˗ˏˋ HIATUS ˎˊ˗
hello. 👋🏻 i’m taking a break from tumblr. i believe it’s long overdue. i never cared what some loser online says about me, but a lot of serious claims and accusations sprouted from silly, petty, fandom/shipping discourse. it scary how easily people can lie, just because they were mad enough and they felt like it. even though those specific people took accountability for the things they did, i’ve never experienced anything to this grand of a scale before and it is difficult to deal with because i’m still a human being.
what bothers me the most is that people found my discomfort and struggle more entertaining than the actual things i was creating. it feels like any time i would post about my self ship, i would get little to no attention at all or receive some oddly specific and personal hate comment. but whenever there is a hint of drama, then everybody is all over it.
i created this blog to fangirl about armin and get back into creative writing, 4 years ago. i went from writing x reader fanfics to being a devoted self-shipper and playing out our life through ts4. i discovered that self shipping isn’t only a silly relationship between you and a fictional character, it helped me realize that i am actually in control of everything, that i am someone worthy of love and respect even if i am “damaged.” having a “my f/o wouldn’t treat me this way,” approach towards not just romantic relationships but familial and platonic ones as well opened my eyes to how awful the people around me have truly been and has shown me what i truly want and desire in my relationships. it’s self love, not cringe. i will love armin forever, no matter what, period.
i can’t say how long this hiatus will be, or if i’m coming back at all. moving forward, i hope that those two people seriously get all the help that they require, so that we all can just move on and go our separate ways. for the handful of friends i made with a sense of humanity and morals, thank you and i wish you guys all the best. 🖤