11/28
It has taken me a while to be able to talk about the election, mostly because I have been cycling sporadically through the five stages of grief for a while. But this week, as we were assigned this article about the Bernie Sanders grassroots movement, I had a reason to think back to a year ago, when the primaries were on everyoneâs mind.Â
First, I remembered the first hints of Bernie Sanders running. I saw a lone post on my tumblr dashboard, thinking that the possibility of Sanders getting large traction was a pipe dream. And then he did.
I was really energized for Bernie Sanders, like a lot of people in Berkeley, but I was complacent. I bought a shirt and voted, and that was that. But his campaign was specifically working against that. The article mentioned above reads, â... weâve also added this other element, which is actually turning all of these people who are enthusiastic about Bernie and not just give them the chance to give donations but the chance to do some of the election work.âÂ
So when Hillary won the primary election, it was no surprise that I was not excited about contributing to her campaign. If I was not going to actively participate for Bernie, a candidate I was excited for, and more importantly, a campaign that was actively encouraging participation, then there was no reason I would work hard for someone I was voting for out of lack of viable choice. My greatest acts for Hillary were donating 1 dollar, voting for her, and reading emails from her campaign. But this was perhaps what I regret most, looking back on this time.Â
It is easy to circle around in âwhat ifsâ. I wonder what if I had done more, what if each of her supporters had done more, what if every Hillary supporter in Berkeley had participated in a phone bank? Would that have been the tipping point for her? Could she have won?
Soon, I realized these question were not useful. They would never have clear answers, and the answers themselves were simply tools for passing along the blame. Instead, I have hoped to dedicate myself even moreso to public service, and I have realized that simply studying public policy related issues was no longer enough. I need to do as much as I can, not only for the success of what I believe in, but to address this innate fear of complacency I have now.Â
Because of the way that Saturday Night Live can often be unexpectedly profound, I feel that the best way to express my feelings on this election are from Kate McKinnonâs cold open following the election.
âIâm not giving up, and neither should you.â  Â
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