heartbreak prince

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15, 17, 28, 35, 60 + ster

15. does your oc prefer a wide circle of friends or a few close ones?

this is an interesting question because ster loves meeting new people and hanging out with them, but she doesn’t necessarily consider every single person her friend. that’s actually something very smart because she knows not everyone will show the same level of care and consideration that she gives when she likes someone. she’s very careful about who she can lean on. honestly, that’s a skill she mastered during her trainee days and while being in nova, because there were a lot of girls there, and she could sense that not everyone was genuine in their dynamics. so, to answer your question, i would say she prefers a circle of friends she can trust and feel a true connection with. it doesn’t matter if it’s only three people or ten, she likes to be surrounded by those she feels comfortable with, because she is very passionate and loyal in her friendships, and she just hopes her friends feel the same way about her.

17. where was your oc born? do they still live there? how do they feel about their birthplace?

ster was born in seoul and has lived there since birth. sometimes she would go to australia to spend summer or winter breaks with the other side of her family, which i will explain later in another question about her family dynamic. she likes both places, she does enjoy seoul more but she felt weird for a while, probably during childhood, because some idiot korean kids would say she wasn’t korean enough because her mother was chinese and stuff like that. so, for a time, she felt awkward about her chinese side, since her mom is chinese. once, she went there for vacation with them, but she isn’t in touch enough with her roots; it feels as foreign to her as any other place. she probably started to embrace her chinese side when she entered the company. she decided to join the korean-english classes that the company provided for the chinese trainees, and she became more fluent in chinese and also made friends with other trainees. that’s probably how she met geovany and grew closer to mei.

28. what are your oc’s general life goals or dreams?

ster’s dreams came later than you can imagine. i mean, she did become a trainee and debut as part of a girl group, but that was never her goal. she only went for it because her best friend did, and she thought it would be super cool if those times when they played around pretending to be glamorous and cool like kyungri and xiulin actually came true. but to her, at that time, it just felt like a silly dream you have as a kid. she wasn’t even an influencer before becoming an idol because she never thought she’d enjoy being a public figure but she did. after debuting, she kind of started making notebook notes about her future plans (with cute stickers and everything). at the top of her list is working hard on her skills for nova’s projects, which i believe is more because she saw that a lot of the members live and breathe for their dreams, so she feels she should take this job more seriously for them (again, she’s that type of friend). another important goal for her is making herself more remarkable in the fashion industry and getting brand deals, she loves this part of her idol job, for real. sometimes i think about making a jewelry collection for her, just like i did nontitle.ml for mingyu, because i truly believe she has the ability and interest to do something like that. in her free time, she goes to arts and crafts studios to make bracelets and necklaces, she even made some for the fans and gave them away at fansigns.

another dream that’s very important to ster is her future podcast with devi, which i believe she’s going to fall in love with, mainly because she’ll be working with her best friend, her favorite person in the entire world, so she’d do anything to make that podcast successful. once, i even told you about her going to college to make her dreams better, and you thought it was funny, which it is, because ster is not into study at all. but she is very curious, and college isn’t something only academically driven people can do. ster is someone curious and open-minded about becoming better at something and understanding more.i ’m just babbling, sorry. i just wanted to point out how ambitious ster has become in my head.

35. what’s your oc’s family like? who are they closest to — birth family or found family?

ster has, overall, three parents and one stepmother. basically, ster was a planned, fertilized child between two gay men and their lesbian friend. she lives with her two gay dads in seoul, one is a sculptor artist and the other works in high technology, something that allows them to live comfortably in a penthouse. one of them is her biological father, which is why she has “beak” in her last name.

these two gay dads wanted to have biological children, but of course, neither could get pregnant. they had a really close friendship with this chinese lesbian, who was also a plastic artist like the sculptor dad. they were best friends since college, and she was very close to the gay couple, they would joke around a lot that they were a couple of three, and the lesbian was like a goddess to them. so, they decided, “why don’t the three of us have a baby together?” and that’s how they decided to have ster! they went to a fertility clinic, one of them became the sperm donor, the lesbian became pregnant, and the rest is history.

the three of them lived together until ster was six years old. by that time, the gay dads officially got married, while her lesbian mom had a lot of relationships with other women over the years. her mom, who has the last name chai, was a very spontaneous person and traveled a lot for work. she eventually got an offer to teach at an arts university in australia, and she decided to go because it was a great career opportunity. they decided that ster would stay and live with her dads in seoul, and during school breaks, she would spend time with her mom in sydney. there was even one summer where she begged to take devi with her to spend time there, and they let them!

ster is really close to her dads and visits them every week, even after debuting. she also facetimes her mom every chance she gets. eventually, her mom found someone, got married, and decided to have children as well. ster became an older sister at sixteen, and now she has two little sisters whom she absolutely adores. she tries to send them gifts every month because she doesn’t get to spend much time with them, so she wants them to remember her as the cool older sister who became a k-pop star.

