly, I’m not sure. With us being gone for some time, I can’t really remember what’s suppose to be here and what’s not.”

[kellin-madasahatter]

"Yeah but..." Kellin moved closer to her, running his fingers through his hair and attempting to ignore the chills that ran up and down his spine as another howl broke through the air, "Something like that you'd notice."

[kellin-madasahatter]

Kellin wandered from where the curse dropped them towards one of the shops. As he takes the first couple steps, he hears a distant howl and turns in the direction of the noise. The Haunted Mansion looms off in the distance and he steps back down, staring at it, "Has that always been there...?"

[youcantrustme-ormaybenot]

Come Back To Me || Kellin & Andrew

[youcantrustme-ormaybenot]

‘There, he admitted it himself.’ the wolf-like beast said in Andrew’s mind. ‘He’s selfish. He doesn’t deserve you.’ But Andrew hadn’t heard that part. He had heard what Kellin had said about Neverland, and as soon as the words left the older boy’s lips, Andrew’s mind immediately flicked back to the conversation that they had had in Neverland. Back in Neverland Kellin had said that once he had Andrew, he wasn’t going to give him up. Ever. He hadn’t pushed Andrew away when they had kissed. And their time together on the Jolly Roger was amazing, and the reason it had been amazing to Andrew was because he knew that he really loved Kellin, and that Kellin loved him just as much. Although the yellow was still there, once again it flickered, as if suddenly, he started to see what Kellin was saying was the truth. Although he knew that it was the truth, the beast within him wasn’t about to let Kellin know that. But Kellin’s words were weakening him, and the real Andrew, the true kind person that loved Kellin more than anything else in the world was starting to come back. “I…” Andrew said, his voice losing a bit of its malevolence. It was hard, very hard to speak when he was fighting against himself. All of his anger, all of his aggression, all of his fear…they were fighting to suppress him. “I-It h-hurts.” He managed to choke out, although the beast was still mostly in control. “I-I’m scared.”

[kellin-madasahatter]

That was Andrew's voice. It was strained, and not mention his eyes seemed to be flickering back and forth. That mean he as fighting harder. That Kellin's words really were having an effect. The Beast in Kellin had long since subsided, he was no match for the boy who was already in control and his emotions were running on high. He could focus his entire attention on helping Andrew break down that last wall that had been erected between them. "Don't be." Kellin said quickly. He took hold of Andrew's hands, not bothered by the claws or what the beast Andrew might do to his hands when he touched him. Kellin held them anyway, "Don't be scared. This is just a stupid curse, curses can be broken. I said it Neverland, I'm never letting you go, got it? This guy's just a big bully. Remember your first day of high school? And how I did everything in my power to get back at the idiots that tried to hurt you? This beast is just another bully. And I'll do everything in my power to help you fight him away. Even if I have to succumb to the curse myself and fight him, I'll do it. I love you, and I'd do anything for you."

[youcantrustme-ormaybenot]

Come Back To Me || Kellin & Andrew

[youcantrustme-ormaybenot]

Beast-Andrew briefly smiled as he caught the flash of yellow in Kellin’s eyes. If only he could bring that out; if only he could intensify that anger. However, something stopped him. Kellin spoke again and this time, the beast inside couldn’t help but mentally vomit. Love. Some said it was the most powerful feeling; others thought that it could even beat evil. But Andrew…well Andrew had a great amount of love for Kellin. Which was why the beast within knew that he would have to act fast. Quickly, he began to replay the argument from the other night over and over in Andrew’s mind. ‘He wasn’t there for you,’ the beast mentally snickered, ‘he may say that he’s sorry, but he knew how scared you were and yet he walked away in a fit of anger. But Reilly and I…we took away that fear. All he wants to do is to build you up so he can break you down again.’ However, the Kellin’s words still rung true in Andrew’s mind. Kellin did love him; even if they fought, they still made up. Kellin had said that he loved him (and it wasn’t the hypnosis talking, even if the hypnosis had helped the words break through) and soon enough…the yellow in Andrew’s eyes flickered.

[kellin-madasahatter]

There it was again. That flash. He could scarcely imagine the mental war that was going on inside Andrew's head as Kellin's words met his ears. But in all of it, it seemed he was having something of an effect on him. But not enough yet to break him out of the curse entirely. He meant every word of what he said, but they weren't words he was used to saying often. It went against his nature to be so open, and it made his stomach lurch just thinking about having to express himself like that, but he was more than willing if it meant saving Andrew. He blew out a breath, "The fact that you had to hypnotize me to make me honest just makes me a horrible person who really, really doesn't deserve you. I'm the most selfish person in the world to hold on to you and keep you away from someone who probably deserves you more than me." He ran his fingers through his hair, trying to form words, "But, I meant exactly what I said in Neverland. I don't care what happens, there's no way in hell, heaven, or anywhere in between I'm going to let what we have break. You mean to much to me for that."

