Wonderwall

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[kimmentarries]

Mahal hihinga lang ako saglit Ilalabas ko lang ang galit Yung mga ngiting pilit Ayoko nang ipilit Mahal hihinga lang ako Para kalimutan ang mga pangako Mga salitang napako Na tila'y parang kutsilyo Paulit ulit na parang tayo Sumasaksak sa puso't isipan ko Mahal magpapahinga na ako Ayoko ko ng umulit pa Ng mga bagong pahina Pero kung ikaw rin naman ang kasama Sana tapusin na Hindi dahil hindi kita mahal Ngunit dahil mahal na mahal kita Palayain na natin ang isa't isa Mahal, ayoko na Sapat na ang sakit Na nadulot natin sa isa't isa Sapat na ang luha Wala na muling magbabadya Sapat na ang mga salita Maglalaho na, parang bula

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First, you'll miss them Like every things you've encounter will be always remind you of your certain person. You'll talk to somebody else and you'll see the person you miss in that someone, eventually like he was everywhere. It was always the way he talk, how he talk and what he talks about. It was always everywhere because you have it in you. Second, you'll ache yourself for their presence You'll search everywhere, hoping to find him in somewhere. Maybe somewhere he's not meant to be in. Maybe he's waiting for me in our favorite bench. Maybe he's standing there outside my classroom. Maybe he's busy searching for me too. Your feet in that corridor but your eyes were somewhere, maybe he was here too. Hoping I'd bumped into him. But really, there's none. Third, you'll be alone Someone's company wouldn't accompanied you. It was you. And it was you alone. You would rather be alone than talking to the bunch of girls literary talking non-sense. Forth, you'll be fine alone Then being alone keeps you company. It will be the headphone that keeps your head loud. It was the phone that will light up your face when it's dark out there. It was the stories inside your head that will be worth your time, to be heard somehow. Writing your thoughts out because it will be your forever buddy. Fifth, you'll realize that their absence won't matter anymore Because you can do it alone and you will do it alone. You'll eventually will be alone anyway. Sixth, you'll get used to it -kfm

[kimmentarries]

Thank you. Thank you for making me feel pretty more than ever. Thank you for being here. Thank you for talking to me when I had no one to talk to. Thank you for understanding me. Thank you for all the effort that you’ve been exerting on our entire relationship. Thank you for the patience and all. And last but not the least, thank you for loving me.

That’s all I want to tell you if you just did better. You should have make me feel appreciated when you had the time. You should have payed more attention because that was all I’m asking from you. You should have talk to me more because I don’t want to overthink, I don’t want to think, I don’t want any single bit of the thought flashing. You should have exert more effort because that’s when I will know that you have love me even more. You should have wait for me, because I am waiting for you. You should have love me more than you say you love me.

Because love, I don’t want to question you but you make me question everything. I don’t want to doubt everything in you so you make me doubt myself. I don’t want to think negative of you so that’s when I start to question everything about me.

I lose myself the moment I found you. Now I’m killing myself because I’m trying to save you from my killer mind.

[kimmentarries]

Laughing at old self

[simplengbaliwww-deactivated2017]

I hope you meet someone who wants to experience you and not just see you by their eyes. Someone who doesn’t only want to have sex with you but moves their fingers over your body like trying to find a city on a world map and mark their favorite destinations. Someone who wants to experience you like a masterpiece. Whenever we observe a masterpiece we get the urge to touch it and most of the time we do, involuntarily, because it’s so perfect that we not only want to see it with our eyes and forget it’s details later on because I read somewhere that every time you recall a memory your brain edits it bit by bit so we long to experience it so that each part which contributes to it’s perfection stays with us after all how scary it would be to forget how perfect you felt. So I hope someone experiences you like a summer breeze stroking your hair, like the warmth of bonfire on a chilly winter night, like the taste of that traditional homemade dish by a mother for her children who’s taste forever lingers in their mouth. I hope you find someone who justifies in treating you like the perfect art you are.

James Boyle (via letterstoliane)

[kimmentarries]

I wonder how you would talk about me.

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I don't want to care anymore. I don't want to feel anything.

[kimmentarries]

Hindi mo alam kasi wala kang pakialam. Hindi mo alam kung hanggang kailan ako naghintay bago ko lumisan na. Hindi mo alam kung hanggang kailan ako umasa bago ko sumuko na. Hindi mo alam kung hanggang kailan ako kumapit sa salitang kaya ko pa bago ko bumitaw na. Hindi mo alam kasi wala kang pakialam.

