Lioness Arising

"She flies with her own wings." 🌻♛🌻

[khareehca]

Thru these tears

Dear You,

Look at you.

Looking your reflection in the mirror.

Dull puffy eyes, pale skin, chapped lips, messy hair, dark circles around your eyes probably from lack of sleep, you've loose a little weight in the last few years not entirely because of cutting out all those unhealthy vices you had before but might be because of too much stress.

Yup, You definitely look like hell.

You're currently thinking what went wrong?

For these past years you’ve been perfecting looking fine to everyone, heck there were more than one occasions that you were even able to convinced yourself that you are okay. You were able to put up that facade that you were perfectly fine. Was able to automatically smile every time someone approached you or talk to you, was able to laugh when someone tried to joke around you. Giving your opinion and advices to others, listening to their stories and complains about their daily lives. It was almost perfect on how you interacted around other people. Almost the same as how a robot was programmed to act around others. You’ve made a robot version of your own self, being switched on automatically the moment your surrounded by other people and switched off the moment your alone. A robot that you’ve perfectly created to masked your current state of mind.

It's quite fascinating though, how the other people and the people claiming they know you and loved you really haven’t noticed it, you might have been one hell of an actress then. I mean other people really believe that you were perfectly fine, how some of your close peers think highly of you for being so strong yet just one look in your own eyes you’d see how hard you’ve been fighting your own demons. How hard you’ve been trying always to keep yourself afloat and refrain yourself from drowning from your own thoughts.

You weren’t actually always like these, there are days that you truly felt fine but there are also days when the hurricane inside you returns, the turmoil ignites and the commotion that you've been pushing to the back, becomes loud. The masked that you always put started to melt off, all the pinned up frustrations, the bottle that you've stored all your pain started to cracked. The insecurities, self doubt, rejections, abandonment and other negative emotions started to resurface. Its all starting to caught up with you. All of those negative things that you thought you’ve successfully dodge for in the last few years are starting to hunt you and slowly creeped up inside your body, mind, heart and soul.

And now, you felt that its all too much. To the point you’re body begins to feel too heavy to be carried around and your soul slowly turns itself into an endless pit of melancholy. Your knees started to tremble, the tears threatening to fall again from your dull eyes, all you want to do is to drop to the ground turn yourself into a ball trying hard to protect yourself from your own demons. This is when you turn grey. This is when you become silent externally yet internally you see yourself screaming but no one really heard you. It felts like however loud you tried to scream no voice would come out from your lips. You felt its too much. It exhausting. You've been silently fighting this battle for the last few years. And now you’re thinking you’ve reach your limit, doesn’t have any strength left to fight, all your weapon and armor are all damaged, broken. It's tiring, exhausting. Too much to move, too much its physically hard to breathe. You just want to stay on the ground curve yourself into a ball hoping, praying that it will passed through and youd be able to survive all of this.

I know you.

I know what your feeling right now.

I know what your thinking right now,

but please don’t.

Don’t give up on Love,

Don't give up on yourself,

and most importantly

Don't give up on Life...

Always,

Me.

[khareehca]

let it be mad, passionate; extraordinary #vsco #vscocam #fotografiaunited #photography #fotografia #skyline #dohaqatar #doha #paintedsky

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Placing my future in the Hands of Steal: DUTERTE

  Why would I choose Duterte? 