60. has your oc ever had their heart broken?

of course she had. sahyuk wasn’t her first boyfriend, although he is the only one she can genuinely say she loves. but i don’t think ster ever really got her heart broken, even when dating. she did get rejected sometimes by boys at school, and that made her cry and stay in her room, skipp classes, the same way couples do after breakups. in total, i think she dated over three guys, counting sahyuk. the first one was a summer fling with this teenager in australia, he was blonde, skinny, and had that accent. they dated for the entire summer vacation, which was just one month. they tried to keep dating long distance, but the guy started ignoring her texts. they didn’t officially break up, but you know, she got ghosted. that was way worse because she kept calling him her boyfriend to her friends when she got back from vacation, and when he stopped replying, she felt dumb and annoying. it was traumatizing for her. the other guy she dated was during her last year of high school. she didn’t get heartbroken by him, but she felt sad because she started getting tired of his presence. she didn’t want to feel that way because he was sweet, but they had nothing in common. he was just cute. she got sad after breaking up with him because, well, he was really cute he had the potential to date her for more than three months if things were different. and the other time she got heartbroken was when she had to end with sahyuk because that time she really had real feeling for him.

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10, 20, 26, 38, 57 + pilkyu

10. is your oc a light sleeper or a heavy sleeper? how are their sleeping habits?

he is a light sleeper. pilkyu is the type of person who needs his room to be in complete darkness to fall asleep. he starts to wake up even with the tiniest bit of light, so he probably also sleeps with an eye mask. he isn’t the type to take naps during the day, even though his schedules are packed and he’s probably very tired. he doesn’t like to mess up his sleep schedule, and he takes sleep medicine when he has long flights.

20. does your oc tend to prioritize family or friends?

family for sure! why would he prefer pyd over his own mother? she is the greateast person ever. he does everything to make their parents proud and happy. i know i joke a lot about pilkyu being a bae, but he truly loves to be a part of that family, his favorite memory is even going to church with his grandma in jeju, only because there was those closet gay kids (there is a lot of them, and pilkyu made sure he did with all of those when he was younger) that he would flirt and make out. by the way, i thought yesterday that probably the first time pilkyu had sex was when we has fourteen and he had sex with one of the grandkids from the ladies church club of his grandma in jeju.

26. what does a typical breakfast look like for your oc? do they usually eat it?

very healthy because he prioritizes staying in shape, so he probably just makes a protein shake to drink and eats some veggies, like avocado toast with eggs. I don’t know, it’s just healthy, I think

38. what does your oc’s room look like?

Very clean, minimalistic, with white sheets, and well-organized. He probably hates it when Andy makes a mess out of it. He never spoke directly about them, but sometimes he gets really tired trying to put everything back in the places he likes.

57. how does your oc act when they’re in love?

i believe you can only tell that pilkyu is in love more by the way he tries to conquer someone than by the way he acts when he’s already with them. he loves the chase, loves trying to make people fall for him, and he doesn’t stop until he gets what he wants. however, when he was in a relationship with andy, it was kind of weird because you wouldn’t even think he loved him, but he did! the problem, and i believe this might be genetic since almost every bae has it, is that they have a hard time showing affection because they associate affection with weakness. he likes feeling superior and being loved more than showing love. he isn’t a very touchy person, even though he’s a very sexual being, he doesn’t like holding hands or hugging.

but something he truly values is security. i think the best way you can tell he’s in love is by the way he makes space for someone to be who they are. pilkyu never tried to change andy or his magnificent personality. even though they’re polar opposites, he never tried to mold andy to be more like him, he always prefered him just the way that he is. Instead, he tried to make andy feel comfortable, he let him wear his clothes, make adjustments in his apartment, and even decorate the fridge with those magnet pins. he might be a very cold person but you can tell he isn’t a bad person.