[passiveoptimist]

When you left a girl , for the moment you said you dont love her anymore or the relationship is not working you probably wont hear her cry but you will hear her heart breaking into pieces slowly stabbing her chest. She will just smile and accept the words you said. Her eyes are blank but she wont tell you why. Shes not mad. Shes hurt. She will try to be brave and tell herself that she can do it, and if someone ask her how is she, she will just say shes okay. Tears behind the smile. Pain behind the laugh, but she wont let anyone see it. She was prick and she bled but she tries to stop the bleeding even if it hurts her so much she will just cover it and ignore the pain. Her room can see how she cry herself to sleep. Everyday she had to remind herself that hes gone and she need to be strong again. Sometimes she cant breath even the air is going in and out, she felt choking even theres nothing blocking her throat. it seems everything is okay with her, no one notices the scars inside of her. She show everybody that shes strong that shes brave of letting go of someone she really fell in love with. She didnt show any tears to everyone. It may take her long to forget the pain and to forget about all the things that boy bring to her, but after all the sleepless night and silent screams and tears, one day this girl with a broken heart will face the day with new healed heart.

[kimmentarries]

Mahal, hindi nakakapagod magmahal. Alam mo kung ano yung nakakapagod? Nakakapagod maghintay ng paulit ulit. Maghintay na muli tayong sasaya. Maghintay na muli tayong sisigla. Maghintay na bumalik tayo sa umpisa. Kung saan naghihintay ka. Hinihintay mo ko ng walang halong reklamo. Hinihintay mo ko kasi gusto mo. Hinihintay mo ko kasi mahal mo ko. Nakakapagod umasa ng paulit ulit. Umasa na kakausapin mo ko. Umasa na pupuntahan mo ko. Umasa na babalik ka, kasi mahal mo ko. Nakakapagod umintindi sa paulit ulit na sitwasyon. Intindihin ka kasi mahal kita. At sana mahal mo rin ako gaya ng pagmamahal ko, para ako rin nama'y intindihin mo. Nakakapagod magpatawad sa paulit ulit na rason. Isang salitang patawad para sa maraming dahilan. Pagluha ng mga mata. Kirot na kinakaya. Pighating kasama. Ngiting nagsilisan na. Kailan mapapawi ng lungkot na nadarama? Kailan lilipad ang pumapatay sa aking alaala? Kailan aalis ang epekto mo sa aking sistema? Babalik pa ba ang dating ako nung panahong wala ka pa? Siguro hindi na, kaya pakyu ka.

[kimmentarries]

I was just a book that you opened but don't have the intention to read.

[kimmentarries]

I love you. Like you're the one who put the stars in the sky or maybe in my sky. You put the light back in my darkest night. You shine bright when I need those light. I love you. And I was me before you came. Then I was lost when we became. I love you. Because I was sadness and you put madness in my life. I learn how to do things I didn't know did exist. I learn how to be someone when I needed someone. I love you. But you loved me. You don't know me back then and I know myself. I know you and I don't know myself anymore. I love you. And I'm missing you everyday but you're just missing anyway. So I looked away and wait for today. Today's a gift and it is called present.

[kimmentarries]

I'm so tired. I want to sleep for weeks.

[kimmentarries]

Babalik na ba ko sa kimbitterly? HAHAHAHAH TANGINA NAMAN OH

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I was eating alone at a fast food chain. Then my bestfriend came along with her boyfriend. They were my friends, asking why I am eating alone when I can have my boyfriend and we'll eat together. I remain silent. I don't know what to say. I want to defend you but I don't know how. So I keep my mouth shut while waiting for my order. My bestfriend go down to order for them. So I was stucked with her boyfriend. "Why are you alone?" He asked. "I fancy being alone. I want to unwind my thoughts." I said. "Something wrong?" He asked again. What would I say? No, I didn't say a word. "Do you guys still talk to each other?" "Uhmm. Yes." "I can't imagine myself being alone like you. If I was you, I would die. I'm not used being alone. I don't want to be alone." He said out of the blue. "My bestfriend would be so lucky to have you."

[kimmentarries]

By this time you had so many negative things you want to say. But everytime you are constructing a sentence you want to say, didn't seem to find its period. Because every words, and every sentence you want to end, you still believe that maybe you're just wrong. That maybe it is not. That maybe you just got your guts a false hope. That maybe the person you want to talk to is not the one you were thinking of negative things about the moment. Isn't it funny? How stupid you can be? You're not fighting someone else. You're fighting yourself by defending that person most of everytime.

[kimmentarries]

Hindi ako takot mag-isa. Natatakot akong masanay mag-isa. Kasi baka dumating yung araw na iwan kita. Kasi baka umabot ako sa realidad na hindi kita kailangan kasi sinanay mo kong wala ka.