Since Mayor Duterte finally decided to run as a President I've been hearing this question a lot especially if people would know I’m from Davao. Many people would think my answer to that question would simply because I'm from Davao. Well, actually that’s right, my answer would be I would choose Duterte because "I am from Davao!" What a superficial answer of mine, isn't it? But if you’re from Davao or even just been to Davao you would know that it’s not just a shallow answer, it is actually a Huge enough statement. I would vote for him because I am from Davao, I grew up in Davao and I am a one heck proud davaoena. I've witnessed, observed and experience how this man works. How he lead the Davao to be the today's Davao. If you’re going to ask for proof how good Duterte as a mayor, as a leader or as a person itself look at Davao now, see how developed city it is today compared before, I think it’s one of the solid form and proof that could back him up as a candidate to become a leader, try to visit Davao or try to ask a davaoena/ davaoena about Duterte, and you'll see that just the mention of his name their expressions changed; you could see the pride in their eyes, the pride they feel and the respect they gave towards him just the way they talk about him. They once said that you would know how good a person is, if you could hear the feedback not coming from the mouth of the people whose close to that person but from the mouth of those people whom he don't personally know but was able to interact with him. Let me warned you folks, he's not your typical politician, he doesn’t have lots of bodyguard following him around wherever he goes, he doesn’t drive imported cars, instead he drive his motorcycle or his taxi, in lieu of suits/ tuxedo he wear his usual normal polo shirt/pants attire or leather jacket if attending a formal events, he doesn’t own a mansion nor have a fat bank accounts nor a massive properties and he swears a lot and when I say a lot it means mostly with all his sentence, but that’s who he is, we Davaoena accept him for that and respect him more for being like that. And I will still choose him to trust my future and the future of my family in his "steal hands". He's a realistic candidate because instead of giving us false reassurance and promises, instead of offering us the bed of roses and chocolates, the easy straight path or way, he rather warned us for an upcoming bloody battle if his going to win, he’s offering the bed of thorns, he’s presenting us the Reality, which is what we really needed nowadays. Let’s all wake up from the nightmare that we are in and choose to change. Davao City wouldn’t be known as one of the safest city in the world if it weren’t because of the leader and its follower. In Davao, were brave enough to always choose him as our leader, we give our wholeheartedly support and full trust to Duterte, we give him the discipline that he needs, the compliance to every rule that he required, the respect that he deserves and in return he give us the safety of our family and love ones, he provided us a much livable home, a well develop, clean and healthy city. That’s why in Davao City: The Life is here. In this coming elections I know all Davaoeno’s will be full support to stand behind him, in his coming fight and journey, we will always have his back no matter what, win or lose Davaoeno’s will always have Duterte, and either win or lose Duterte will always have the Davaoeno’s. It will always be a win-win situation for the Davaoeno’s and for Duterte. He's offering the nation a Change, but we should not forget that change should start from ourselves. He's been a great leader in Davao because he has a disciplined followers, he needs the nations discipline for him to become an effective leader of our nation. So my question for all The Filipino Citizens: Are you prepared to be discipline and follow "The Punisher"? Are you brave enough to choose our Father Rodrigo "Digong" Duterte? Who will you trust your future and your loved ones future with? Let as all remember "For a Great Leader to be successful, he needs a discipline followers.

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PILIPINAS: What went wrong?

Stumbled with this picture in my Instagram account the other day, seeing this made me feel awed by how this country had developed over the last 10 years and is still continuing to prosper at the present and at the upcoming year.  I’ve been working in this country for more than a year now and I could say that this country has a long way to go. Seeing the ongoing constructions in almost all places throughout the country just showed how focus their government are to refine and ameliorate their motherland. Their government is focus in their own country and their own people, they prioritize their citizens and they used their resources for their people before anything else.

 Now let’s see a picture in the Philippines:

As I look into this picture, the first thing that came to my mind is that: Are the Filipinos not tired of rallying almost every year? We all know that the rallies had been started way, way back before up until this very moment. We always have complains, might be because of the current condition or the current leader. But come to think of it, aren’t we the ones who choose that leader? Aren’t we the ones who choose them to become our leader? Isn’t it our votes are the reasons why they were in their position? So let’s ask ourselves: what went wrong?

I know it’s not good to compare our country to other country but I can’t help it, especially if I could really envision that our country has a much higher capacity to become one of the leading develop country in the world, for God’s sake we almost have all the resources we could get just within our country if only it can be managed and used by the Right Leader and disciplined followers.

I can’t help but feel somewhat envied how the country like Qatar was able to used their resources properly to build and developed their own country. If we’re going to based ones countries future and capacity to be a develop one on its natural resources, if only the Government of the Philippines has been like their government from the start, if only some of our Government officials especially those on higher positions used the natural resources, the Philippines treasure and funds for our country, for its citizens, for the Filipinos, if only some of the politicians weren’t selfish, greedy and corrupt ones, if only some of the Filipinos applied change start from their own self, we would have been; if not rich, would be one of the competitive country this time.

