Amanda

Professional Taylor Swift fan. 324B21. I want to adventure around the world with a cup of coffee, make good energy and expand my mind.

[loveeisaruthlessgame]

My London Jingle Bell Ball Story, 10/12/17

So basically, I could’ve met Taylor last night but I didn’t. I’ve never felt so heartbroken in my life.

Here’s what happened.

I had quite a few signs and hopes leading up to the JBB in London. First of all I actually managed to get tickets! Taylor liked a photo of me a few days ago. I got interview by Capital FM about attending the show. We got to the arena to find out seats were AMAZING. I also had posted a photo of myself online which kept re-appearing on the big screen at the ball. Everything just felt right. I thought, maybe… just maybe tonight might be the night I get to hug Taylor, but I told myself to keep calm - so I did.

So, me and my boyfriend Will got ready and headed straight to the O2 once we had got ready. We hadn’t eaten since breakfast so we tried to find somewhere to eat within the O2 but everywhere was so busy and I wanted to get sat in the arena (kind of slightly hoping perhaps someone in Taylors team might be out and about early getting fans before Taylor comes out). So we got something to eat ASAP and headed straight for the queues to get into the arena. 

Whilst waiting in the queue I was reblogging my photo, talking to my other swiftie friends about how excited we all were. Everything was amazing. We FINALLY got to our seats and they were amazing!!! We were in Block A3 and SOOO close to the stage, I have never been that close to the stage in my life. Here’s a pic:

(Yes we are very blue looking lol)

So we got to our seats around 4:50pm, amazed at our view. I knew Taylor was going to be the first act at around 6pm so I didn’t want to go anywhere in case we missed anything (or you know, a member of Taylor’s team suddenly comes looking for fans…) so we stayed put in our seats. I go for my phone to again, go on Tumblr chat on WhatsApp… but no signal. I try connecting to the O2 WiFi… wouldn’t work. I rebooted my phone and tried again… nothing.

So I just thought, what else can I do? I constantly tried over and over again trying to get some sort of internet connection but nothing was working. 

Taylor finally came on and opened up the JBB and she was AMAZING. I never thought IN MY LIFE I’d be able to see Taylor perform SOOO close to me. I couldn’t even get seats this close at her actual tour!!

I filmed a few bits - as you do. I even tried to put some videos on Snapchat but my internet was still not working. So I just enjoyed the show.

Once Taylor had finished my throat was hurting so bad from screaming along to the lyrics, me and my boyfriend Will decided to go get a drink. Whilst on our way to the bar, during the queue for the bar and on the way back to our seats I was STILL trying to get online somehow but the internet and WiFi was just not working at all.

Starting to get frustrated and wanting to save my phone battery which was getting lower and lower the more I kept pestering at the internet I decided to leave my phone alone as much as possible. So the night goes on and the show goes on. I enjoyed every minute of it being so close to all these big artists!

So… around 10:30pm the show had finished. Me and my boyfriend Will start making our way out of the arena. As we were exiting, I finally… FINALLY get some internet connection!! I started messaging my friends asking where they were wanting to go meet them. I was upset that tonight clearly wasn’t the night I was going to meet Taylor, but I went online anyways to see if anyone else had met her tonight.

So I click on Tumblr, and I have an unread message. Who’s the message from? Taylor Nation. I froze. In the middle of a massive crowd of people trying to exit, I just stopped completely still. My boyfriend turned around and knew something was up. I started reading the message and I was like omg they’ve said Taylor wants to meet me after the show!!!! Getting all excited I and jumping around I continued reading to get my world shattered in pieces. The message actually came through at 5:10pm, about 15-20mins after I had got into my seat and lost connection. It said that I was to meet Taylor after her set. It was currently 10:30pm, her set had finished 4 hours ago. 

It was too late.

Happiness soon turned into tears and my boyfriend couldn’t do anything but hug me and tell me he’s sorry. I could not believe my unluckiness. I had the invite to meet Taylor for hours, sat in my Tumblr messages that I couldn’t get access to because I had to internet connection. 

