Hurry Up, We're Dreaming

Hurry Up, We're Dreaming

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2024 💖

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Turned 38 today.

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It’s exactly 630am. Saturday. I just finished making breakfast for the nurses.

I am not exactly sure how long it has been. The months have been a bit of a blur, rolling in like a mountain mist.

I miss Mom. I miss talking with her.

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And another day.

Third night in the ICU for mom. She’s been through so much the past 50+ hours, but my mama has always been a fighter. She will get through this and we’ll be able to take care of her at home.

Love always.

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Unearthed this from my livejournal.

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Another Day

Universe, Gods, Heavens, Souls, Beings. Thank you for giving my mom to us. We need her throughout our lifetime.

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Day 17?

They were able to go out. ❤️

Been texting with various friends today. I am, at this moment, crying while typing this. Been super emotional the past days. It’s not about the I have been holding it together and now it’s about to burst type. It’s more of a feeling of concern and helplessness for others. This sucks. I wish we can all just hug each other.

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Man, I havent had good rest for nearly a week now. I am not sure how much longer we have to endure this.

Way too many members of my family are positive. More and more are showing symptoms. We havent sent these many people to the hospital in such a short time in our lives.

I wake up at night with tremors. I find it hard to gather the strength that I have to stay strong and healthy for the family.

Oh universe, the truth is, thank you for allowing me to come home. I probably would be a bigger mess if I were alone and helpless in the condo.

We will get through this.

Probably Day 4.

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Let’s write about COVID.

Right when the government announced the new lockdown in Manila, I already made plans to go home to Pampanga. It’ll be a good month to spend again with the family, I told myself. My mom has been asking me to come home the past weeks anyway, knowing that I was alone in the condo.

Then lockdown rules were announced here and there— the clarity was also not here nor there. I told my family that I’d rather stay in Manila than risk it. But the day before the lockdown, my cousin told me that it’s possible to pass thru and back home.

So here we are at home. Almost a week after that way back home. Almost a week since dad’s symptoms showed. Today, the family got tested. My parents and sister in law are all positive. Avid pro-masker brothers me and Carlo are negative.

Now we have to take care of the parents.

Day 1.

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2021

[remanence-of-love]

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Slowly building the feed because launch 🚀

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💪🏽

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someday.

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this was my post three years ago. And crazy motherfuck it has been such an adventure hasnt it? When I was in my late 20s, I had this big hear because I was too contented with my life — there really wasn’t much that I needed that I already didnt have. I dont know ah. I pushed through with challenging myself. And I guess there’s so much more contentment now? Can one be more contented? I guess I am.

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we good

My dear self, This is not the time of settling.
This is not the time of pausing.
This is not the time of fearing. This is the time of change. Listen to the universe. Move.
Move.
Set your goals. 
And do not stop until you reach them. KAIZEN. Always. 
Never settle for anything less than unexpected adventure.

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