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Hailey breaks down 13 looks, from WNDR to Go Off | Life in Looks | Vogue

Hi Vogue. This is Hailey and I'm going take you through my life in looks. I lived a lot in a short period of time so let's found out what is in here.

Birthday Party Look

Oh, so we’re gonna start like that? Okay… That was my 20th birthday party. I want you guys to keep in mind that it was the first time I had money. I was still a silly teenager inside, so I just wore everything I thought was cool, all at once! That’s why I was so loaded with necklaces and bracelets.

This fringed Fendi bag was the cutest thing I had and I remember that I bought online in a vintage instagram account. Réalisation par still makes the simplest and prettiest dresses to this day, I loved that dress so much! It was so comfortable to wear, and I remember just wanting a cute, short dress that I could dance comfortably.

I LOST THIS JACKET IN THE MIDDLE OF THE PARTY, thank god, because this is a ugly jacket... Besides that, I have such good memories from that day because it was actually the first time I ever threw a birthday party, which was something I had in my whish list since I was a trainee.

Actually, Seulgi’s outfit at this party was way more iconic than mine. She made a statement with that little boat Chanel hat.

2. 2040 Ong World Concert

This was the time that I would personally call our "breakthrough" moment on a worldwide scale. We were very lucky to be well received by the korean public since our debut, which allowed us to become a very successful and stable K-pop girl group. Then we released the Kill Bill mini album, and we just exploded everywhere. I mean, it was insane!

Everything needed to be sexy and kinky for us, and I lived for it! I had the idea to wear this corset backwards because I thought the knots covering my chest would look cool and would match the details of my Moschino boots. The stylists were worried because I kept asking them to make it cinched, and they were like, "Can you even breathe in this?" But to me, the tighter, the better. I loved every leather-inspired look we wore. I felt like I was in my element wearing those types of outfits, and I felt really sexy performing React.

You know something funny? I wore a corset in almost every outfit when I was working with the group, and fans started saying that I was being mistreated because my outfits always looked the same. But in reality, I was the one who personally asked if I could wear a corset because I loved wearing them! They looked so chic to me, and every chance I had to wear one, I took it.

3. Moschino Fashion Show

So, I don't know if you know or remember, but I used to be a global ambassador for this amazing brand called Moschino. This picture was taken when I attended one of their fashion shows during Milan Fashion Week.

Overall, this is outfit is very simple. The jacket fit me perfectly, it was slightly oversized at the shoulders and pockets, but it reached my waist so well. Those derby shoes made me look so cute, and the bag was a vintage piece from their '90s collection, which I took home because, look at it, it's so pretty. The glasses I'm wearing are a silly homage to Adrian Appiolaza, the creative director of the brand. He is such a sweetheart, and I'm grateful to have him as a friend til this day.

I loved working with them! Everybody was so kind and welcoming. Moschino was all about being playful and witty, their fashion runways always were different from each other and so we matched really well and I felt honored that they chose me as someone who could represent the image of the brand.

4. Get Stupid EP Release Party in Los Angeles

Usually, in K-pop, when you release an album, you hold a press conference or a showcase livestream to talk about the songs and the single. But since I no longer have a contract, I can say it: I hated doing those. It was so boring, I died a little inside every time. Like, nooooo! If I was about to drop something that significant, I want to celebrate by partying with everybody I worked with, my friends, and my fans! This was the first thing I planned while working on my solo debut, and it blended really well because all three/four songs were about partying.

Everything in this came from my personal closet. As you may notice, I love wearing jackets, it doesn’t matter if it’s a coat, denim, leather, or fur, like this Dries Van Noten you see me wearing. I actually I gave this jacket to charity because I don’t really have reasons to wear fur when I go out anymore. I also gave this prada mini skirt away. I mean, it’s gorgeous, but it's been ten years since this picture. My favorite part of this look is the fact that I’m wearing different earrings. I put them together like this because I lost the other pair of both earrings, so they just become a new pair. You know, couples that are different from each other can work sometimes.

If you compare this to the first look in this book, I think you can see a growth. My style didn’t change, I just learned how to present myself better, you know? I mean, I had to get my stylist’s approval before I went out but that's still improvement! For me, it was all about smoky eyes, messy hair and being slutty. What else can I say? I was twenty-two, blonde, and ready to get stupid.

