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2.20 am is not an appropriate moment to write an introduction ...

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Glasgow. On the other side of the bridge.. 5 minutes away from downtown...

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My friend lend me his laptop !!! I have a laptop !!! After 4 months without a computer, I finally am able to work again on a laptop !!! Yeaaaaaahhhh !!!

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Smily summer time !!!

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This morning : Capoeira demo !! Nice moment shared with lovely friends ;)

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Leaving those beauties tomorrow to fly to Scotland !! I'm going to see my sister living near Edinburgh and then I will go to Glasgow ! Few days of calm and productive happiness ;)

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4 months without computer !

You might remember that my laptop died last February ! Until now, I still haven't find a solution to replace it ! It's been 4 months now !! Wow !!! I am a super witness of "Xtreme Survival without laptop" ;) To be honnest, it becomes harder ! I can't obviously work without one and that situation slow down all my productivity ! I began to face the fact that I might not be able to wait until I raised all the money I need to build my own PC and to buy a cheapest with lowest performances... That makes me sad... I find it useless to waste money on a crap laptop just to be able to work on emergencies. As I have project to stream, play, edit videos, I can't forget all that projects to to basically worked on simple things. But, as I said, I'm not productive at all nowadays. I need to check some important stuff, to fill some important files... I have to find a way... Or a computer on my way ;) hahaha !!! Have a nice night people !!

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Com os convidados para ir a roda ! O evento acabei. Foi um grande momento com energia ! With the special guests, on the road to go to the roda ! (I'm on the left ^^) The show is now over but we had a great time. There was a lot of energy ! I will try to post a video as soon as I can !

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Today we had a wonderful roda with a lot of energy !! It's nothing compared to what is waiting for us this weekend !!! I shared an amazing moment playing the berimbau and singing next to Contra-Mestre Criança and my super wonderful friend Branca de neve !!! Muito show !!!

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First day of the event ! We had a talk with Mestre Burgues and Contra-Mestre Criança. That was really interesting to hear stories about them. How they started capoeira and so on. After we had to stretch a bit and we worked on moves high and low. Today, I had to take my exam and I got 80% !!! Yeahhhhh !!! I'm lucky cause it's been a month that I could practice because of compartment syndrome possibility. I'm lucky to be able to practice for this wonderful moment !!! This is continuing all the week ! Tomorrow : Roda !!!! This will be great ;)

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Here I am ! Still moving forward !

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Yesterday we took part at the first night of martial arts in Rosny (France) Our sport was considered as a martial art and not just dance or folklore which is really important ! We had such a good time there ! It was amazing. The video is better than my words tonight ;) Enjoy !

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Fat !!!

Since I was 8 years old, I began to gain more and more weight. Why ? As a kid it was difficult to accept my parent's divorce. As the eldest of my 4 siblings to have responsibility. And also as a girl to be abused by my step-father at 10. I remember, I choose to be ugly instead of attracting men yo avoid any more abuse situations. And in my mind the solution was to get fat. I'm sorry if I offend some people here. I know beauty is inside but I also recognise that my beauty expectations are not being fat. So, until few years I lived in this food world without really looking for a solution. I always complained about how I looked and my weight without knowing why. I found out the reasons I told you earlier and I started to work on my behaviour . I have an binge problem with food. It's like having to fill all the emptiness I had in my soul with food. Results are: getting fat and not self-confident ! So, now, I'm trying hard to make my life shiny and to work on my body to get what I always had in my mind. To be honnest I never dreamt to be thin but to be sportive. After my back surgery I took my time to recover and a year after I started again capoeira. In January, I started a new way of living. Eat when I'm hungry and just eat non transformed food. So if I wanted to eat good things, I had to cook. It was a real success. No sugar, no alcohol, no industrial food... Just fresh food. I lost like 7 kg in a month. In February, I got scared and got that paradoxal behaviour. I thought I could eat what I wanted as I was doing sport, I'd still lost it. And in fact, I didn't gain weight nor lost some. I kept a good balance. But also get the fear to not have excuses to be sad. (that one is weird but it exists. If I had no more excuse to complain, how could I do... Binge was back) But: I didn't expect to get on depression in March. That was really bad. And it didn't help me to follow my goal set. I gain 3 kg and this make me more depressed than I was. The depression was caused by a job experience and by a bad behaviour of some of my relatives. I spent my birthday alone whereas I wanted to have friends around me. But they all were away, forgetting my birthday, cancelling the dinner we planned. This made me sad and angry. Not really helped me to feel better. All this ended few days ago. I, now, feel more relax and ready to fight for my dream to get in shape. It's so difficult by myself because none around me is taking it seriously. "oh, c'mon, you just live once" Well, being fat is not really a state of living for me because I always complain and being not happy with it. So I choose to change and to be happy ! This is hard for me. I work a lot on my mind to be able to change on the outside. And that's also why it's working. I really hope to be strong enough to get on shape. I'm scared of feeling weak and to binge again or to get depressed. I may wrote a lot about it or make some youtube videos to help me to get track. I will do all my best to achieve this goal and to work on my future now !!! I want to be happy and to live fully !!! So let's move on ;)