I’m absolutely heartbroken. You always start thinking what ifs, if I had got to my seat just a bit later I may have already received and read the message beforehand, if I had somehow borrowed my boyfriends phone to log into my account….. the list could go on.

I cannot express in words how devastated I am feeling right now. I don’t quite know how I’ll get over this feeling of regret and pure sadness. 

I just want to say I am soooo so sorry I didn’t get the message in time. The feeling of knowing you wanted to meet me Taylor just makes me cry, I am so so thankful. You were amazing last night and I’m so glad I got to see you perform from close up. 

I see you again on 8th June at the Manchester show. 

(I’ll be in Block 127, row U, seats 754/755)

I hope I get another chance to meet you Taylor. I love you so much and have been by your side for the past 10 years. I cannot WAIT to see you again next year, I wish I could afford to go to more shows but I just can’t :(

Please please remember me and I hope I get another chance to give you a big hug next year.

@taylorswift @taylornation

[tasyoungreckless]

i am so sorry this happened to you but i promise life has some really weird ways of working out. it is going to happen love!!  @taylorswift @taylornation

[khalsima-swift]

REBLOG AND HELP ANFELLOW SWIFTY!

[khalsima-swift]

Yes I’ll be obsessing and reblogging this photo for the rest of time because I STILL CANT BELIEVE IT HAPPENED! 😭 @taylorswift

[khalsima-swift]

That moment when… after 9 years, 2 breakups, a handful of lost friendships, you exit your teens and enter your 20’s, two tattoos, you move from NY to TN and back to NY… with only one person being there the whole time… and you finally meet that person. TAYLOR. YOU are that person. YOU have been my one constant, and my best friend, and you will continue to be. I was so overwhelmed with emotion I’m pretty sure I forgot to say “Hi, my name is Amanda.” There are not enough words to describe my love and gratefulness for you!!!! But if I had to try, I’d probably say “people haven’t always been there for me but music always has.” “It was the night things changed, can you feel it now? …. we never gave in, and we sang hallelujah.” “Long live the walls we crashed through, I had the time of my life with you.” “It’s like I got this music in my mind saying it’s gunna be alright.” Taylor, you’ve brought nothing but light and hope and optimism and friendship and companionship and self worth into my life, and I can’t thank you enough. On top of that, I want to say I’m so PROUD of you. For everything. For this album. For the person you are and inspire me to be. For teaching me the importance of treating others WELL and for never losing sight of that. I always told myself, after every failed attempt to meet you, that that must mean we have more things to go through together. More things for me to thank you for someday. And while I think this will always be true, and you will always be my constant, I can definitely relate to “I’m doing better than I ever was,” and I know now we’re both moving on to what comes next. So again, thank you thank you thank you ❤️ I can’t wait to see you next on tour! Love, Amanda @taylorswift

[khalsima-swift]

I remember when I said I wanted a guitar for my 17th birthday so I could learn to play like Taylor Swift and my best friend at the time said it was embarrassing. 8 years later, we’re taking a best friend pic and I’m doing better than I ever was @taylorswift

[khalsima-swift]

That moment when... after 9 years, 2 breakups, a handful of lost friendships, you exit your teens and enter your 20’s, two tattoos, you move from NY to TN and back to NY... with only one person being there the whole time... and you finally meet that person. TAYLOR. YOU are that person. YOU have been my one constant, and my best friend, and you will continue to be. I was so overwhelmed with emotion I’m pretty sure I forgot to say “Hi, my name is Amanda.” There are not enough words to describe my love and gratefulness for you!!!! But if I had to try, I’d probably say “people haven’t always been there for me but music always has.” “It was the night things changed, can you feel it now? .... we never gave in, and we sang hallelujah.” “Long live the walls we crashed through, I had the time of my life with you.” “It’s like I got this music in my mind saying it’s gunna be alright.” Taylor, you’ve brought nothing but light and hope and optimism and friendship and companionship and self worth into my life, and I can’t thank you enough. On top of that, I want to say I’m so PROUD of you. For everything. For this album. For the person you are and inspire me to be. For teaching me the importance of treating others WELL and for never losing sight of that. I always told myself, after every failed attempt to meet you, that that must mean we have more things to go through together. More things for me to thank you for someday. And while I think this will always be true, and you will always be my constant, I can definitely relate to “I’m doing better than I ever was,” and I know now we’re both moving on to what comes next. So again, thank you thank you thank you ❤️ I can’t wait to see you next on tour! Love, Amanda @taylorswift