5. 20th Years of ONG Entertaiment Special Party

You know when you're a little kid, dreaming about being a famous singer or actor? You imagine yourself dressed in a glamorous, unique gown at a prestigious event, winning a Grammy or a Oscar? Well, I reached a point in my career where I thought I was successful enough to make that dream happen. I wanted to see if I could get into Hollywood’s archival fashion department and borrow a dress for my label’s anniversary party. AND THEY LET ME!

So, this is a costume dress from a movie that I’ve never watched it, I have no idea what it’s about, but I know there was a princess in it and I took her dress for the night. And let me tell you, I have a LOT to say about that day. First of all, I walked barefoot on the carpet because nobody could see my feet under the dress, so I was like, "why bother wearing shoes?" I only put them on after I entered the venue. Basically, you can walk in this dress, but you cannot sit in a normal chair. So, I sat on the floor, on this huge red gown, and everything felt totally normal to me. But then I had to pee. Luckily, my bodyguard, who has been with me for years and knows me better than anyone, brought a winter coat for me to wear at the party. So, I took off the dress, went to the bathroom, and ended up spending the rest of the party in nothing but a black coat, underwear, and my Versace heels.

Could I have worn a sophisticated high fashion gown that was a normal size and actually comfortable? Yes! I would have looked gorgeous in it. But don’t you think doing something as insane as this feels more like me? I’m not an elegant or graceful person, I could never do classy without feeling like a total impostor. And honestly? I looked camp right in the eye, honey.

6. 1night Club Launch Event

This was when one of my dearest friends, Kayn from Arkam, launched his own club, and I would never have missed it for the world. It was also mandatory because he was dating our make-up artist.

Everything I’m wearing here is thrifted. I used to be a huge thrifter! I still am, but not as addicted as this girl here was! Nowadays, I'm more into exploring pieces in my closet that I thrifted a long time ago and never wore or remember i had it. I bought this jaguar-printed red coat at a vintage store in New York called What Comes Around Goes Around, and it's the piece that made this outfit screams Hailey.

I used to be obsessed with this skirt! I look so good on it, and you know the most important detail? It wasn’t a zippered skirt. It just had buttons in the front, and I could easily take them off. Normally, I’m not a plain-shirt-with-a-mini-skirt kind of girl, but if you look closely, this shirt didn’t have any buttons, it was just a knot holding everything together. And I don't wear bras, so I could have easily flashed someone with my tits. That's very me!

Yeah, it was a really fun night. I was one of the first to arrive and one of the last to leave, and you know a party was good when that happens. That, and when you leave to have sex.

7. Purple Sun Teaser and Music Video

That was the first time I appeared with my natural black hair, and it was the result of a bet that I lost while playing mini-golf with the girls. We had agreed that the person who ranked last would have to dye her hair for our next comeback in a color chosen by the other three. I lost and they made me dye my hair black because the only time they had seen me with my natural hair was in my childhood pictures, that I only showed them because of some documentary we had to shoot and Kyungri still thought it was A.I.

You know those flashbacks of the dead wife you see in movies? That was plot of the music video. I invited some friends to go with me to Thailand, 'cause in my opinion they have the most beautiful sunsets and made my friend Jeremy film us with a digital camera. We to Koh Samui island and just have fun and make memories, and create a music video.

All the outfits, except this one, weren't planned, they were just my usual clothes. I wanted to have a shoot of me on the beach just during sunset or in when the night is ending when the sky turns purple. So, Jeremy and I spent the entire day at the beach, filming me swimming and playing around, just waiting for the perfect purple sky moment.

The purple bikini set is from Gimaguas and that it was my personal. The knit polo shirt isn’t from a brand but from an artist called Patrick Carroll, who creates art pieces through knitting. Occasionally, he knits clothing as artwork, and sells each piece as one-of-a-kind. My stylish dm’d him, asking if it was available for purchase because we thought "And I love so deep we can not measure!" perfectly captured the meaning of the song, which is inspired by the people I love the most in this world. It’s also felt incredibly cozy to wear it, and to this day, I wear it whenever I feel cold at home.