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Mass Effect 2 !

I've just finished the game ! I was surprised to be able to kill the ending boss but not to be able to finish a secondary mission because I did not have enough charisma !!! So medic scans will always be atrocious for poor human being who are not able to read a contract made by a racist Asari... Too bad ! Anyway, I really enjoyed the game and had a lot of fun ! I'm not quite ready to begin a second time to get full score. Well, in a way, I don't care to get everything ! I was happy to get rid of Miranda at the end, she was absolutely useless ! Well, you guessed it's a character I did not like at all ! 4 characters died during the suicide mission. And I also did not have Ash on my side. :p (oops, I was playing the rude Shepard while I met her without knowing she could join) So, bye to Legion which was not faithful, Miranda (also not loyal) but I regret Thanes and Grunt ! I spent like around 45 hours cause I'm a slow player but I went in every corner of the galaxy to be able to get missions and upgrade my characters. I don't know yet, which game will be the next. I started Fallout 3 and stopped for Mass Effect 2 but I'm not sure I want to continu it. I'll see ! Enjoy !

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Here is a nice picture of my capoeira team ! Yesterday was the birthday of the group, we had a nice roda, playing, singing and enjoying a lot !!!

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Compartment syndrome

I practice Capoeira and I'm training to participate to the world championship which will take place in Brasil next august. 10 days ago I've been hit at the leg and there's a potential compartment syndrome. I didn't know it could be that bad but, fortunately it's just potential ;) I will take some test to check if it's ok or not ! I hope everything will be ok because I have an event in 3 weeks (an event I've been preparing for a year) Why after 10 days ? As I ignored how bad it could be, I continued to practice as usual: 3 times a week. I also took a danse class and walked a lot ! Now, I know that it wasn't a good idea because it could worsen the case. I felt more pain and that's why I felt worried about it ! The thing you have to stick with is : health is just for one life ! Never think that everything will be ok, "it's just pain, I can manage it." No !!! We are not superhero ! Pain is the way our body put an alarm ! Be safe and listen to your body ;)

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France : 1st presidential election tour

Choose a president nowadays is like voting for the most popular. You know, at school, the one who claim for french fries at lunchtime and more free time ! But when he has to work on it, he realise that it's not on his power. Also, when you express a "white vote" it doesn't count... I'm pretty sure that when the FN will pass the second tour in few years, that all the others politics will rise like one man saying "er... There's more white votes than the percentage that choose you, so it's not valid." and then, they will work on how counting "white vote" to avoid a national crisis. They always play the same game: 1st tour is between the worse and the fear. Easy to find out which they, now, prefer to walk with. France is not anymore the revolutionary Nation... It's the lobbying control Country. All I express here is my opinion. If you disagree, you can, no need of hate !

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Life...

... Or how to hire a spaceship crew ? Better be really professional when you're going to space ! There some rules to follow and some training to maintain body and mind up to work properly ! This movie was a nice entertainment. An easy one. Unfortunately characters's psychology were not enough shared to let us show emphasise. But I enjoy until the end. I guessed some turn over because of the directing which doesn't let much choice to the speculation ;) When some people are not professional, they're not until the end ! That's maybe something to cheer up because, at least, it is logical as if it's a sad ending for earth ! I suppose you saw the movie before reading this... If not, oops, spoiler alert... Too late... Well, I'm reacting like the characters in "Life": It seems to be a good idea at the moment ! Hope you enjoyed it !