This Fucking Shit, Every Goddamned Day

Personal blog Kitty, 26, white genderfluid, Bisexual 

[khamomile-kitty]

Somebody please help me.

[khamomile-kitty]

I can’t fucking do this anymore. I’m sweating anc shaking and o feel like I can’t breathe. I live deep in shot country where almost every yard has this shot that triggers me to hell and back. I want to die. I don’t want to deal w this anymore. I fickimg want to die o camt fuckimg do this anymore I can’t live every single day like this it’s torture

[khamomile-kitty]

aaaand once again I learn that I gotta just stay off this damn website. Wasn’t even on the dashboard just went to check somebody o follow’s blog and the FIRST thing there is the thing that triggers me. Amd it’s in a format that is gonna take me FUCKING HOURS to fix. I’ve asked the ppl who follow me to fucking PLEASE tag that shit but it never sticks soI think im just gonna delete the app. It was nice while it lasted I guess. Can’t have fuckin anything on here.

[sayruq]

The Lemkin Institute for Genocide has released a statement saying that Israel is committing genocide in Gaza and the United States is complicit. The statement was released in the aftermath of the horrific attack on a refugee camp in Rafah

In April, Lemkin also issued a genocide alert for the West Bank

[hualianisms]

verified ways to send aid to gaza directly

Help a Palestinian family directly:

gazafunds.com - Donate directly to a Palestinian family in urgent need of evacuation, medical attention, food, rebuilding homes/businesses etc. (Spotlights 1 verified gfm at a time so if you don't know who/where to donate to just go here and donate to the one they show you!)

Help provide tents (urgent):

The Sameer Project: Currently providing tents for displaced families in Gaza (emergency bc tents in Rafah are being burned as we speak) (paypal) (gfm)

Food, cash & essentials:

Care for Gaza: Working on the ground in Gaza to distribute food, cash, medicine & other essentials to displaced families. (paypal) (gfm)

Direct Aid for Gaza: also working on the ground in Gaza to distribute food, cash & other daily essential suppliess to displaced families. (paypal) (gfm)

Water:

Gaza Municipality's water project: The official Municipality of Gaza needs help rebuilding the water infrastructure in Gaza City to restore access to clean water and waste management services for the people of Gaza. (This campaign only has a couple of weeks left but it's still only at 15%!)

eSIMs (urgent):

guide to buy & send esims for gaza

crips for esims for gaza: If you don't know how to buy esims or don't have the capacity to manage them (e.g. topping up regularly), this team of volunteers are collecting funds to buy & manage gaza esims regularly

Medical Aid

Palestine Red Crescent Society: Provides emergency medical and ambulance services and humanitarian relief on the ground in Gaza e.g. rescuing and treating the wounded.

[khamomile-kitty]

there comes a certain point into suffering where you just get sort of deliriously giddy abt it. Like I’ve been making jokes all day and I do NOT feel good lmao. It’s like your soul is still tied down w anguish but your body is like “I’ve had enough of this dude. I’m getting up”

[tamarrud]

The other day Hind Khoudary said something so heartbreaking in response to being asked about what are Gazans' reactions to news from that day, and she simply said "people here don't know, they don't have access to the outside world".

But we can help change that. You can purchase eSIMs and Mirna's team will distribute them to people in Gaza.

Here are instructions on how to buy eSIMs for Gaza. You should also follow Mirna El Helbawi to know which eSIMs are needed more.

For now, NOMAD, MOGO and SIMLY eSIMs are urgently needed. You can follow the instructions in the post I linked and email the QR code to [email protected]

[rethy]

I have no stable income so I'm limited in what I can donate and how often, but I've donated small amounts to this esim fund a couple of times. Pooling resources is a good way to stretch them a little further.

[opencommunion]

"US" locations of weapons and surveillance companies that supply "Israel" "US" locations of the "big six" military corporations producing most of the weapons "US" locations of corporations with active military contracts with "Israel"

"Canadian" locations of weapons and surveillance companies that supply "Israel" German weapons manufacturers supplying "Israel" (list on pages 54-57)

"UK" locations of manufacturers of "Israeli" combat aircraft components

More corporations invested in the genocidal Zionist colonial project

Nonprofits that fund the genocidal Zionist colonial project

[opencommunion]

more UK locations

[mortalityplays]

if you live in the imperial core, you profit directly from the genocide in gaza. yes, even if you are poor. centuries of our comfort and commodities have been bought with the displacement of populations, the manufacture and sale of arms, and the mutual wealth reinforcement of proxies like isr ael. the literal least we can do is offset a little of our privilege by throwing people a few bucks for food and water.

[mortalityplays]

if you can't even quietly nod your head at this concept on the internet, when are you ever going to do anything that counts

[fridgebride]

gazafunds seeks to uplift stagnant or otherwise struggling fundraisers for gazans seeking evacuation or simple necessities. i know many of the images crossing your feeds today are harrowing and impossible to fathom, but those in the line of fire need your help, not your complacency. gazafunds also urges those who are able to adopt a fundraiser to amplify to do so (you can contact them via their twitter.)