8. Lollapalooza Festival

This was my first and only time performing a show by myself. I was working with Ludovic De Saint Sernin to design a custom-made outfit for the performance. They were showing me their archives to get my team inspired, and they showed this two-piece set. I fell in love with it!

I had a lot of hair extensions on. We had to glue my nipples to the top, not because I wasn't afraid to have a nip slip, 'cause hello, this top is made for it, but the fabric was so thin that we got scared there might be a wardrobe malfunction during the show. And it turned out great! This is one of my favorite stage outfits, it's just sickening. I was one of the first people in the lineup, so I went on stage during daylight. I was sweating a lot, nobody could even tell that i was actually feeling hot due to the weather 'cause this fit made even more sexy if my body was glowing with sweat. The crowd that day was insane, I swear it felt like the whole world was there and it was electrifying interacting with that many people.

I remember not feeling nervous at all that day, but something felt weird. Then I realized, I didn’t see Haneul praying for a moment backstage. That threw me off guard a bit, the fact that I would be doing this all by myself. Don't get me wrong, as I said, it was amazing have the opportunity to do a show like this, a lot of people praised my performance and i was very grateful, but I did realize that I wouldn’t be as happy in this industry as a solo artist compare to when I was in the group. So when the infamous day came, I found myself in a very privileged position where I could choose my well-being over a job.

9. Interview on the Tonight Show

This was me in New York, arriving at The Tonight Show. Dressing here for those types of schedules seems to be a big deal. I knew that people were already expecting me to wear something slutty, something revealing, so I decided to do the opposite of that.

This tie is from an independent brand based in London called Ella Boucht, they makes clothes for the queer and transmasculine community. They created a tie collection with words and phrases on it, and one of them had "dyke" written on it. The tailoring of this Alex Perry suit is amazing, the white shirt is from Moschino and the derby shoes are from nontitle.ml, which were so comfortable that I took them home even though I'm not someone who wears this type of shoe daily.

I just wanted to wear a look that was comfortable yet very memorable. Yeah, lesbians had a field day! I got more thirsty comments over this look than any bikinis photos on instagram, and I get it, I also would do anything for a woman in a suit.

10. Raye's Talk Show Interview

It's fun to noticed the difference between interviews in South Korea and the States. In Korea, you can show up to work for these schedules in a more casual look. Everything here feels more personal. Out of all my looks so far, this is the one that still represents who I am as a person and what I wear in my everyday life. I will never get tired of a jacket-and-jeans combo.

I'm very serious about my jeans collection, by the way. The key point is that my ass needs to look great in them, but they also need to be looser in the leg. I don’t like skinny jeans, but I don’t often wear baggy ones either. I'm not even joking when I say I can spend thirty minutes just looking for a pair to wear, I keep checking myself in front of a mirror, even do squats to make sure they’re comfortable. It’s a whole ritual with my jeans, and these Nili Lotan denims went through it as well.

This baby tee is one of those things I thrifted and then randomly found in my closet. When I saw it, I thought, "Wow, this is so pretty! I should wear it more!" And so I did! I still wear it to this day, it's my go-to whenever I leave the house to exercise. It’s become one of those tees that you wear so much that eventually will turn into your pajama, you know?

11. Billboard Music Awards Red Carpet

I feel like people expect me to explain this look in a deeper way than how I actually wore it. I was working with Ludovic de Saint Sernin team again, and they had this runway collection with this sheer dress on it. The model wore it with her breasts exposed, so I decided to do the same. In my opinion, if you want to wear something see-through, you should go all the way in, because sometimes if you try to cover it with a bra, it can look cheap. Oh my god, not me of all people, saying something is cheap. Anyways, I’m really comfortable with my body, always have been, so it wasn’t a problem for me at all.

One thing that was planned last minute was those David Koma gloves. In all my seven years working as a singer, I always tried my best to listen to the staff and work with them. However, our nail artist always got pissed with me because I would eventually cut my nails. So, they came up with the idea of using press-on nails, but I kept losing them. To save them from stress, I mostly wore gloves, especially on stage. Since this was an important event, and our last, I promised them I would get my nails done properly. But the night before, they didn’t last long... I felt bad, so I just told them to give me some gloves. They handed me the David Koma ones, look at head to toe and said it: "Whatever! If someone can pull this off, it’s you!"