But then again we always have these “what if’s” and “if only”, that we already forgotten the “we should”. On the other hand; the good thing about being a Filipino is that we don’t easily give up, we always have hope, we always see hope to things, people, situations that also shows and give hopes. Now that the 2016 Presidential Elections are coming fast, let’s used the important and only power that the government has given us and that’s to vote for the next leader. This time let’s make it sure that there would be no “what if’s” and “if only”, let’s used our power to vote the much deserving candidate. Do not based on the candidates name, background, the previous position or how much money they could give you in exchange of your vote; Do not be dazzled and be blinded by the candidates power, status, money; do not let them buy your integrity, your future or even your life, because the money that they give you to buy your votes will only temporary, instead invest your vote to the candidate that could give you a better future. Always remember that a brighter future doesn’t happen overnight, it’s not being implemented in a year or two, instead it needs patience, discipline, hard work, cooperation and willingness to change and accept change. When you’re going to vote do not think of the “now” and “yourself”; rather think of the “future”, your family’s future, your kid’s future. Ask yourself, “What do you want their lived would be?” So vote for the candidate that’s offering you the Reality not the impossible dreams and promises. Do not vote for the one offering you the bed of roses but instead the one who’s offering you the bed of thorns. Vote for the candidate that’s presenting you the hard way not the easy straight way, because even a diamonds need time, patience, discipline and work to be polished, to be a real gem, what more for our country The Philippines who had been misused, damaged and become forlorn country over the past decades due to undeserving leaders. Choose the candidate you’re going to give your votes, Hire the one who has proven himself as a good leader, the uncorrupt one and has a well-developed city that could back up his resume as a president. Choose wisely, after all your vote isn’t just a simple vote, it held your future, so put your future to the deserving one. Change is coming, but we should always remember also that the change should starts from within, from our very own self.

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“Femmenessence”

          If you’re going to search the word “Femmenessence” in every search engine the first definition that would come to your screen would be about a herbal drug that would reduced the rate of having menopausal symptoms. And nope, this blog isn’t about that drug. I actually had this blog since last year, I don’t even know my main purpose for this blog, maybe just for the sake of having a blog. lol. But now, as I come to a realization about myself, I’ve also realized that since I already had this blog why not put it on a good use, I should probably used this blog for my own purpose, to share my life, likes, wants, hobbies, opinions, experience and etc. But above all, I wanted to have something that I could look back to when I get old, I wanted to have something that could serve as my reminder of what I had been doing in my entire life when I’m already in a rocking chair with gray hairs and wrinkle face and skin. 

            So why a blog? Why not a Journal? Well I actually do have a Journal but its too traditional, and it has a higher risk of getting lost, and lastly typing for me is much easier, less tiresome, its also the best way to avoid callouses along your fingers, to some it all up for me blog is much better in different ways. lol. 

            Why “Femmenessence”? I come up with this name because from the root word itself “femme” means a “woman”; “essence” means “the basic nature of a thing; the quality or qualities that make what it is; a substance that contains in very strong from the special qualities of the thing from which it is taken.” In the next post for this blog, i wanted to tackle about the essence of being a woman; most likely “My” essence as a woman. Since at this very moment I am in the middle of a dilemma where I would want to know more about myself as me. I wanted to know and learn my capabilities in my own terms, in my own point of view. I wanted to dissect my own-self from the very bottom up to the very surface of my soul, mind and heart. To know what My essence as a person,My essence as a Woman. 

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I'ts not about what dress you wear, it's about how you wear the dress. #ootn #diningout (at Pinoy Fiesta)

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(August 14, 2015

Life is...