[fallahifag-deactivated20240722]

STOP. DON'T SCROLL. READ THIS TO SAVE LIVES IN GAZA. Below are some VETTED campaigns to support Gazans. These people have been experiencing an active genocide for almost a full year. Donate and share widely.

(may 27th)

Save a displaced Gazan Family (@ranibra) - Rania is married with five children, her husband needs medical care. She is now responsible to save her children. Help them evacuate.

Support Fahmi and his family (@fahmiakkila) - Fahmi's life has been turned completely upside down, and he now finds himself responsible to save his parents, sisters, & brothers - 7 members.

Save the Maliha family (@dinamaliha) - Dina wants to save her mother, two sisters, and three brothers. The family lost contact with their father when the genocide started. They desperately need to get to Egypt.

Save Firas' family (@firassalemnewacccount @prosolitudeeee) - Firas is a father of two children, a 10-month-old boy and a two-year-old girl, who are in need of safe haven in Egypt.

Help Husam and his family (@husamthaher) - Husam desperately needs to save himself, his wife, and 3 young children.

Help Nader's family to evacuate from Gaza (@nadershoshaa) - Nader and his family, consisting of six members, are currently displaced in the south; help them evacuate and survive.

The Shamaly family wants to survive (@daee571989) - Help save 15 kids and their family, who are living a horrifying active genocide.

Ahmd needs urgent evacuation (@ahmd-iyd) - Ahmd has lost his livelihood to this genocide, and needs funds to help his family evacuate and rebuild their life.

Help evacuate Hani's family (@skatehani) - A dear friend, and a Palestinian skater trying to evacuate 10 members of his family; he has lost his father to injustice.

Help Iman’s family find safety (@imaneyad) - Iman has a family of 7 who need to find safety.

Help save Youssef's family (@bba3lo @mahmoud7878) - Ahmed Baalousha wants to save his wife, his two sons, his daughter, as well as his parents and siblings.

Support Ruba and Amal's family's urgent evacuation (@rubashaban @amalshabn) - Ruba and Amal's family are lacking the basic necessities of life; they have an elderly father who desperately needs to be evacuated for medical care.

Save little Yusuf and his family (@ahmednabubake) - Yusuf is in an intensive care unit fighting for his life in Gaza; he needs urgent evacuation alongside his family.

Help Omar evacuate (@omarsobhi) - Omar is a 20 year old Palestinian student who wants to save himself and his family from this genocide.

Help Belal and his family to evacuate from Gaza (@alaajshaat) - Belal has lost too much to this war and needs to support himself and his family.

Do not scroll past this list without contributing. This list makes it easy for you to find a fundraiser to support. Choose at least one. Your contribution will save lives. If you cannot donate, share these campaigns.

FIND MORE CAMPAIGNS HERE

[khamomile-kitty]

Well just got another example of why I gotta leave. Parents insisted on watching a war movie and that everybody had to be there. And that movie had a flagrant and fucking awful racism. I react in disgust and it turns into a fight. My dad exudes a fucking terrifying anger and with venom in his words I only hear before he yells and booms at us, “No more commentary from you.” I am fucking shaking from anger and fear. He once threatened to bear me black and blue in a fit of rage when I was ten, and it flashes through my mind whenever he gets angry. It was the only time he ever said it, but I am terrified that one day, I’ll get him angry enough that he’ll do it. So I’m quiet even though I have no right to be. I hate it. I want to fight it. But even now as I’ve not said another word I can feel the anger coursing off of both of them and I know I’m gonna get chewed out for it as soon as the movie ends or later. I’m terrified of it. They fucking scare me. I want to cry but I know that’ll just piss them off more.

I HAVE to get out of here. I have to, I have to. I can’t live with this and never say a word.

[khamomile-kitty]

If anything will inject a little more will to live in me for a few weeks, spite will. I am nothing if not a spiteful bitch

[fairuzfan]

nomad referral code NICA74JU

but also NOMADCS25 turns the $34 plan to just 8.50! Works even if it's not your first time buying

Thanks! Send me an esim referral and I'll tag it with #esim!

[khamomile-kitty]

Maybe if you apologize for Eurovision you'll feel better

Ok you making me being suicidal abt your dumb little show actually cheered me up lmao. Yknow what, you’re right! At least I’m not one of you idiots! I think I’ll stay alive and watch y’all mald a little more lol. Also very heartwarming to know how much you think of me. <3 but you aren’t my type. You might wanna get over it?

Free Palestine!

[khamomile-kitty]

Lol I should know better than getting happy or feeling like it will all be ok. Life rly likes to kick you when you’re down, but it especially likes to kick you when you’re trying to get back up.

[khamomile-kitty]

lol it’s not getting better it’s getting worse! I am lonely and in pain! teehee!