I didn't understand why it had such huge reaction from people when this red carpet moment happened, as if they had never seen someone's nipples before. Which isn’t true, many other celebrities have worn revealing outfits on the carpet before i even existed. Charli XCX did it, Emma Corrin, Bella Hadid, Rihanna, as many others... But because I was a k-pop idol, they made it a big deal, like i'm the first k-pop artist to do that. It was life changing for them, South Korea discovered a woman body that day. My boobs are not even huge to made this commotion.

12. Spotted in Incheon Airport

That was a funny story, nobody was supposed to see me that day. When asian celebrities have schedules overseas, the airport gets crowded with reporters and fans carrying professional cameras. I'm not part of that culture anymore, so nobody knows when I travel. But a couple months ago, I was coming back from some errands I had to run in Thailand, and it happened to be the same day some group was returning from their own schedule. Someone recognized me, and soon articles started popping up with titles like "Hailey Honkrut Returns to South Korea After Years".

There’s not much to talk about. That’s just me on a regular day and the most recent you guys could find since I don’t do fit checks on instagram anymore, sorry. Again, I will forever be jeans and jacket type of girl, those Gucci blue jeans are my favorite right now, and those Puma sneakers are so cute, they’re my favorite too. Oh yeah, I recently started using watches, but only from this Thai jewelry brand called Patcharavipa cause I think they are cool. This is my travel bag from Chloé that I use for short trip. I mostly go back and forth between Bangkok and Seoul, and once a year, I take a vacation somewhere I’ve never visited before. And that’s about it.

13. Go Off Teaser Video

After seven years and a lot of soju in our system, wndr decided to have a reunion! And as I said before, I would only work as a singer as long as I was a wndr member as well!

I wanted the music video to have the kind of comedy often seen in chick flicks. I got really inspired by old Mariah Carey music videos. Basically, I played two characters: myself in a blonde wig I use it in Kill This Love, yes that bitch was back and she was wearing glasses and started working as the assistant of a powerful boss lady at a company, who was also played by me, and she would follow her everywhere while singing the lyrics.

For one of the scenarios, we were looking for an elite type of sport to be her hobbie, and I immediately thought of those Wilson tennis rackets with the huge "W" on the strings. W for WNDR, simple math! this Casablanca two pieces is originally a tennis dress that we cut it in half because I wanted to show my waist, and of course, every shoe in the music video had to be Louboutins.

By the way, I spent two weeks straight learning how to play tennis because I wanted the shots to look like I knew what I was doing. I asked Seulgi to come with me, she’s one of those people who are good at everything on the first try. She’s also very competitive, so I knew this would motivated me to improve in a short period of time.

While I as learning tennis, I had another idea. I didn’t want the company to announce my comeback or anything like that, I would have more effect if was a surprise. So, i came up with the idea of a youtube ad that would serve as both my comeback announcement and a teaser for the single, it was a clip of me on a tennis court teaching people how to "serve" cunt. It was a wordplay because in tennis, you start the game with a movement called a "serve." We actually got the ad to be played before people watch any youtube videos, I hope everyone learned a thing or two about serving!

And that was my life in looks.

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daehyun what do you think is the worst song to perform

the ones that we don't care about. king of a one-horse is horrible, makes me feel like I'm in a restaurant. and boots, I'm fucking tired of boots.

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i have a question for daehyun but i dont wanna seem disrespectful i just wanna know HOW CAN HE SLEEP KNOWING BYEON DANBI GAVE UP HER ACTING CAREER TO HAVE HIS KIDS?

I try my best to treat her right before we fall asleep as a thank you for giving me the best thing that I could ever have in my life.

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omg geovany what is it like to be the king of the future generation of gays from new boygroups?

the crown doesn't seem too heavy.

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ostin who are you again

wha'ts happening? I'm having to do a job interview all over again?

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dylan where do i take this girl i like for our first date?

if you are a kid, go to the movies. if you have the age to have your own money I would go to a place where you always dreamed to have a date. I used to work as a janitor in a corporate company during my trainee days and I saved all my money for three months so I could take my girlfriend to this crazy music festival that happens once every year in busan. took my friends car and paid a nice hotel room for a weekend and it's was really good. now I'm thinking I'm not the best person for this advice because I was going big on dates. if you don't go big then just go home, some people are into that.

