SZA in Ctrl, but for how long?
Music video for SZA’s Broken Clocks off her most recent album Ctrl
There’s something uniquely enticing about Solána Imani Rowe, the young lady singer who was raised in Maplewood, New Jersey, just a couple clicks southwest from the Big Apple. Solána, better known to soul lovers as SZA, is a household name now. We’re almost 18 months removed from the release of her critically acclaimed album Ctrl, and quite frankly, it’s difficult to string together an R&B playlist without pulling from her body of work. It comes as no surprise that she is in such high demand, her musical art catapulting her to a stardom that even she couldn’t have dreamt of. Whatever I think is enticing and fascinating about SZA, I can feel validated when I can see, and when I can feel, that I’m not the only one drawn to her gifts. It’s not only the vocals. It’s the ability to articulate her thoughts into words. It’s the thing that amateur writers strive for but ultimately fall short in, transcribing the human experience into letter. I thought her work in Ctrl was indicative of that idea, comprehensive and wholesome in its storytelling. And how do we do know SZA is that good? Even if she wasn’t selling out arenas around the world or moving units, people would still naturally gravitate towards her.
So back to that enticement. It’s a particular thrill, really. And I bet you’re wondering how can I be so full of praise when the title of my own piece suggests the space she currently occupies is finite and liminal? I guess what pulls me in even further is the substance behind her work. Ctrl deals a lot with SZA’s own struggles with anxiety and self doubt, and the artist is raw in her storytelling, letting us reach our own conclusions. As Liam Freeman observes, “Rowe’s candour is perhaps what has chimed most deeply with her audience – her songs lay bare her own vulnerabilities, desires and emotions as she traces the experiences that have forged her identity. From talking about not shaving her legs in “Drew Barrymore” to admitting feelings of inadequacy in “Supermodel”, Ctrl plays out like a diary, with no subject off the table.” Yes, we all can agree her work is nothing short of wonderful and deeply settled in the uncertainty of the twenties. The themes of female empowerment, the forging and asserting of independence, the imbalance between work life and a love life, and the exhausting search for fulfillment are all present. Probably the most controversial (but my favorite) tune on the record, The Weekend, is SZA telling us her delight in sharing a lover with two other women, although she finds refuge in the fact that she feels no sense of attachment to this person and its more for sexual gratification, so therefore she isn’t the one being use. It may be unsettling in its logic initially, but it is honest, and more importantly, SZA protects herself in her justification (and I’m open to the pushback on that one.)
SZA performing The Weekend live in front of an intimate audience.
I still haven’t talked about that enticement. Okay, so here it goes. For listeners of soul and r&b, the aesthetic of one’s own suffering is as uncomfortable as it is inviting. Spread the pain, share the wisdom. In her earlier self-released albums, SZA experimented with structure and content, but it wasn’t until the specificity in Ctrl where we saw a sort of wholeness to her art. But even then, there was still hesitation. There was still something of a self-inadequacy that held her back.
“My anxiety had been telling me the whole time that it sucked,” said the singer, 27, soft-spoken and unreserved in a fluorescent-lit office. In an oversized woolly sweater, with one foot in a chunky Balenciaga sneaker slung reflexively over the top of a wooden desk, she could still enumerate the record’s flaws. Its sonic palette was too shallow, she said; its concepts and word choices were too redundant; its hooks could have been stronger. At one point while recording it, she threatened on Twitter to quit music altogether. When her label intervened and scheduled the album for release, she said, she “just wanted to hurry up and fail.”
There is something about the chaos in our lives the when we narrate it, it’s almost therapeutic. We feed off her storytelling, not for its honesty, but for what it reveals about our private selves. SZA has found success from sharing the things most people wouldn’t open up about. And I can’t help but wonder the toll that it takes, and above quote tells us about her erratic behavior outside of the music space. It’s the overthinking that can overwhelm and paralyze. Now under the spotlight, it’s not unreasonable to think there will be difficulties ahead. As human beings, we learn to see the patterns in behavior and thoughts in others and reasonably predict what’s going to happen next. Lauryn Hill produced her self titled album to much success and then stepped away. The microscope that is the music business will probe like no other, and I wonder how long before SZA takes a deep breath and takes a step back. Isolation and suffering makes for great material, but it is something that takes what seems like forever to process.