[khalsima-swift]

Still completely on a high from meeting Taylor yesterday. I love that woman, I love this album.... ahhhhhh all the feels ❤️😭 @taylorswift

[khalsima-swift]

I NEED THIS SONG LIVE WITH TAYLOR AND ALL MY FELLOW SWIFTIES CELEBRATING EVERYTHING AND I NEED IT NOW @taylorswift

[khalsima-swift]

On my way to NYC listening to Rep on repeat and I’m like omg are things coming full circle!? Is this happening!? I love this so much can we have a dance party yet 😭😭😭 @taylorswift

[khalsima-swift]

So I can see a mashup of “How You Get The Girl” and “King Of My Heart” happening!!!

[khalsima-swift]

Love Story vs Call It What You Want To

The question IS:

Will the secret message parallel the secret message of love story and be something like “I finally found this” !? I NEED TO KNOW, THIS IS IMPORTANT! “someday I’ll find this” got me through life!!!!!!

@taylorswift

[khalsima-swift]

I had a blank space, and I wrote @taylorswift’s name

[khalsima-swift]

Guys, real talk though..... HOW AM I JUST LEARNING THE SECRET MESSAGE TO ‘A Place in This World” IS “I FOUND IT”.

HOW. AM. I. JUST. LEARNING. THIS!?!?!

This is so important!!!!!!!!!! I need this as a tattoo now!?!?!!!!! Because with Taylor I did find it 😭😭😭😭

@taylorswift I now need your help to make this happen! I need this forever, a part of me!!!! Deal!?

[khalsima-swift]

Meet-Taylor-Swift Application

Name: Amanda

Location: Syracuse, NY

Location Side-bar: Will travel anywhere!

Age: 25

Fan since: (before this) but die-hard swifty since August 31,2008 when I saw her for the first time I’ve concert opening for Rascal Flatts!

Songs of special interest: “Should’ve said no” because it was my absolute best friend when I needed it and made me realize I didn’t deserve to be treated how I was allowing people to treat me. “Love Story” because the secret message is “someday I’ll find this” and listening to it non-stop / sitting in front of the TV every weekend morning to watch it play on the CMT Top 20 countdown gave me more hope than almost anything else ever has.

Special Fan Attributes: 1) a “fearless” tattoo on my wrist I got in 2010, an “out of the woods” tattoo on my forearm in 2016! 2) Also, I handmade two bracelets for Tay before going to see her fearless show in college town, PA, Incase I got to meet her after. I (obviously) get to meet Taylor, but I wear them — along with her love love love bracelet and other era bracelets *every* show and will do so until I can give them to her in person! 3) I have a collection of over 40 magazine covers of hers.

Taylor-inspired costumes made: 1) junior jewels shirt, but instead it said team taylor and song titles in place of signatures! 2) sparkly dress 3) shake it off mashup—players gunna play shirt with a tutu!

Number of Taylor Concerts: 8 + 2 appearances at CMA fest; including her first headline show at Gillette Stadium, shows in Nashville, College Town, PA, Toronto Canada and Buffalo, NY!

Fun facts: 1) I once was sold fraudulent tickets to a 1989 show in Nashville. My friend and I circled through lines at the box office closed and were able to get one ticket. I let my friend have it while I waited outside for her because she’d never seen taylor before and tay taught me that kindness is a wonderful legacy to leave behind! 2) I saved all my lunch money for a few months in hs to save money to travel and see Taylors first stadium show in Gillette Stadium. I didn’t save nearly enough but my mom took me and my friends anyways cause she supports the dream! 3) my “best friend” in hs told me I was embarrassing to want to learn to play the guitar like Taylor (and for wanting a guitar for my 17th birthday). I got the guitar anyways and learned to play from taylors song books! (The basics) 4) at midnight of the release of 1989, I ran through Walmart once I got the CD in my hand cheering “Were out of the woods!!!” There’s video proof.