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mingyu what was harder: being on mayb, dating linlin or having a child?

the boys are fucking chaotic but they are very easy to handle. dating linlin was something worth fighting. being a father? i love my kid but I'm scared 24/7 of screwing up with him, I am just wishing for him to grow up a little bit and start talking so I can ask him what he wants to do or like.

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mingyu what are your plans for nontitle.ml now that its becoming a household name?

a household brand is a little too much. actually, i don't think I want for the brand to become this big... the financial part of the company can give you a more correct answer about that. I'm really glad to see people wanting to have the items and I'm trying to make acceptable prizes for everyone, this is what we are prioritizing right now. also searching for more suitable materials to work with.

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allen tell us straight how is to be engaged a man that is in love with his best friend?

man, they are so adorable together!! my lockscreen is even a picture of them at kaili's wedding, they were stuck together like a clue. i could never compete with hyuntae and I don't want to.

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KYUNGRI arent you tired of having kids? tell us is jinhyung forcing you to get pregnant? are you in need of rescuing? please give us a sign if yes

you guys really think is my husband fault for that huh?

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keun why do you only have feats with haneul huh

because i really do play biases sometimes. haneul is someone who, alongside her other groupmates, is someone I will always have a soft spot for. i remember when I first saw her at her audition, I believe she still entering high school, literally a kid and then she started singing and it was amazing. I could feel that she was made to be artist, that it was her path and i had enough confidence to think that i could help her being one. I kept her close to teach on how to write and i learned with her that are those genuine people who can sing about their feelings. like i always liked to sing and write about my life but i always thought about what should be appropriate by the time, haneul isn't like that, she sings what she feels right now. every time she released a song you could tell when she was happy, when she was sad, when she was in love or when she is heartbroken. and with her and her voice, you enter this memory lane of what happened, not only in her life but in yours too. i cried when she did patience featuring zeev because it just made me think and live all over again what was like to see those kids growing up and be who they are today. I'm honored to still be able on working with music with her, honored to be the one who taught her songwriting but I never take the credit for it because every time we do music together I'm the one who becomes grateful to work with her because it reminds what made me want to make music in the first place.

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can sunny tell us what the hell she wants from a woman so i can apply

look, i'm not picky, i'm just not good with relationships so hit me up if you want a one-night stand or casually having sex. I'm sorry but i believe if i ever had a long-term relationship, it would be only with my ex, but even with that i i screw up with my judgment and not putting too much effort into it as i should. i feel like i'm a bitch for saying that but it's is the truth of the situation.

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hizhi tells us about your imaginary friends (or demons)

my imaginary friends sometimes are my demons and every single of them don't have names but I sense every time a different one comes. there is this little guy who tells me I'm not good enough. there is another fellow who keeps saying I'm weird but that's my best feature. there is this one who call me a weird and says that my sexuality doesn't exist, that I'm just an immature person who thinks kissing and physical touch is gross and I need to grow up. there is this one in my head that always play crack that by soulja boy, that one is my best friend.

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HIZHI WHY ARENT YOU TALKING TO JUN ANYMORE IM SO MAD I WANT A REFOUND OF MY TICKET I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD HAVE TO WITNESS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL FRIENDSHIP BEING TORN APART DID HE HURT YOU WHAT IS GOING ON PLEASE TELL US WE LOVE YOU GUYS WE WANT YOU TO BE HAPPY NO MATTER WHAT PLEASE KNOW THAT AND IF YOU EVER NEED TO VENT WE ARE ALL HERE FOR YOU AND FOR HIM-

if you guys just kept quiet and didn't spend your whole day talking about me being gay and being in love with him and writing fanfiction about it and sexualizing me every time you could, maybe, just maybe, everything now would be good. maybe i would never even overthink my feelings towards him and just now realize that I'm not in love with him, although he is the person i love the most in the world, I just love him as a friend and that's okay. but unfortunately isn't even your fault, it's mine for having chosen this career and having the full knowledge this would happen because this happens to every artist especially people in groups. it is my fault for feeling weird and sometimes hating my own skin, I promise you I'm working on that, and I'm better with myself and i will apologize and explain my feelings to you better this time, i will not scream and fight and control things and just let things as they are don't worry, okay? it's nothing jun did, I'm just not very good mentally those days and I'm referring to being alone. jun is respecting that such as the other members. but don't worry, i'm working on getting better, i promise you that.