[youcantrustme-ormaybenot]

Come Back To Me || Kellin & Andrew

[youcantrustme-ormaybenot]

As soon as the words hit Andrew’s ears, his eyes faded from yellow back to their chocolate brown color. “K-Kellin?” He choked out, his voice trembling, but no longer holding the malicious tone that it had previously possessed. Kellin cared about him. Kellin wasn’t going to break up with him. Mentally, he let out a sigh of relief. However, his eyes then returned back to the wolfish yellow and the beast residing within Andrew smirked. “You’re going to have to do better than that to get rid of me.”

[kellin-madasahatter]

Andrew came back. For the briefest of moments. Those deep brown eyes appeared, full of sorrow and pain. And fear. So much fear. Kellin reached out to him instinctively, wanting to yank him towards him and keep him away from the beast that was supressing him, "Andre--" He was cut off when the yellow eyes of the beast returned and he retracted his arms, not wanting to be caught by his claws. Kellin's own anger was building up inside of him as he realized just how much this thing was scaring Andrew. It was forcing the beast in him to claw his way to the surface. And for a brief moment, his own eyes flashed, but as he had all this time he fought it back. Suddenly, he knew what he had to do. Emily came back because Kellin teased her to death, Evangeline came back because he used the right words to tap into her compassionate side. And to get Andrew? He had to target the part of him that was strong enough to beat this beast. And as much as didn't want to admit to it, and as classicaly Disney cheesy it sounded, the strong part of Andrew was the love he had for Kellin. He swallowed hard, "You're easy to beat. Because...Andrew loves me." He laughed a little as the words left his mouth, "And no matter how scared he is or upset he is he'd take down anything that would get in between us. Especially if he knows that I love him too. More than anything in my life. And he does know that, you do know that, Andrew."

[youcantrustme-ormaybenot]

Come Back To Me || Kellin & Andrew

[youcantrustme-ormaybenot]

Beast-Andrew simply shrugged off Kellin’s comment. There was no way in hell the real Andrew was coming back. Not while the curse was in place. “I am Andrew.” He stated simply. “A new and improved Andrew, actually.” A smirk lighting up his lips, he revealed the sharp fangs inside of his mouth. “A more fearless version of the man I once was.” The real Andrew flinched as the next words left his lips, although the beast within him chuckled, “You could be like that too, if you just let it happen.”

[kellin-madasahatter]

Kellin scoffed at the 'improved' part of his statement. He took a step back, words leaving him entirely for a moment. He was drained and tired from the world hopping, exhausted from the party, hurt by the hypnotism and scared for Evangeline's life. But he also wanted his boyfriend back, "This probably won't work, but I'll say it anyway. The only reason you got into control was because I wasn't there for Andrew...I was to pissed at him for the hypnotism. I felt like I couldn't trust him, and then I left him alone and scared and subject to Reilly. And I feel horrible about that...I fucked up, this is my fault. But I want the real Andrew to know that I'm sorry, and that I trust him and I won't leave his side again." He crossed his arms over his chest, "And as a side not, you're not an improvement on anything."

[youcantrustme-ormaybenot]

Come Back To Me || Kellin & Andrew

[youcantrustme-ormaybenot]

“I don’t know what you’re talking about.” Came the beast-Andrew’s reply. With every passing second, hell with every passing milisecond, Andrew was growing more terrified. And he knew that there was no way that Bert could take over for long. Not with this curse in place. “I’m still Andrew. Just a…stronger version.” And whether Kellin knew it or not, the statement was true. It still was Andrew; however this Andrew possessed all of Andrew’s negative qualities, rather than his positive ones. So it was simply as if Kellin was meeting Mr. Hyde instead of Dr. Jekyll.

[kellin-madasahatter]

Kellin had heard this line before from so many in the castle. And they could chose to believe they were still who they claimed to be, but he wasn't buying it. As far as he was concerned, he'd met a different woman who was in Evangeline's body. A different woman in Emily's. And now someone else in Andrew, "You're not Andrew. You look like him, you sound like him, but you're not him." What else could he say to him other than that? This wasn't Andrew. It simply was not. No matter how he looked at him, this menacing creature wasn't the Andrew he cared about. But at the same time, he was at a loss for how to get the real Andrew back and make this creature fade away.

