all you need is blood

female. depressed artist zone dont follow if u dont like sad shit. don’t follow if ur under 18. the balls

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i don’t feel much of anything anymore besides sadness and inferiority. i freeze up when i try to draw and start crying because it feels meaningless. i don’t have anything to say with art. i’m just a dumb man child looking for attention, acceptance, camaraderie. i should make something meaningful but i don’t have the will too. that’s so lame. why can’t i just make something interesting

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if my hips didn’t look good i’d kms probably

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a pretty famous trans creator was really friendly with me until my art stopped popping off so i think she just won’t associate with me anymore because i literally have no clout which fucking sucks and i hate it sooo much lol we used to talk a lot in DMs too. sooo fucking laaamd uuuugggghhh i hate being a looooser

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some bullshit i drew today that unfortunately didn’t do too well. algorithm didn’t like busty girls today i guess

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cafe cuties vex :)

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this new mascot SUCKS

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i don’t post a lot of art on here (nobody cares either way) but i’m thinking of giving up drawing entirely. it’s not worth the stress, the headache, the disappointment. i’m not even making money off it. i feel like a dumb child half the time just making stupid crap nobody gives a fuck about. all the artists that cheered me on in the past don’t even care about me anymore. it’s depressing. i wish it got me a job or something but i guess my art is so unremarkable and boring no one would even want to hire me for a project. sad sad sad blah blah blah big fucking baby complaining. just kill me already dawg

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if you hate me then fuck u i hate me too. just leave me alone

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ugggh i hate ppl i hate talking!!! just leave me alone!!!

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got kinda depressed this morning because i want to feel pretty and i don’t feel pretty. i guess i wanted to ask you guys if there’s anything u wear that makes u feel more feminine (or make up etc). i just need something to feel better about myself

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i look kinda snatched in my underwear but i can’t post in fear of my shit leaking everywhere so just trust me when i say the hip to waist ratio is sick as hell

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i feel like an old fuck most of the time. sometimes i wonder if ill worry myself to death. if only

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boy moder i drew at 3 am lol

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also yea this is just me literally drawing my body type and thinking that e patches are cute but sometimes u gotta draw what u gotta draw

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sometimes i wonder what kind of brand of trans i am. when i was younger i fantasized about gender swapping a lot. it was kind of my main kink until i was an adult and then i didn’t really care. that was around the time that i thought i should be a woman. currently i don’t get any sexual feelings about transitioning at all, i just did it because i know it’s what i wanted and i couldn’t keep living in misery. (like at some point you can’t just hate your body forever lol) so idk. i know there’s a lot of terms like agp and stuff but i don’t think i neatly fit into any of those descriptions. that’s probably fine tho. labels dont mean anything. maybe i’m just me

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i guess i’m just always looking for some kind of sign that my gender is valid. sometimes i feel like a faker even tho ive had dysphoria before (still do actually i just know it was worse back in the day) had that weird relationship with my gender when i was kid and all those little “signs that mean u trans!!” type of shit. blah blah blah i guess i just want a little space in those trans girl stereotype graphs just for the type of woman i am

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sometimes i wonder what kind of brand of trans i am. when i was younger i fantasized about gender swapping a lot. it was kind of my main kink until i was an adult and then i didn’t really care. that was around the time that i thought i should be a woman. currently i don’t get any sexual feelings about transitioning at all, i just did it because i know it’s what i wanted and i couldn’t keep living in misery. (like at some point you can’t just hate your body forever lol) so idk. i know there’s a lot of terms like agp and stuff but i don’t think i neatly fit into any of those descriptions. that’s probably fine tho. labels dont mean anything. maybe i’m just me