I could not some up every definitions, opinions about what life truly are. But this moment i do realized one thing and that is "Life is short". As cliché as it may sound, it was indeed really true. I may have heard or know this phrase before but it’s just now that it really sunk into my brain and realized that it was indeed true. Just the last week I was saddened by the news that I received that one of my colleague passed away due to Leukemia. She may not be a friend to me but for the fact that I personally know her, for the fact that just 2 years ago we were working on the same hospital, same station, though I couldn't really say that were friends due to some conflict we had in the past; nevertheless were still acquainted and it still feel surreal.

As depressing as the news might be, it also delivered one important message and some realizations that life is truly short. You might be living at this moment, but what happened on the next few hours, days, weeks, months or years is beyond your control, beyond your plans. This just shows that we really don’t know what life stores ahead of us. Only The Lord our God knows what our life would be.

Beyond this sudden realizations I had, is the admonitions to live fully and be thankful for the present. To be grateful in every possible way. To appreciate everything even in a smallest way. Because we sometimes having a hard time acknowledging what we have when it was gone already, we kept on looking for other things that we tend to see beyond of what we had already. Oftentimes, only after calamity strikes that we were able to appreciate what we had, that we noticed what we have. As I had quote from the book that I was currently reading "There are times in the lives of most of us, when we have given all the world to be as we are but yesterday, though that yesterday has passed over us unappreciated and un-enjoyed."

As I was able to ascertain how precious my life; even if it could be as ordinary as everyone out there, knowing that I'm alive, healthy and still have a chance to do everything I want, I should be beyond thankful. I was overwhelmed by the desire to live my life to the fullest, to collect all the memories I could, to live everyday with positivity as i could. Each and  Every day, every seconds, minutes or hours that was and will be given to me, will be much appreciated, will be treasured as a gift from The Lord our God. I won't be wasting any of it by indulging any minute or seconds of it to any negative feelings, thinking or thoughts, it might not be easy as may sound it is, given that we don't have any control to what's happening in our surroundings but after realizing all those things, I surely know one thing; My outlook in life starting today made a big leap, it changes how I perceived life, how I appreciate what I have and what I will have.

I thank you Lord for this enlightenment you've given me this day.

"But now, put off all such things as anger, range, malice, slander, abusive language from your mouth." ---Colossians 3:8

"Life is short."

"Appreciate everything before it’s too late.”

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Have the Courage, always be Kind and believe a little bit in magic.

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“She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come.”

-- Proverbs 31:25

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Live every moment, Laugh everyday, Love beyond words.

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@25 #Kjourneyto25

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#bdayOOTd #swag #basic

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I would like to extend my heartfelt gratitude to everyone who greeted me on my Natal Day. No words could explain how thankful and happy I am upon receiving and reading all your greetings either via Facebook, instagram, Email, Personal Message, Call, Personal Text or in person, it is trully appreaciated. Its always the time of the year where people from my past, present and future collide. 😉 Thank you FB friends, past co-workers, previous Colleagues, Classmates, acquantances, Relatives, Friends, Co-workers, my family here in Doha (sisters- ET girls),my 4bff, Family, Dad, my brother, A big thank you for all of you. Sending you virtual handshakes, Hugs and kisses.👋 🙆😘😂 Above all I would like to thank our Lord God, Papa Jesus, without you I woudnt be where I am today. I owe everything to you Papa Jesus. Thank you so much. 🙏😇🙏

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#Journeyto25 #teaser

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Sometimes you will never know the true value of moment until it becomes a memory and deep down in you always have that unknown strange feeling, thinking that maybe you'll never have that moment ever again in this lifetime..

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"She Believe she could, so she did.." Happy Life doesnt always mean it should always be perfect, it means you have to look beyond that imperfections and live through it, appreciate small things and the things/people that you have. Happiness within is much better than letting your happiness define by other people or things, it is more euphoric, permanent, you always have that inner peace and it is so much satisfying having that kind of happiness because deep down in you knew that no one could ever take that away. Do not let other people or things define your happiness and self worth. You're worth is beyond that. #justsoyouknow #Advicetoallwomanoutthere #womantalk #citylights

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Habakkuk 3:19 "The Lord God is my strength; He will make my feet like deer's feet, And He will make me walk on my high hills.." 🙏