SO, this is a nutshell of what I’ve been doing for the past 3,380 days I’ve been trying to meet Taylor. Besides listening to her albums on repeat. Taylor — you nailed it on the head when you said “People haven’t always been there for me, but music always has.” Your music has been my one constant the past 9 years. My constant best friend, my constant source of hope. My constant source of goodness in the world. And I would really love to meet you and thank you for that. I’ve heard youve got a reputation for meeting your fans, and I’ve got a reputation for being one of your biggest. So, Please accept my application, @taylorswift .

Love, a true fan, Amanda ❤️

[khalsima-swift]

@taylorswift 3341 days and counting

[khalsima-swift]

I guess I’ll just stumble on home to my.... dog. @taylorswift

[khalsima-swift]

Meet-Taylor-Swift Application

Name: Amanda

Location: Syracuse, NY

Location Side-bar: Will travel anywhere!

Age: 25

Fan since: (before this) but die-hard swifty since August 31,2008 when I saw her for the first time I’ve concert opening for Rascal Flatts!

Songs of special interest: “Should’ve said no” because it was my absolute best friend when I needed it and made me realize I didn’t deserve to be treated how I was allowing people to treat me. “Love Story” because the secret message is “someday I’ll find this” and listening to it non-stop / sitting in front of the TV every weekend morning to watch it play on the CMT Top 20 countdown gave me more hope than almost anything else ever has.

Special Fan Attributes: 1) a “fearless” tattoo on my wrist I got in 2010, an “out of the woods” tattoo on my forearm in 2016! 2) Also, I handmade two bracelets for Tay before going to see her fearless show in college town, PA, Incase I got to meet her after. I (obviously) get to meet Taylor, but I wear them — along with her love love love bracelet and other era bracelets *every* show and will do so until I can give them to her in person! 3) I have a collection of over 40 magazine covers of hers.

Taylor-inspired costumes made: 1) junior jewels shirt, but instead it said team taylor and song titles in place of signatures! 2) sparkly dress 3) shake it off mashup—players gunna play shirt with a tutu!

Number of Taylor Concerts: 8 + 2 appearances at CMA fest; including her first headline show at Gillette Stadium, shows in Nashville, College Town, PA, Toronto Canada and Buffalo, NY!

Fun facts: 1) I once was sold fraudulent tickets to a 1989 show in Nashville. My friend and I circled through lines at the box office closed and were able to get one ticket. I let my friend have it while I waited outside for her because she’d never seen taylor before and tay taught me that kindness is a wonderful legacy to leave behind! 2) I saved all my lunch money for a few months in hs to save money to travel and see Taylors first stadium show in Gillette Stadium. I didn’t save nearly enough but my mom took me and my friends anyways cause she supports the dream! 3) my “best friend” in hs told me I was embarrassing to want to learn to play the guitar like Taylor (and for wanting a guitar for my 17th birthday). I got the guitar anyways and learned to play from taylors song books! (The basics) 4) at midnight of the release of 1989, I ran through Walmart once I got the CD in my hand cheering “Were out of the woods!!!” There’s video proof.

SO, this is a nutshell of what I’ve been doing for the past 3,380 days I’ve been trying to meet Taylor. Besides listening to her albums on repeat. Taylor — you nailed it on the head when you said “People haven’t always been there for me, but music always has.” Your music has been my one constant the past 9 years. My constant best friend, my constant source of hope. My constant source of goodness in the world. And I would really love to meet you and thank you for that. I’ve heard youve got a reputation for meeting your fans, and I’ve got a reputation for being one of your biggest. So, Please accept my application, @taylorswift .

Love, a true fan, Amanda ❤️

[khalsima-swift]

Forever fearless since 2010 @taylorswift

[khalsima-swift]

Story of my life 😂 @taylorswift