[youcantrustme-ormaybenot]

Come Back To Me || Kellin & Andrew

[youcantrustme-ormaybenot]

If it had been any other circumstance, no matter the person, and no matter who had run into who, Andrew would have immediately apologized. But instead, he let a snarl pass his lips and in a dangerously low voice said, “Watch where you’re going.” He didn’t bother to look up to see who it was that he had run into, but yet he didn’t have to. He would have known Kellin anywhere. Even just bumping into him automatically made Andrew recognize the older boy. Although the real Andrew, the one who loved Kellin more than anything wanted to apologize for not only bumping into him, but for getting into the argument with Kellin the previous night and for hypnotizing him back in Andy’s room, the beast within would not allow it. Not after he had gotten so far.

[kellin-madasahatter]

That was not Andrew's. However much it may have sounded like him, the words that came out did not belong to him. They were of a different being all together, and it pained Kellin to realize that. His mind automatically went to Reilly. He must have somehow convinced him, lied to him and told him it was okay, because Andrew was just so trusting of people sometimes and he likely would have believed anything to just not be scared of everything going on around him. It made Kellin feel worse that he hadn't been there for him. It was a moment before he looked Andrew in the eye and flexed his hands, trying his best to keep the claws from growing further, "Give me back, Andrew. Whatever you are, give him back." He spoke to the thing that was not his boyfriend. It had Andrew's face and physique, but wasn't him. And he'd somehow managed to talk Emily and Evangeline out of the state, so perhaps he could reach Andrew too.

[amazingprincephil]

We cannot stand and do nothing. We have to fight! I will not let us turn into these…beasts. There has to be something we can do.

[kellin-madasahatter]

No one's figured anything out yet. But everyone's also losing their minds and hurting each other and acting like it's all fine.

[thehecatedaughter666]

[youcantrustme-ormaybenot]

Come Back To Me || Kellin & Andrew

Fighting. That was all Andrew had done ever since the curse had hit. First, he had fought against it; but he realized that it would just be easier to give in. Then he had fought against Reilly for the deer. And now…well now his human half, the half of the true Andrew Adonis, the half that didn’t have the overwhelming urge to rip, to tear, claw, to kill, was fighting for control. How could he not after what he had just seen in the mirror. He now knew why most inhuman creatures hated their reflections; it showed them what they had become and more importantly, what they had given up to become that way. And the real Andrew had realized that he did not want to lose what little humanity he still possessed. Clutching the jacket tightly to his chest,(as he had removed it immediately after the curse had hit to avoid ripping it) he continued to walk down the corridor of the castle.

[kellin-madasahatter]

After a lot of talking and bandages, Evangeline had finally fallen asleep. The cabinet that had brought bandages and blankets hobbled out of the room and re-positioned itself hallway, leaving Kellin sitting on the edge of the bed with nothing to do but hold the girl's hand. Her grip on him loosened every now and then the deeper a sleep she fell into, and then finally she let go all together and she snored lightly. Kellin stood from the bed, kicking himself in the back of his head for not having been more effective in getting the Beast to talk Reilly out of turning people crazy. If he had, Evangeline wouldn't be in the state she was in. Who else had he hurt? Had he gotten Andrew. The thought of that terrified him for a minute and suddenly he felt so horrible for being distacted by anyone else to not remember the one most important thing to him. Their last conversation had been at the party and they weren't on the most stable or friendly terms, but he didn't want anything to happen to him. He stood up from the bed and left the room, closing the door quietly behind him and hoping Eva wouldn't wake up before he returned. No sooner had he turned down the hall to find Andrew did he crash into him.

[colorfulxpascal-blog]

Wolf-me?  God, I hate this curse.  *she laughed lightly*  I’m exhausting?  Look who’s talking!  But thanks for bringing me back, Kel.

[kellin-madasahatter]

I'd say anytime, but please don't ever become a wolf again. And yeah, you're exhausting.

[giggly-christian]

You didn’t tell me that you watched Felix get beaten by your parents. I had to hear that from Randy. 

[kellin-madasahatter]

And of course you heart i wrong from him. What the hell does Randall know? I heard it happen, I was always locked in a closet or a bedroom when it happened. But moreover, why would I put that on you, Chris?

[charmingxevangeline-deactivated]

"Please don’t hurt him" she begged, starting to cry again, "h-he didn’t know a-and he has Courtney a-and he needs her and please" she gulped, knowing that she’d do anything to protect him. "Please just… Just let him be" she coughed out, her throat hurting more and more by the moment

[kellin-madasahatter]

"Reilly's the asshole who's been urging everyone to turn into monsters. He could have stopped himself." Kellin said, his tone wrought with frustration. But at the way she responded and the amount of pain it caused her, he stopped, "Stop, Eva. You're making it worse."

[colorfulxpascal-blog]

*she looks up*  Kellin?  W-Why was I about to hit you?

[kellin-madasahatter]

Because wolf-you is a bitch. [ He let go of her wrist and gently pushed her back a few steps so he wasn't pinned against the wall anymore ] You're exhausting, but I'd take you over her any day.