Things I wanted to say but never did

KEN | 26 | MNL x BCD I hate the stars because I look at the same ones you do, without you.

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Before I fall in love again 1. I want us to be friends. Which means, I want to be able to eat my favourite cheese crust pizza with you, while having cheese all over my face and even in my hair, without feeling embarrassed or concerned about it. I want to be comfortable with you, I want to be okay about being messy, irritating, embarrassing, disgusting, petty while with you. Because I will be petty when I see my ex best friend post a happy picture and I will be messy during my finals and I will be embarrassing when I meet your parents for I suck at meeting parents. I want to be okay with being the way I am and the only way to be okay is to know that you’re okay with me being things other than beautiful, graceful and composed at all times. 2. I want to be able to have long and passionate conversations with you not just about existential things but also about what went wrong in the ending of that book and how kids are affected by media and how tomato basil combination always works. I want to have conversations where we may not always have the same views but our fundamental values always fall in place. I want to talk to you about the beauty of the stars but I also want to talk to you about the disgusting mentality behind certain societal norms. 3. I want to see how consistent your actions are with your words. I don’t want to fall for love letters or poems, for sweet Instagram captions or long birthday texts, I want to fall in love with you showing up on time and keeping your promises. 4. I want to take it slow. I want our story to work out in years, not months. I want to respect time and space this time. 5. I want to make sure I am not seeking love from you for the lack of love I have for myself. I want to make sure you aren’t a void I am filling in, you are not an alternative to the things I can’t give myself. I want to make sure you are not doing the same. 6. I want to work out with my insecurities and fears from the past. I don’t want to project them on you, I don’t want to subject you to the doubts, suspicion and anger I carry from the people I have known in the past. 7. Before I fall in love again, I want to make a mattress with you. Of understanding and respect and trust. So when we fall, it doesn’t hurt.

creatingnikki  (via shareaquote)

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I consider myself to be one of those with the biggest heart so if you’ve driven me to the point of not caring, just know that you’ve really messed up.

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First Look at Sense8 Finale Special

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This time, his heart is ready.

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When you give importance to people, they think that you are always free. But they don’t understand that you make yourself available for them every time. (at Sunken Cementery Camiguin Island)

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Chasing waterfalls v4. While the rest of the world follow the rules, I follow my heart. (at Katibawasan Falls, Camiguin Island)

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To the world, you are my mother but to me, you are the world. (at Tegenungan Waterfall)

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When you stop struggling, you float. (at Kudesa Homestay)

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Take me anywhere. (at Kudesa Homestay)

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When you work on becoming the better version of yourself, everything around you becomes better as well. (at Kudesa Homestay)

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Trust the universe, but most importantly, trust yourself. (at Bali Swing)

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Ilang linggo nlg matatapos na yung 2017. Life, penge naman isang malupet na plot twist jan o.

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Maybe that's all we'll ever be - two almost perpendicular lines that never met at the right angle.

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It is when you’re already on the ground when life will continue to knock you out. It will beat the hell out of you until you feel small of yourself. You’ll be shaking, and sweating, and spitting blood and it will just take delight on your agony.

When all you can do is beg; gather yourself, stand and continue taking punches for the things that you love.

It may hurt for now, but sooner or later all those pains will be worth it.

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Lets talk about how hard it is to open up to someone about being sad for no reason. Lets talk about how hard it is to explain to your friends and family that you have this heavy feeling in your chest for no reason. Lets talk about how hard it is to understand why you’re having a panic attack while just taking a walk back home. Lets talk about how hard it is to understand your own self and how scary it is to feel like the whole world is falling on your shoulders and you have no idea why .

[kenneth101]

Is it unacceptable to ask for what you deserve? Is it wrong to know your right and stand up for it? God, please give me the wisdom to understand why people act the way they do. Please give me enough patience to wait. Please spare my heart from hatred and bitterness. Please help me to forget.