shout

Oil slick oceans upon cheekbones, rainbow as once was; now technicolour obsolete.

[killteen]

My biggest fear is that no one is that no one is going to be drunk enough to love me.

[31/1/16]

[killteen]

Performance Piece:

i never quite new who i was, i thought i did but i didn’t, i, a procurator of illusion, graveyard vandal, anxious performer; sighs. confession abstinence, legs caress: here. possess my incohesion, breathe my artistry, but don’t forget to bleed on stage.

[killteen]

I remember that summer, The breath of it, The blur; The tenderness of it, The obliteration of it all. Communication-less. Lips contract; here. Voices don't complete, words in absence. Expression restriction, Meticulous motion analytics. My body, Your body, and the secrets hidden inside rib cages, stay hidden.

that summer

inspired by ‘like crazy’ (film)

[killteen]

The beginning of a new year is fast approaching, I can leave the turmoil behind. No more regret of my decisions under false pretences. You told me no over the phone but didn't sound upset, you accepted it and that made me love you more. I don't want to end this year without you because when I'm with you it feels like home, like for the first time in my life the tides aren't sweeping me away from the shore. I just can't seem to be happy without you; and that's the worst part.

new year, new regrets

[killteen]

I find it hard to feel wanted sometimes.

just feeling lost

[killteen]

 ‘and I didn’t believe them when they called you a hurricane thunderclap’

go to 0:40 to skip the intro even though I wouldn’t

[killteen]

I want to fall in love like a body from a building

my journal

[killteen]

so much music, so many emotions

[killteen]

Cascading down the mountain-tops, I flow so loose I have forgot What lovers wish you made to me, I ripped it up; No guarantee. So permeate the barricade, For there is not much more to see, Come shelter me from lust, desire - For what I feel still haunts me.

liquid emotions d.c.

[killteen]

As sweet as apple pie, As sour as a lemon, Now I know why we weren’t meant to be together

bittersweet - d.c.